20/12/2022
4 years ago
Hi, pleased to meet you. Welcome to the part of me I never thought I'd be brave enough to share.
4 years ago
Ponder what it is you wish to say find the words and contemplate their purpose.
For some words ripen with age while others wither and rot.
-Luvsik
Some days there are no words
I was no longer a suitable narcissistic supply
So she replaced me with some other guy
A crush and twinkle in his eye
Four and a half years gone
And I feel like I could die
I guess this is really goodbye
- Luvsik
She's definitely yours and the 'y' is definitely silent.
-Kill me now
No explanation could ever suffice
No conversation would ever quell
I often I wish I could just get over it
If only it were possible not to care
Our reasons might differ but the more we try to forget
To run from it
The stronger those feelings become
The more the hellos and goodbyes in the background of our minds create an unexplainable longing
Even so we carry on with this burden
Regret and doubt leave us unable to rest in peace
A high price for our severance for our betrayal to the love born between us
We carry on bravely and the thoughts dwindle over time
We refuse to throw away those momentos and keep them tucked away but the feelings remain in plain sight
Im afraid this will stay with us forever
After everything my love did for me and everything I did for my love
How could we ever ignore this feeling
How could we ever deny that wandering spirit we gave birth too
How could we deny it a space within our heart
The more we struggle the more we get tangled in those thoughts
With time those feelings become so powerful and unbearable that they follow us around like a curse
Felt, unseen but clouding everything
It’s completely heart breaking
The only solace there is, is knowing that the one who waits for me will never let me feel alone
Will never discard me
Will never leave me with no choice but to walk away
Will never hide me or their feelings for me
That she will cling to me the way we once clung to each other
That she will mean everything to me and I will mean everything to her
-Luvsik
You are a fu**ed off, selfish and cruel
Narcissistic fool
I feel sick and it's your fault
I haven't slept since I woke up to you beating me in the face mother fu**er
You’re as shallow as skin
You paint with pain
mark me with your disdain
You’ve been exactly the same or worse
I loved you now I hate
Forced me to suffer at the hands of the one I adored
Fix your problems with blame
While you start your cycle up again
You’re the worst thing that happened to me today
I really shouldn’t care anymore
My loves the only thing left that's pure
But I don’t think it will endure
It can't really live
can't really take anymore
So in it’s place I’ll hate you forever more
Everything I see reminds me of her and everything she did before
God I wish I’d never met her
The more I live the less I feel
I remind myself that her care wasn’t real
I lied to myself through her betrayal
I knew when she’d disappear
But still I wanted to believe it was real
Why is it even such a big deal
The truth can’t hidden or denied anymore
What the hell did I do this for
the last four years that you did steal
Is there anyone left in my life that’s real
What the f**k was I thinking holding on to her
I might as well have been carving myself with a knife
Anybody else want to say I’ll be fine?
Do I need any more reason to make this the last time
To sleep all day
To give up on that life
So you think I’m cute?
So you’re endeared to my strife?
So you’re trying to feed me a line?
Sure I really don’t care anymore
Tell me I’m adored
Tell me I’m all yours
But honestly f**k words
F**k good intentions
F**k actions or time
I’ll never believe it again
Never put down this wall of mine
I’ll pretend to turn a blind eye
I’ll be out to get what’s mine
because in the end you’re all the same
I am only betrayed
I am only left to die
I am only fed bu****it lies
I am only utilized
I am only slandered
I am only reaped of my time
You are all wrong, fu**ed and condemned to hell
I know My heart is sick and it's your fault
You are the end of everything I once was
And I could careless if you die mother fu**er
This is the end of my kindness and my trust
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found out your love was a lie
You narcissistic monster
-Luvsik
I’ve lost my will to fight and my dreams
The only thing left is the core of my being
A heart that beats for someone else
If this is where we part
Know I gave what I had to give
That I lost myself focusing on you
That I put myself aside and allowed insult
So that I could be of service to you
So that I could to hold on a little longer
Because nothing was more important to me
Nothing mattered more then you my love
- Luvsik
Just another day,
That it’s hard to breathe.
Not having you here -
It’s slowly killing me.
They say I have to,
But I don’t want to grieve...
Knowing that means you won’t rest here with me.
I wish you had control and didn’t build a bridge with us as the undeniable toll.
