12/05/2023
A message to everybody who hates me.
Dear reader,
I know there are a lot of things you hate about me but I was hoping I could address them. A lot of them are misunderstandings.
Why you have formed this opinion of me
I'm sorry to admit it but I'm being badly bullied and most of the things you heard about me are lies. Barely any of it is true. If you read on I will try to address these misunderstandings.
Ruling the world
I didn't actually want to rule the world. I just didn't know how to get out of my situation. I had been bullied by the entire society for nearly a year and I started writing ideas for what I should do with my life, and that was one of the ideas. By purging the population I meant executing or imprisoning the people that started this, but I don't think it is necessary to execute anyone. I wasn't actually planning to rule the world. I had fantasies but all I really wanted was for everyone to stop bullying me and for me to be an artist and be able to go out and experience the world.
If I ruled the world now I would just forgive and try to spread love and happiness and enjoyment to everyone.
Destroying the world?
Excuse me, I never tried to destroy the world! I only want the best for the world. I think the Earth is a beautiful place that should be treasured. But my place is as a contributing part of the world and not as a scapegoat.
What I did in Japan
I was really ill. I loved and still love Japan. If I could go back I would spend all my time travelling, hanging out with friends and making travel vlogs. I wanted to spend all my time with my friends when I was in Japan but nobody was really interested in being my friend and I didn't have the social skills to make friends myself.
Trying to break couples up?
I wasn't trying to break couples up. I was just autistic and didn't know the ropes.
Manipulator?
I am not manipulative. Like I said I am autistic and I accidentally cause trouble for people because of it (but I'm wiser now). When I confessed my feelings for Tony (which I didn't actually have, just thought I did), I was doing it because I thought it was good to tell your friends when you have feelings for them. The incident in the hotel with Yohei happened because I was desperate and thought I would never see him again, so I messaged the group asking who rang my doorbell. I'm autistic and don't know the ropes.
The Porter Robinson concert
I did NOT grope ANYBODY at that concert. I was wearing a dress and kept feeling something against my leg, so I brushed it, accidentally brushing against another woman's leg in the crowded room. She probably knows that herself. Aliens with advanced technology can confirm that I didn't grope her. Can you somehow help me persuade Porter Robinson that I didn't grope her?
I am not being supported by anyone in the government
I am not being supported by anybody in the government as far as I am aware of. I don't know why none of my social media accounts are being kept from being deleted. Nobody edited my memories to protect me.
Am I a psychopath?
I don't feel myself like a psychopath but apparently I am a psychopath with hyper empathy. The psychopathy is only very mild though.
Kimikoko!
Kimikoko! is not child p**n and was never going to be. How naughty! and How immodest! was sarcasm. The joke was that there was nothing naughty or immodest about the images. Like I said before you can read all the current pages here, there's nothing wrong with it: https://tapas.io/episode/2675971
Have I ever drawn child p**n?
I have not. Even when the kthala threatened me and gave me the option to either draw child p**n or be r**ed for the rest of my life, I chose not to draw child p**n. What I drew in primary school wasn't child p**n, it was rude jokes inspired by South Park, that I drew at a time when I was being drugged and r**ed in my sleep.
Am I a pa******le?
I am absolutely not a pa******le! I hate paedophilia. There is barely anything I hate more than child p**n. It repulses me. A pa******le is somebody who likes children in a s*xual way. I do NOT like children in a s*xual way. I care deeply about children and want to protect them. Believe me when I say this.
Do I hate Japan?
I love Japan! I forgave them! That bullying incident really happened but it was concealed by the aliens to protect the Japanese. If it is brought into the open I will insist that everyone makes peace with and forgives Japan.
Vindictiveness
I am usually really nice but get nasty when angry (This nastiness has already changed though). I'm usually really good but have/ had a bad side. That's why people think I'm nasty. Because I was angered over and over again with nasty insults and responded (read about reactive abuse). Also, while the kthala are usually really nice, they also have a vindictive side and their culture rubbed off of me. I am not actually that dangerous.
Do I do drugs?
Absolutely not! I was drugged and r**ed by my father in my sleep my entire life and then I was injected with methamphetamine (I think) by an alien in late 2022.
Did I hit a black boy?
No. I didn't hit that black child. Mary didn't see who hit the child because he was jumping on her back. The child I called stupid was the child who I saw hit him and who got me into trouble. But he was just a child misbehaving.
Art thief?
All that art is mine, including Mouse Girl. The art I posted to a thread on Twitter, I never claimed it as my own, I was going to link to the creator in the comments section but there was no internet in the hospital and it stopped working before I could. Also, it said 'your own or a friend's', and I thought he was my friend in another dimension and he was drawing me as a goddess, because of the fantasy the kthala were telling me, and I was super proud of it.
