15/10/2019
How i found out dating has not much to do with looks
Growing up ugly wasn't easy, i'm not saying this looking for your pity. In fact i hate pity and how sad and weak it makes me feel but growing up ugly sucked! You have to understand, i am from a small town where everyone knew everyone and no one wanted to be known for dating me. I found myself reading and writing most of the time for the love of what books gave me, books gave me a whole new world to life in...one day i was a detective sworn to justice another i could be a handsome guy finding love, books made me feel what it felt like to be people i envied. Trust me yes i envied handsome guys, having all those girls saying nice things about them and getting the smiled at. You would think a smile means nothing but to a love struck teen a smile was everything, those crimson lips arching the right way just for me.
So there i was in a small town with big dreams all raved up with no place to go, and my brother just happens to be handsome like mom cut him out of a magazine calls me and says we should meet at the local youth hangout spot. This was one of his million attempts to get me a girlfriend, i personally had given up and accepted i was that frog no girl was willing to kiss into a prince. I don't hate or blame girls for not liking me back then, everyone has right to choose what they want and should never be judged for not wanting a certain thing. The fact that i was the thing no one wanted at this point doesn't mean women are bad people, its a free country and they were practicing their freedom of choice through freedom from choosing me.
So we arrived at the spot my brother and i and all the girls start checking us out, truthfully they were probably looking at my brother but i was in that direction too so let's say they were checking us out. It didn't take long so my brother to make a move on the best two he could find and bring them to our table. Now this may seem like an opportunity on a silver plate but wait till you hear the whole story, the girls seat next to us and we order drinks. I aim to impress so i didn't mind or look at the price tag, the girls thank me and we start drinking. First of all i want you to get a clear picture of how we were seating, it was me and my humble self seating next to the less attractive girl, i knew my brother would chose the attractive girl so i avoided possible competition. Now the two girls were both looking at my brother trying to get his attention, while he kept switching between them probably trying to see who he is going home with.
I tried everything, talking about how much money i make in my photography business,how hard i hit in the boxing competitions bra these girls were not interested, in fact they were annoyed that i was making it hard for the two of them to fight over my brother so i offered to go buy drinks at the counter and went off to seat there as if i was waiting for the beer. There was an ugly guy seating next to me busy on his phone, this guy was uglier than me, this is someone i assumed god made to make me feel better about how ugly i looked. I took a sip of my drink and greeted him ugly guy to ugly guy. Just to let him know i feel his pain of seating alone in the bar. As we began to talk a smoking hot girl leans over to him and kisses him on his cheek and says "honey can i go seat with the girls, you and your friend can have all the drinks you want i'll pay when i get back" What sorcery was this i thought to myself, this guy was butt ugly and a hot girl was buying him drinks? I was spellbound, you could have knocked me down with a feather. I was shocked at it was written all over my face.
Noticing my disbelief he turned to me and smiled. "i used to make your mistake you know, thinking women wanted hot guys, that's not even close to the truth" He said looking at his girlfriend walking away. "Find out what women want, get it and they will want you" If anyone told me this i was going to ignore them and think to myself they don't know what its like to be ugly but no, this was a butt faced dude telling me i had a better chance to get what he has, what i have always wanted and that's when The secret life of an ugly guy took its turn. The light at the end of the tunnel, the light i had assumed was long dead began to flicker and i knew it was there, i just had to find it. If you're wondering... my brother took both those girls home but i took something more back home, i took hope, i took dedication, i took happiness with me and in the next stories i will share every discovery that led me to the man i am now with ladies throwing themselves on my feet.