- Bbs
Every day I make the same wish
I seal it with a kiss
A life with someone I love
Someone I don’t want to miss
- Luvsik
Wait
You’re pushing me away
You do it everyday
In your own damaged special way
You don’t mean it but it hurts like hell
My brains receiving pain an emotional drain
I find it hard to get enough oxygen
Is she my life support or my bane
My loves to cynical to speak
To tired much too weak
We are losing it I can tell
You scratch your internal itch
Ghost me and expect me to deal with it
Myself I have to stitch
knowing this isn’t the last glitch
She’s a typical 20th century bitch
We are grateful for our other half
The slack comes from the fabric around my neck
The fabric of which I’m cut the collection of the good and every f**k up
I am greatful of who ive become
but these threads are starting to suffocate the neck on which they run
Contracting inch by inch and I’m on my last one
Meanwhile she’s sucking on a thumb playing dumb
When this finally goes we’ll just hum
Distress rejection of a home
This this is all you’ve sown
Destruction to my mind
Just like the one before
A total waste of time and a little fun
You went and you did everything wrong
You want more but I’m done
You’d kill if you could and I’m walking away as I should
you can try to put me down but it’s all good
My hands my love my fun
They’re still with me when you’re gone
Despite everything you’ve done
You want to blame me for everything
You’re worst than you were then
Worse than anything and I let you in
Because I truly believed you were the one
-Luvsik
My friend died in an accident that night and I find it ironic that his life went as I felt I was losing mine.
It’s a cruel reminder that in the end we are alone and that I should keep fighting for my own life.
I hope you Rest In Peace. You were a true friend. Thank you for the reminder. I’ll make sure not to squander it.
-Luvsik
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tm1sKABBoto
Pulp - like a friend
Don't bother saying you're sorry.
Why don't you come in?
Smoke all my ci******es, again.
Every time I get no further.
How long has it been?
Come on in now,
Wipe your feet on my dreams.
You take up my time,
Like some cheap magazine,
When I could have been learning something.
Oh well, you know what I mean.
I've done this before.
And I will do it again.
Come on and kill me baby,
While you smile like a friend.
And I'll come running,
Just to do it again.
You are the last drink I never should drunk.
You are the body hidden in the trunk.
You are the habit I can't seem to kick.
You are my secrets on the front page every week.
You are the car I never should have bought.
You are the train I never should have caught.
You are the cut that makes me hide my face.
You are the party that makes me feel my age.
Like a car crash I can see but I just can't avoid.
Like a plane I've been told I never should board.
Like a film that's so bad but I've gotta stay til the end.
Let me tell you now,
It's lucky for you that we're friends.
Like a car crash I can see but I just can't avoid.
Like a plane I've been told I never should board.
Like a film that's so bad but I've gotta stay til the end.
Let me tell you now,
It's lucky for you that we're friends.
Comments:
Unrequited love is horrible, especially when it's for someone who is just a friend. Ever have someone you love ditch or flake out on you as a friend and then come back, and your love overrides common sense and you take them back, only to have them crush you again? Yeah, that's beyond horrible. But what's worse is when there's an element of exploitation. You love her, she's your world, but, alas, you're just friends...only not. She's only a friend because she needs your love, adoration, affection, attention, money, friendship, support, whatever. But if you need her she's not there. And when your services are no longer needed, she's gone forever. Despite all this, if she came back, you'd be dumb enough to let the cycle continue. Why not? There were probably warning signs at the beginning, but you ignored them, and you were dumb enough to put up with it before and you'll do it again.
"You've got nowhere to go but down. And you know why? Because you are a bad person. You don't know the first thing about duty, or honor, or friendship. You're just a cold-hearted, mercenary BITCH!"- Brock Samson.
First time I heard this I never payed attention to the lyrics as Brock is running like everybody’s lives depended on it (in this case it definitely is.) but as I’m listening to the song and reading the lyrics I realized this very song is dedicated to Samson’s off-the-band aid-for-good-relationship with Molotov.
"Like a film that's so bad but I've got to stay till the end. Let me tell you now: it's lucky for you that we are friends". This lyric explains that the victim is dependent of the toxic abuser, and that the abuser takes adventage of that to still hurt the victim and enjoy from his suffering.
