12/07/2019
POSTED 7-9-19
My time now is extremely limited. I can't walk. I'm in the hospital now for 3 weeks and may be here much longer. I look as exhausted as I feel. I'm scared and am embarrassed that I am so weak right now. Believe it or not, I'm quite reserved about my personal life. that my life Since everyone is now asking me "WHAT IS GOING ON? IS IT CANCER? IS IT THIS OR THAT?
NO IT'S NOT .
I'm paralyzed from my waist down from a car that hit me while I was crossing the street. I can't walk. Had my first surgery today to see if I can fix it. Meeting with physical therapists, orthopedic surgeons, Neurosurgeons etc. Does that help you understand? Let me know. I'm a bit in shock, scared and feel ashamed because I lost my insurance years ago because I am so open and honest what cannabis wish the work that I do. Cannabis is still a schedule 1 drug in the USA. There are many of us that live here but can't qualify for many things. My insurance was ripped from me and I became what they call "A SELF PAY". and scared. I'm not as strong as I thought I was. There are other complications.
To date,I have over $600,000 in debt over medical bills of my own that I've had to pay. Why me because I was hit by a car? It wasn't just that. The "hit and run driver knocked me 50 ft and took off.
Another complication is that I have people whom I've never met who constantly call me asking me to save them by paying their legal bills to save the custody of their children in illegal states and many more stories.
As a private individual, I wish I could help, but I still have medical bills of my own that I am currently unable to pay. You ask me about all of the big/powerful deals that I put together, yes that's true, but I only see a small percentage of deals that close, if they don't close, I receive NOTHING. I've had to take life one day at a time. I cannot walk. I live life one day at a time. I have access to millions as a senior advisor on big deals, but that doesn't mean I can use other people's money to pay other people's bills. We can't do that. I don't know if that makes sense.
With my activism work:
I get paid NOTHING/Zero/NADA to be an activist. Yet it costs me almost $200,000 per year just in travel costs around the world. The producers of these events, no longer respect activism in my opinion. Sad but true. Cannabis is Big Business Now. Another complication is that I spent the past three years taking care of my parents when they were dying in my home state of Ohio where it was illegal then and I was too afraid to do anything with cannabis consumption there because I didn't want any problems for my parents. I felt that being public about it would make me a target.
Back to my health, I have 4 most surgeries to tackle this bump in the road of life. That's why I asked for your prayers, not money or anything else just prayers, compassion and good energy. I need it. If you have another other advice, I would welcome the interaction.
What do you say when you know that tomorrow could be the last day of your life or that you could be paralyzed for the rest of your life? I am currently paralyzed from the waist down in the hospital. My surgery is tomorrow. I love you all. Please pray for me. [email protected]