Tlbgotskillz

29/08/2022

August 29th, 2022.

I had one of the worst days of my life yesterday right after I finished streaming. I suffer a lot mentally sometimes. I really try so hard to not be angry over something that doesn't matter. Its like living with two selves. One is good, the other is an evil as***le. I hate the evil as***le part of me, I want it to pack its bags and f**k off, permanently.

Life teaches you incredibly hard lessons sometimes. I was depressed all day yesterday and more than learned my lesson. I really try to make my anger go away, I pray for it to stop. I just want to be normal and know what its like to feel "normal."

My life lesson yesterday was to "let it go." If I would have just let my emotions go, I would have been happy. When I tried to go against the will of nature its like the world was moving against me trying to tell me to let the anger go. That is the point where I say its enough. My mind does not control me. I control me. I control my actions.

21/08/2022

August 21, 2022.

As I still experience much negativity and ill intentions from human beings, I lose hope that there is kindness in their hearts. Maybe change will come some day, but I don't think so.

I prayed for the Buddha's guidance on my path, prayed for relief from anger. Anger is a negative emotion associated with hatred and rage. Anger clouds pure thinking and I don't want to feel anger in my soul, ever. Happiness is the desired outcome one should seek always.

As I reflect in front of the statues of the enlightened ones I feel at peace. I feel thankful to be in their presence, I appreciate their beauty. The answer I recieve back, is to stay on the path. Do not deviate from the path. It is my purpose share my journey on the path.

🙏

14/08/2022

15 Aug 22. I make sure the street cats eat. This photo is not for "seeking attention" on social media. This photo is because I love cats, all cats. This family of three came up to us as we were leaving after feeding every other wild cat in the park. Some day I will have the means to help every animal.

13/08/2022

August 13, 2022.

I got proper closure of my Grandmother's passing. I did not have time the week prior.

In the tall temple structure was a Buddhist Museum with pieces from all over the world. One can pay roughly $2 USD to see them.

The most remarkable thing I saw were 'relics', which are crystals that remain after devoted Monks are cremated. I didn't know that was part of Buddhism. But as I continue on my own spiritual journey on the path, I will keep learning.

As I viewed the relics; I felt as I was not worthy enough to be in the presence of highly respected devoted followers of Buddha but I greatly appreciated what they taught me. I felt the presence of those monks with me spiritually and the feeling was overwhelming happiness, as if they were happy a young Buddhist was very respectful and kind to those who have left their physical bodies.

What I have been taught so far on the path is to not be afraid of death. Death is inevitable, but beautiful. Death has different forms and meanings. I do not like sudden death, it is the most evil form of death.

Death can also free those who are suffering from physical pain. Death can be beautiful in that sense, because one has to understand the many purposes of death. Some are good, some are evil. This is the natural balance of life. It keeps everything in order.

After I finished praying to my family who has passed it started to rain. Sudden rain. And then it stopped. One has to be aware of the signs the creators share with mortals. Rain is connected to the emotion of sadness. These are the signs the creators show you to know they are watching. But rain obviously also occurs naturally.

I did not choose to a be a Buddhist, but its just who I am. It takes an incredible amount of self discovery to realize ones proper path. I am thankful to be able share the beauty of Buddhism on my personal blog.

Most people value material possessions, but one must separate the addiction to such objects. It is negative thinking. What I mean by that is I personally value my memories more than the price of money. Money is just an obstruction of peaceful living created by those who seek power.

Cherish the beautiful memories you create in this mortal life of ours, do your best to honor those memories and remember them. Hold them close to your heart.

23/07/2022

July 24th, 2022. It was an emotional day. I was up at 4 am talking to my Grandmother who is 85 years old and doesnt have much time left. That conversation hit me like a train. I prayed for my Grandma at this temple 3.5 hours away and felt overwhelmed. Its like the feeling you get when you know your creator is listening. If you have accepted your creators love in your heart, you know when they listen.

I got to meet this sweet cat, who found us. We were planning to go to a restuarant and it was closed on Saturday. If we never went to that restuarant, we would not have been able to give this lovely street cat food.

Everything in life happens for a reason. My creator knows we love cats and helping them. My creator sent the cat to us. It is not coincidence. Do not ever hesitate on any decision you make in life. Don't go to sleep at night wondering what if. Go to sleep thinking that was fun, I'm glad I did that.

16/07/2022

Haven't streamed in a while, because my family is more important than video games. I don't make a living playing games. (Some day) Had a perfect time at a place that cost $200 a night and had dinner next to the beach to celebrate my wifes birthday. The day after I went to the beach, because it calls to me. Took a closeup of a crab. Lol.

10/07/2022

July 10th, 2022. Went to a beach I went last summer. That clown city now charges people $30 to use their "shade" and does not allow tents. I will not pay money ever to use what the Earth gave us. They didn't like that I called their beach s**tty to their face and they walked away. Everything happens for a reason. I went to a more quiet beach where clowns cant control it.

