Diary of a ugly girl called Mbali

01/11/2019

31/10/2019

I wish I could love myself
I wish I could forgive myself
I wish I could respect myself
I wish I could be proud of myself

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My first day at school I didn't want to go to school because I was ashamed of myself. I wish I could lock myself at home because I was not proud of myself at all. However I went to school.

Class teacher : Molweni klasi ndingu tishala u Socishi u utishala wesixhosa kwaye ndiyi class teacher yenu qha andithandi ukuqhelwa kakubi kwaye ndithanda umntana owenza umsebenzi wasesikolweni kwaye akho bhuti okanye usisi apho ubhuti u outside the gate. Ndicela ukuqala ngase mnyango nizazise amagama wenu nefani zenu kwaye noba ungowaphi nesikolo osuka kuso.

Me : (I was the first from the door but I was scared ashamed and shy also I didn't know how he would treat me because first I was not able to speak xhosa second I was ugly.)
I gama lami ngingu Mbali ngingowase Goli bengifunda e Mbakhwe SECONDARY School (I was looking scared)

Class teacher ; Kufuneka usazi isixhosa.

After the introduction the bell rang. I want to but food at the tuck shop and went straight to the class to eat there because I was ashamed of people and dark skinned colour with a lot of pimples.While I was sitting there a light skinned lady came and sit next to me.While I looked down.

Her; Hey I'm Zandile. Awuna ngxaki bandinga chopha ecaleni kwakho sincokole.

Me; No problem you can seat (I was a little bit afraid )

Her; Kutheni ungaqheleki uhlala uphakuphaku kwaye uthule unxibe ne skirt eside kangaka girl funeka ndikufake ezintweni kuse Mount apha .

Me; Unkinga asifani singabantu plus ngisafika lapha e Mount ngesaba ukuba abantu bethi ngiyachoma. But khululeka ngizo shesha ngijwayele.

Her; Okay girl xa usitsho and you look like a nice person ndingavuya xa singaba zi chom.

Me :(She looks like a nice person but at the same time she looks like a slat)Okay it's fine we can be friends girl I'm glad I have found a friend a sister to talk to or to share my problems with.

Her : Anyway I stay in Amalinda with my parents and where do you stay and who do to stay with?

Me; I stay in Zipunzana at Gxasheka with my auntie I'm an orphan.I kept on smelling not realising that my eyes were full of tears.

Her ; No no no Mbali sulila chom if awunabazali as friends umzali wakho ngowami that means we're sisters my mom is your mom and my dad is your dad worse part of it I don't have a sister she passed away with cancer so I'm left alone and when I saw you I was glad that I find a sister while she was comforting me.

Me ; I'm sorry chom I'm too emotional when I talk about my auntie and my late parents xolo about your sister.It's fine dear no more calling each other chom you're now my sister let's call each other sisters

Her; Okay sister let's go to the class the bell rang.

31/10/2019

Introduction

My name is Mbali Ndlovu. 20 years of my age.From Johannesburg in a small township Alexandra.Currently living in East London in Eastern Cape. Doing grade 11 in Mzokhanyo high school in Duncan village. I an orphan staying with my auntie at her small house because I'm still young to be staying at my late parent's house with my big brother because he drinks too much and I was a victim of r**e at that house that's why I moved in with my auntie.