My ex sent me this song after we broke up.
When we started dating, I was in a very bad state. Our relationship lasted for only a few days but it hurt both of us. I want to mend things again but I know that we’ll fall into a spiral of a toxic relationship.
Dear Nick if you even can read this,
I finally listened to this song. I finally did. I’m sorry for hurting your feelings when I was broken. I’m not mature enough to love, I need to fix myself before I can love others. I do care for you, I really do. What little we had of our relationship were moments that I treasured even though I was numb. You said I love you to me when I couldn’t, you let me open up to you about a lot of personal things, and although we’re polar opposites, I know we could never date and I broke a lot of promises, I’m sorry, Nick. Please, don’t harm yourself because of me. it’s me that should take the blame.
-your first love that was sh*tty.
"Wipe your feet on my dreams" ugh, it's so accurate if you're going through a heart break but still hoping to get back together with someone.... Great lyrics!
For people hunting the meaning of the song it can be either a friend that drags you down or a girl that you really love that doesn't have feelings for u yet you still try
This song makes me cry😭 sometimes people are sh*tty! it's better to be alone.
Who else hears ' I am not afraid to keep on living. Im not afraid to walk this world alone' ?
I brought me here
Kicking and screaming
This song makes me cry happy tears however. I want to play this for my girl at our wedding. She is my friend. My best friend.
It's a commemoration of all friendships. Real friendship has costs, and they're worth it.
You can only truly hate the ones you love.
From Great Expectations.I don't own the song or lyrics.
I know how too love
I know how I want to be loved
I know what it looks like
I know how it feels
I know I will find it again
If not with you then with somebody new
-Luvsik
What are you here todo?
Do it!
-Luvsik
Give up to let go
- Luvsik
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=3DZO1oiiLcE
The cigarette with the words “never knows best” against the beautiful soundscape of traffic and melancholic atmosphere feels very personal to me, as I often criticize myself for stumbling despite my best efforts. The accidental self deprecation often leaves me with that same glazed stare.
Mamimi’s broken poem responding to Naota’s question on how much she likes his brother is so dreamlike and points so vividly towards Mamimi’s fragile mental state that it makes my emotions swell up immediately.
I feel as if I’m both Naota and Mamimi. Going back n fourth between questioning and answering. Between the reality infront of me and the intangible reality that exists between my ears.
Her response ironically paints this person who clearly means a lot to her as someone she barely likes more than hard bread. I feel it perfectly paints the disillusion of losing a lover. That desperate it’s whatever we all tell ourselves as we try to let go.
While she’s saying all of this, Naota sighing and slumping over the bridge rail as if this isn’t the first time she’s disconnected from reality into some kind of speech that is too difficult or sad for him to comprehend reminds me of my own disassociated states. It resembles the moments where I realize I’ve reached the same conclusions before and recognize there’s nothing left to do. It’s something like a hamster on a wheel tapping out from exhaustion.
All this capped off with a kiss before she’s ripped to shreds by the reality that he’s moved on is absolutely breath taking to me.
Every moment of this is perfect through my tourist gaze and it only seems to get better with age.
[Mamimi is clutching a bag of old bread]
Naota : My brother, I mean - how much do you like him?
Mamimi : It's hard.
Naota : You saw the sign at our bakery, that bread's old.
Mamimi : ...Watermelon.
Naota : Huh?
Mamimi : Or like a panda with a mean face, or like sandals with pressure points drawn on them, or the smell of a blackboard eraser, or a Sunday morning where you wake up and it's raining. Well, I like him more than hard bread.
[Mamimi kisses and nuzzles Naota]
Naota : Why don’t you stop then.