04/07/2022

Celebrating the 4th of July in another country. God bless America and the rights our founders fought for. 🇺🇲 I don't like the "woke" bu****it or cancel culture, but that's peoples freedom. Freedom comes in many different forms. Some gave their lives, limbs, and eyesight for it. Your sacrifices were not in vein. Do not ever forget that people died for your freedoms and American way of life. Honor them.

My family tradition consisted of thousands of dollars spent on fireworks. It began to fade because of "woke" laws restricting and banning fireworks. I will keep that spark going no matter what, no matter where I am in the world.

25/06/2022

First time I've seen a snake at a temple. Second wild snake I've seen. This snake was big and pretty. The way they move is so cool. It had no interest in the humans around. I assumed it was headed to get cool or to water that was close by.

25/06/2022

June 25th. The Buddha led me on an beautiful spirtual journey today. I saw some of the oldest statues I have ever seen. It doesn't feel real seeing something that old in person. It has unique beauty.

25/06/2022

June 25th, 2022. 32c outside. Soon as I arrived at this temple I saw a wild snake, very rare to see. I stopped a child from getting close to it. It is in my nature to protect. Life is... beautiful. I was pretty excited, its like my creator was like hey TLB, check out this cool creature I made. Its pretty right?

Its funny because corrupt politicians and judges are like snakes. They strike us once, maybe several times until they are happy and move on. Snakes can be caught. Don't get mad, get even. Strike the snakes back by voting them out of their publicly appointed positions.

20/06/2022

On top is my street kitty, "momo." I rescued her off the street in rough shape. Her mom and sister both passed away. Life is so precious. Especially for our furry friends. They need our ❤🙏

10/06/2022

I had a lovely thursday and friday. I've stayed in nice hotels, but I loved this. $200 a night to stay right on the beach. $300+ a night in the peak of summer. They don't care if you do fireworks either. I have videos to upload. Then rode atvs around in a creek and trails while im hungover and saw a really old temple. Life is beautiful. My grandma gave me a love for the ocean that I'll never get rid of. I used to spend my summer walking the beach with her while other kids my age went to parties and did dumb s**t.

08/06/2022

I love when its clear and sunny outside it makes the earth more pretty

08/06/2022

This is one of my favorite places in Korea. A beautiful shrine to a national hero, Admiral/General Yi Sun-sin. This man is a legend. You can walk around in the house he actually lived in as well. I felt not worthy, to even set foot in his house. Its cool to see how they lived back then.

03/06/2022

I got in a famous restaurant in Korea that people wait 2-3 months to eat at. The owner lived in Texas and uses Texas style bbq methods. It was delicious.

02/06/2022

I don't force my religion on others. But I want to share my religion with you. Every time I go a temple I pray for no sick people, no violence, and world peace. 🙏 Where is the love? If life was perfect, everyone would succeed. The natural order is always not in balance.

02/06/2022

June 2nd. I had too much anger today, for no reason. I asked Buddha for guidance, for help over coming emotion. 🙏

01/06/2022

Revist. Walked up a huge hill. You're not allowed to take pictures of most of this temple. But most of it is so beautiful. 3hrs by car.

01/06/2022

Why I'm so tired on stream. Fortunate to see lifes beautiful places. Normally I will not take pictures of Buddha, but I want you to see how beautiful the statues are.

21/05/2022

Beautiful temple on top of a mountain from the 15th century. Jeongbangsa Temple. 90 min drive. It was tough my legs were destroyed from riding an ATV.

21/05/2022

$47 for two people to ride an ATV however the f**k I want for one hour. I recorded this riding with one hand.

04/05/2022

Manbulsa Temple. "Temple of the 10,000 Buddhas." This temple is modern and built in 1995. But it was incredibly beautiful. I'm not going to take pictures of the statues inside of temples like this, because they are meant to honor the deceased. The Buddha has led me on an interesting spiritual journey that has given me respect for life and death.

01/05/2022

Spent my sunday by the ocean in Yeosu, South Korea. (3.5 hour drive). Saw a beautiful temple on the cliff above the ocean and then a really old one. Heungguksa Temple. It was a really beautiful day. I love how beautiful simple things are in life, like flowers. 🙏

30/04/2022

2022 Taen World Tulip Exhibition (2.5 hours by car) I think its funny some "men" are like, I only do MAN stuff like drink whisky and eat bacon. Not me. I appreciate how beautiful flowers are and the variety of the colors. I appreciate the hard work it took to create these displays. Life is beautiful... so are flowers, man.

16/04/2022

What it sounds like to feel the mountain breeze at a Buddhist temple on top of a mountain.