W***e?
I am not s*xually promiscuous. I am actually a virgin (never had consensual s*x). During my year abroad in Japan I was as*xual. Tony is just messed up in the head. He had a weird creepy fetishy crush on me. I didn't know what Talking P***s implied because of my autism, I thought it was just a funny name. He wanted to be best friends with me so I treated him like a best friend. I didn't want him as a second boyfriend, I was making fun of him for having a crush on me and giddily waving at me while making a stupid face while treating me like s**t. I never tried to have s*x with anyone. When I messaged Yohei in the hotel I was hurting and meant let's talk loads when I'm gone because I was planning to leave Japan after the festival and still wanted to talk to him. I wasn't planning to have s*x with him at all that year, I wasn't trying to have s*x with him on campus, I wasn't ready for that. I only wanted to talk to him but thought it would be dangerous to do so out in the open because I was in such a dangerous situation. I do not like men with big p***ses, it was just a coincidence that two good looking guys had big p***ses, I didn't know they had big p***ses. Also my third crush didn't even have a big p***s as far as I'm aware. I only had 3 'crushes'. Yohei was the only man I ever wanted to have s*x with. I am as*xual. I have autism so I don't know the ropes. Also I felt safer around men and was going through a tomboy phase hence I hung out with a lot of men during my year abroad.
The times I got r**ed
I really got r**ed in the hospital. I was r**ed by patients that some bad nurses let into my room and even by some nurses. I never had s*x in the hospital. The doors have windows for crying out loud. In the videos of me being r**ed I was smiling because I was forced to. I am not that traumatized because the kthala deleted those memories for me.
A ra**st???!
Excuse me, I am not a ra**st! Rapists are the worst people in the world. End of story.
The chip
There is a chip in my head implanted by aliens that thinks horrible nasty and s*xual things. It's not me. It started when they started sharing my memories, they started putting horrible thoughts into my head.
What I did to Yohei's life
I am so sorry for what happened to Yohei's life because of me. I loved him to bits and I want him to get out of it.
Am I a war criminal?
I don't think so. I thought some horrible things when I started getting bullied. But I was going through so much and didn't actually do anything. And I have gotten through so much, I think what I have been through outweighs what I did (if anything), or thought. It's also in kthala culture to be vindictive and I became more like the kthala. But they are really nice when they're not angry. They are just misunderstood. Hopefully some day you'll be able to talk to them.
I know you think that I am responsible for the tragedy in Japan but I was just an innocent victim. The Japanese are the ones that did it. I never tried to cause chaos. They have to take responsibility that they did it to themselves. But I am terribly sorry for what happened. You have no idea how much I wish it didn't happen. The Japanese should have just asked me what I was doing in the news and should have just said that I was mentally unwell instead of urging people to bully me and the chaos that ensued wouldn't have happened.
I think everybody should be on the same side.
There are so many rumors being spread about me. I don't know why they feel so compelled to lie about me. This rumor-setting trend started when I was in Japan. I am not your target to start rumors about.
My dream is to live in Japan as an artist and vlogger. My other dream is to go into space, be a diplomat for planet Earth and spread peace throughout the universe.
I have been through so much and that still didn't turn me bad. See here for the kind of abuse I was receiving in the hospital: https://www.tumblr.com/my-story345678/712844972768018432/abuse-log-the-abuse-i-recieve-on-a-daily?source=share
If everyone just stopped bullying me, I wouldn't do anything stupid.
You did me in. You did something horrible to me. And you have to take responsibility for it. We all have to take responsibility for hurting each other.
There is a huge conspiracy going on, to turn me into a scapegoat and tarnish my reputation. But I refuse to be a scapegoat.
The kthala are a really factual species. Ask them for the facts. I don't know much about the other aliens so I don't know which of them are honest and which are not.
I think being honest is the best solution and I am trying to be as honest as I can. And I will not stop fighting for my rights.
Nobody has helped me with this except the kthala. I have had to fight alone.
I have learned to practice extreme forgiveness.
I tried so hard against a world that pitted itself against me.
I want the best for the world and the universe and I want to be a contributing part of it.
Everybody has to get back up from this. Everybody will get back up from this.
Also if you told people to unblock me on social media I would appreciate it so much, and even check out my social media yourself. I am not going to try to spread hate.
Thank you for your time.
Kiara Jurgaityte
Links:
https://linktr.ee/kiaranovastar
Facebook:
https://www.facebook.com/kiaranovastar
World Peace Facebook:
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