FLCL Clip! - All rights for this video goes to Funimation Entertainment
A house on fire
A burning bridge
A flaming pyre
A warm goodbye
-Luvsik
I feel like cracked styrofoam
The kind they attracts dust
Unable to stay clean
Because of its static cling
I can’t help but feel it
Because gravity always wins
With nowhere to run
It breaks me down
But you could say I never frown
Even if it’s all up in smoke
I still laugh at a good joke
Still think that a kiss is sweet
I’m still happy to get some sleep
I feel light on my feet
And I’m still in love with life
Even if it is bitter sweet
However cracked or dirty
I’m still whole and sturdy
-Luvsik
Took a photograph but even that didn’t last
I’m left standing in broken glass
I felt you drop the knife in my back
But theres no point in fighting
I’m closing the door
Because it was true when I said
That it was you that I adore
-Luvsik
What we had was a dream but then you pinched me
-Luvsik
Overcome and completely silent now
With heavens help you could cast your demons out
But you’d have to make amends with those left for dead
And not to pull you down but I recall the deeds done
It feels as if they're someone else's atrocious stories
You stand as if absolved before us all
I’m glad to see you well
And not to pull you off your cloud
But the truth will bring your halo down
Around your neck and choke you out
So I’m more then just a little curious how you’re going to end up making your amends
-Luvsik
I looked away
As you pulled off your wings
You set us on fire
but we couldn’t die
The demon inside
His influence is nigh
But I won’t let it pry
I thought I saw a change in you
but you never had wings
And your halo was pyrite
Did it make you feel alive
I looked at the time
Then I looked your way
Realizing the sands run dry
Held my hand out
But you’re still trapped in a lie
And this is goodbye
I wish I could have helped you out
I wish the good part of you is able to survive
I wish you luck
You’ll need it if you ever wake up
-Luvsik
If you see my mate
Tell her it’ll be okay
Tell her that it’s not too late
Tell her that I’m on my way
Tell her that once I’m there I’ll stay
Tell her that we’ll grow old and grey
Tell her that we’ll have a family
Tell her that peace will be our reward
Tell that she’ll forever be my ward
Tell her that I’ll fight for her to sit beside me
Tell her not to worry because we have eternity
If you see my mate
Tell her I waited patiently
Tell her that I held out hope
If you see my mate
Tell her that I didn’t want to let go
If you see my mate
Tell her I am happy
Tell her I will always strive to be more
If you see my mate
Tell her she was my everything but not anymore
If you see my mate
Tell her a part of me died when I closed that door
-Luvsik
I am the light at the end of the tunnel
You are the darkness enveloping
Every forsaken soul
You were my everything
But you were reduced to a meaning less hole
-Luvsik
Griffin what have you done
It’s quite the web that you’ve spun
I struggle on despite what you’ve become
-Luvsik
If only you knew what it meant to me
when I was with you..
You were my pride and joy
But it appears I was a game to you
A tool for you to use
A person to abuse
-Luvsik
When I could feel you without hurting
When I held you and felt complete
When I belonged to you
Did you see what you were doing to me
Did you see when we fell in love
Did you care that this would happen eventually
-Luvsik
If you wonder how I did it
How I moved on so easily
Well I avoid all of your breadcrumbs
I silence the whispers and the thoughts
I dare not look at the wreckage
I put what words remain on paper hearts
I bleed the feelings on to pages
Until I’m a cold and lifeless husk
The kind that no one notices or can see
That thing you dared call love
That tiny piece of treasure meant for me
I keep it where no light will travel
Some where I will never see
And If I ever start to miss you
If I start think of those low lit nights
I think of how they must have kissed you
Under the blue glow of refracting light
I think of how you said you missed them
I think of you sleeping with someone else every other night
How you reveled in it thinking you were so bright
How it made you feel clever knowing it wasn’t right
How you kept them on a tether
How you said the same things to me
It repulses any pleasure any love any chance any good memories
You’re ill intent your lies so intertwined
So believe me when I say
I don’t want your time
time... is what I gave you
And it’s you I prayed for
I’m... everything you wanted
And Im so done with you babe
Mine... you declared daily
mine you were never
And you never cared so
I don’t seek any part of you
I don’t glean any post apocalyptic transcriptions
I hold on to no promises
No previous sense of care
And letting goes is easy because
You were never there
You’re nothing more than a bad dream
A ghost trying to take a swing at me
You can’t mean something to me because
you never were...everything
you never were...anything
Im fine and you’ll never hurt me
So go ahead and try
I don’t need to stoop to where you are
Because I’m just so far above you
That you could never hope too reach
So hide from yourself and others
But it’s obvious to me
you’re blind a total loss
and it’s you they pray for
-Luvsik
I know what she is and isn’t
unfortunately no one can make a wife out of that
But it was a good run
I had my fun and then some
Too bad she was incredibly dumb
So I’m on to the next one
Because it’s a bit too ran through
For me to want too walk that back for you
-GG
I’ve been hurt by those who claim to love me most and I’m tired of being the gracious host
If you do right by me then we can be but you keep those hands where I can see and you’d better not expect a thing from me
I don’t give a f*k if you worship me because what you say when I’m not around I cannot see and faith has been ripped out of me
Am I the bad am I good those words lost there meaning to me all I know is I was given eyes to see and I’ll never let another snake sneak up on me
I’ll do right by me and everyone else can go get f*kd because of how much people have sucked.