13/04/2022

Buseoksa Temple. "the Temple of the floating stone." Wether you are a Buddhist like myself, or you appreciate architechture, this temple is over 1,000 years old and incredibly beautiful. Whenever I come to temples I feel an overwhelming feeling sense of peace and calm. Like at that moment, nothing else in the world matters. My life is very strenuous and connecting with my spirutality has helped me walk along the right path.

27/03/2022

28 March 2022. Enjoyed the simplicity and the beauty of minimalist buddhist statues. I had negative experiences today. I try to be compassionate to all humans, but some humans should have never been born for the way they act to other humans.

When you deal with "bad" and "evil" people for so long like me, how can one trust others? I don't. How can one be kind, when others simply do not care about fellow humans?

22/02/2022

February 21, 2022 5:30pm. Life is... so beautiful. I embrace the beauty of the Earth. The way the clouds accent the water makes it look like a beautiful painting where the artist portrays a love for colors. Take just one second in your life to see the beauty that is hidden right in front of your eyes. It will touch your soul.

22/02/2022

Gwangchoksa Temple. February 21, 2022. (1hr 40min drive) the largest stone Buddha statue in Korea. Incredibly, over 1,000 years old.

19/02/2022

February 5th, 2022. Caves? Awesome. Temple inside of a cave? Awesome! This temple affected me emotionally. Most of it was statues to remember the deceased. I will not take pics of those parts ever. Death is sad and beautiful. Its sad that our beloved leave us physically, but the next part of their path is beautiful. Death is only the beginning of the bigger picture. Everything in this life has a purpose, so why would death have no purpose. The question I want to ask my creator, is what purpose does death serve to keep balance in this world? Why allow creations in likeness to be murdered or terminally ill, but we have to accept our creator can't always intervene because its part of the plan. I have seen miracles, you have to have faith. Your creator loves you. 🙏

19/02/2022

This is the pond I built for my wife in my past life. Lol. Isnt it beautiful though? 1.5+ hour drive. It was stupid cold outside, my hands were numb. But you just have to accept thats the way of things.

19/02/2022

January 30th, 2022. I love that temples are so clean. The world is full of filthy, evil people but temples preserve the beauty of life and the Buddha's lessons.

19/02/2022

January 9th, 2022. 3.5 hour drive. This temple is famous and at twin mountains. (Horse ears) This is the largest vertical rock face I have ever seen in person. I tried to capture that in my pictures.

19/02/2022

Seomjeongsa Temple. December 23, 2021. This was a 4 hour drive and it's on top of a mountain. This is the most beautiful temple I will ever see in my life. Everything is carved by hand 10+ years to do. There is a room carved by hand that depicts heaven and it was breathtaking. I showed you on the bottom what it looks like. Some temples do not allow pictures out of respect and I understand that.

19/02/2022

19/02/2022

December 22, 2021. I just got an "urge" to visit Buddha at night from the other temple. You should never hesitate on any choice in life if you know in your heart it's the right one.

19/02/2022

Beopjusa Temple re-vist (years later) December 22, 2022. I like Facebook because I can share all of my photos instead of just 10 on Instagram.

19/02/2022

December 16th, 2021. For my readers, I am Buddhist. I spend a lot of my time away from gaming trying to discover myself spiritually.

07/02/2022

Hey any future followers or any current ones.

My name is TLB.

I stream my game play on Twitch at https://twitch.tv/tlbgotsklz and I upload my highlights to my YouTube channel at https://youtube.com/channel/UCuV2OwpAb_exKVuIbv1pkTQ.

My goal is to grow a Gaming Community where people can come and feel welcome. I think there is too much negativity in the world. The strongest support we have is lifting each other up with positivity. I try to incorporate my passion of gaming and helping others into reality. My current favorite game is Destiny 2, I spend mostly all of my live Twitch streams helping people on Bungies Looking For Guardian on the Destiny 2 app. I master the most dificult content on games so I can help others who struggle or just teach them from my experience.

I am still human, you might see me get frustrated at games sometimes. But every follower I get is greatly appreciated and I hope they decide to interact with me. I love talking to people.

I am 31 years old. I have 28+ years of gaming experience. I started around age 3. I used to play on PC in 2001. I perfected my PC gaming skills and switched over to console for FPS games in 2003.

"I've already been at the top, what more is there?"

I held the #1 in the world spot with the M95 Sniper on Battlefield Bad Company 2 on Xbox 360 in 2010 for almost 365+ days under my old gamertag, TLB GoT S KILLZ.

I held consistent spots in the top 10, 100, 1000, in the world on Xbox 360, Xbox One, with Sniper kills, Headshot Kills, Headshot Kill %, and Skill Level on Battlefield 1943, Battlefield Bad Company 2, Battlefield Bad Company 2 Vietnam, Battlefield 3, Battlefield 4, and Battlefield 1.