09/11/2020
A Letter In Gratitude
Tommy,
I sit here as another day has gone by and think about all we went through. Not just the times that wore on us, but those that built us up. Your smile and laugh were infectious. Your sense of humor was second to none. Your attention to detail, always impressive. Our wedding day. The birth of our daughter, Charlie. The pride on your face when you looked at her.
I think of your bravery through unimaginable pain. Your love for Charlie and me. The assurance in your eyes that comforted me through. I think of those times where you were vulnerable and cried in my arms. The moments of terror and triumph that we felt through your diagnosis. We climbed mountains together. Literally and figuratively.
Through the last four years, I have thought long and hard about the immense gratitude I have for your life and the fact that I got to share it with you.
When things felt impossible, you taught me to approach the situation with humor and optimism. Something that I will carry with me forever.
I am forever grateful for the love you showed me, even when I hurt you. For the patience you showed me, even when I didn’t deserve it. The dedication to your family, even when things got hard. While I failed to save you, it is important for you to know, you saved me.
What you taught me in life, I will not ever take for granted. I will be a better wife, mom, and human because of it.
While you are gone, you aren’t really. I will carry your spirit (and Charlie’s) with me until I walk into the great beyond too. While sometimes it is very heavy to carry, I will carry it proudly.
P.S. Trump isn’t President anymore. I know that was a huge bummer when you left, so I just wanted to let you know the good news.
Love,
Rachel