-Luvsik
I’m actually not that bitter at all its just good content 🤓
We were singing along
How naive to think we could be
At ten before nine I refused her
As I swam for the shore
It felt like the oxygen was gone
I was under so much confusion
Questioning every last rapture
There was so much red in my skies
the world just kept churning on
Even though I was all gone
The whites of my eyes engulfed in what was wrong
Convinced myself that I’m fine again and again
I didn’t see the signs
So I hung on the line
Losing my spine
Reaching the end even more bitter then when I began
I just want to feel again and again
Recover what I gave them
To be able to mean it when I sing along
But this game never really ends
If I look then I find
If I find then I know it’s doomed to end
There’s no forever after
Only temporary rapture
-Luvsik
She gave me a kiss I gave it back
I was shocked that we were gripping each other panting
The room felt like it was spinning
I don’t know if it was that she had wanted me before or if it was the lack of inhibitions but she began too touch me
I bit at her chest and gently pressed her with my fingers being carful not to pe*****te
I lowered myself and began to lick her
She let out a moan and put her hand on my head I looked up to see her with a finger in her mouth
So as I lay there with her in my mouth I reached up and put my fingers in her mouth
She laid down and pulled me up to her for a kiss
I grabbed her by the throat and proceeded to feed her my tongue
I could feel her need for me as I slowly pressed myself against her
We slid against each other
I could feel her pulse she could feel mine
She gasped and I pinned her down
As I parted her
She melted further as I sunk further with every return
A shock goes down my spine as she pulls me as deeply as she can
I hold her hands above her head as I bite her
She gives a shudder and a shake
I can feel her opening up
So I put her on her side and stretch her further
With one leg in the air she gives a yell And goes limp
She continues cry out for me and I ask her who she belongs to
She tells me she belongs to me
And begs me to fill her up
I feel her open up again
But this time I let go
The release is amazing and it feels like she’s drinking me as she pulses in our wake
-Luvsik
I wish I meant something to you
I wanted time with you
I wanted to belong to you
To believe everything you said was true
That when you looked me in the eye
That when I laid next to you
That it was true
Me and you
Never to sever
To be kept close
To hold on through the morose
I wish you would submit to me
Be what you pretended to be
To truly love me
-Luvsik
Baby invited me for a cup of tea
Claimed she didn’t do it intentionally
Poured gas all over me
Pressed herself on me
Burst in to fire “unintentionally”
Baby created quite the fight
trying to get at me but that’s all right
Looking for sympathy from those around me
But there’s no putting out the fire in me
Fates decide whether or not you’re mine
All I can do is put it all on the line
-Luvsik
The excruciating pain of being betrayed and having your trust broken by the person you love and trust the most.
-Luvsik
Freyja I know you seek your husband Óðr
You cry your tears of gold
You seek him under false names
But she had found hers
Was it jealousy that served yours
That I represented song and poetry like Óðr
But lived in peace
Or was it that you couldn’t stand
That she chose a master
and that she like he was not truly yours
Or that she had found one immune to wanderlust
Or any other lures
Either way it’s safe to say it not okay
To take young women and turn them into ..
-Luvsik
Eye lash equivalent of googly eyes
Thick thighs but nothing behind those eyes
Kept me around while she fu**ed multiple guys
Taking there money in exchange for lies
Escorting on the sly
I was her ride or die
Too bad it was based on a lie
Not sure if her mother did die
one in the bunch while she tells me she’s mine
-Luvsik
I can't even figure out how many people you're seeing... I ate your p***y babe.
What the f*ck.
-Luvsik
I’ve been growing older
I’ve gotten so much colder
The rides left me worse for wear
I was so completely unaware
They didn’t care
-Luvsik
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