22/11/2023
Living a life after hating yourself for so long is hard. It may leave you tattered and beaten and your expected to be okay after wards like nothing happened. If you lose a loved one; whether it be because of separation, death, or a long move, you are still expected to work. Being an adult means having no emotions and just working. Sometimes... well alot of the time it feels like hell on earth, searing pain, depressed, and you don't know what you can do to make life better. Talking with friends help and being outside does wonders for your mentality. But at the end of the day you still have to go to bed lay down and be alone with your thoughts. What do you do then? Meds don't work and smoking makes you more depressed. Any med prescribed to you does nothing, and everything just seems hopeless for a while. You continue your routine but now with less enthusiasm and spirit as before. Eventually you lose hope and abuse every substance you can to feel better and it doesn't work. Eventually it's just a habit to worsen yourself and live miserably. But at your worst moments you will find blessings. Eventually you will meet your soul mate, get that promotion, or even get the car that you are looking forward to. You will always be loved and you will always have a light. And for everyone that found their light share it with the less fortunate. If anyone is going to change the world its going to be everyone that can bring peace between connections and show love to those that don't know love. For everyone that read through this novel I thank all of you for taking the time and effort to hear a message everyone needs.