Monique Meijer

26/10/2023

So, I cut the straps off my cardigan.

11/10/2023

This says it all!

03/10/2023

I love the plants in My Studio

27/09/2023

02/09/2023

Matching slippers 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻

01/09/2023

Sangria Why not on Wednesday?

30/08/2023

28/08/2023

Windy!

25/08/2023

When I felt that something was still wrong with me.didn't know what it was, I seemed to skip the subject altogether, unable to make sense of it. It feels like you are not making any progress in your life.

For a long time, I thought I had to stick to meditations, affirmations, journals, visualization or wearing crystals on my body to free myself. To make me feel better.

Hoping that one day I would finally be "okay."
That then my hormones would be balanced.
And THEN I would be happy.

I could spend the rest of my life wondering what I am doing wrong and what is bothering me.
I mulled myself over.

Because of the chaos, fear, sadness and confusion I was experiencing.
The pain in my body or other symptoms and sensations.

Heavy periods, lethargy, hair loss, pain in my body, trouble with my bowels.
I must keep my partner at bay, not wanting s*x because you don't feel happy, beautiful or s*xy.

This chaos did not turn out to be abnormal.

But I didn't know any better and judged it as madness in my head that I needed to fix.

It was down to dissolving.
No one tells you that.

But healing doesn't come from your head.
There is nothing to heal.

But everybody talks about healing, which has become a revenue model.
And so you step into that whirlwind in your head repeatedly.

I got free from that mental addiction
When I stayed true to myself.

Didn't let myself down anymore.

The chaos turned out not to be the subject.
But a loving memory.

Where unconditional love lies underneath.

Which tells you that you are okay.

That you may be healthy and free with everything you experience and feel.

And therefore you are beautiful and attractive.

To create things the way your way.

Deep inside is the girl who knew from a young age that she was amazing.
Who looked in the mirror and felt she was special, different from others.
Who dared to show herself.
Who did not want to be modest.

The misery and madness that I was no longer that girl with those dreams was in my head.

When I stopped solving things from my head and fully embodied myself.

I found my Golden Girl waiting for me.
She had never been gone.

23/08/2023

First Croatia July and now one month in Portugal. You won’t hear me complaining, I just love this journey so much.