19/09/2024
September has always been one of my favourite months – I love the promise of longer days and warmer weather. I love everything about this time of year.
But today, 4 years ago, 19 September 2020 was one of the worst days of my life. I was told some things on that day that completely shattered and broke me. My entire world crumbled and I truly could not see how I could carry on with my life the way it was. I had been living my worst nightmare, and I didn’t even know it.
I don’t believe in sharing every bit of our personal lives all over social media, and I don’t believe in victim mentality. But I have always believed that if my stories can help others, then I owe it to them to show up vulnerably, and bravely.
I am seeing so many people in dark spaces right now, and not knowing how to get out of it, not knowing how to continue when they feel they have lost everything they loved. And when I tell them I really do understand how they feel because I was there too. I’m often met with confusion – because I didn’t show people how broken I really was, because I didn’t share every detail of what I was going through, because I chose integrity and kindness – people don’t realise how hard it really was for me.
I was chatting to a dear friend last week. He was the only person that I really confided in 4 years ago. Although we have been friends for over 27 years he is not a part of my everyday life -and so I felt safe to share with him. He held my hand through so much, and I am so grateful to him for being there for me.
So, in last weeks conversations he said to me “look at where you are now – you did it!” its been 4 years of a lot of deep work and healing, and I am genuinely happy and loving my “new” life. He prompted me to reflect on the journey more deeply.
I made the most important choice of my life 4 years ago when I chose to not let my past affect my future. To not let my heart harden, to not become a victim of my circumstances, and to not give one more moment of my life away. I chose me for the first time ever.
If you are in a dark place in any area of your life, I would like to tell you that there is happiness in your future, if you choose it.
My Champagne Moments, with Senta podcast “reflection” is out today. Please listen to it – I hope that my reflecting on my own journey to a new story, can help you with your journey too.
Episode 24 of Champagne Moments is now live on:
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Thank you 🥂love Senta 🩷
