29/12/2019
Sunday December 29, 2019.
Getting used to being at home again. Other than the seizure episode, things are progressing well. Sometimes it is hard to pull back on the reins and move slowly. It seems so natural to push her sometimes forgetting how serious her injuries were. Finding balance between letting her rest or allowing her to avoid working on recovery is tough. If it's not us pushing, it's her doing things to quick or thinking she can do whatever she wants. She is starting to get frustrated with her current limitations. I am trying to find a project for her to work on that she would enjoy, but can't seem to find something that she is interested in starting. She spends most of the day sitting or laying on the couch which really goes against her nature. After all this is the woman that just decides to paint the entire living room, dining room, hallways, and kitchen during my foot surgery recovery. She finished the project in three days!
I am really enjoying taking care of her though. From getting up with her in the middle of the night for bathroom trips, helping her get dressed, massaging sore muscles, to bathing, I cherish all of it! I got the best Christmas gift this year when we all went to the movies together. I was so proud of her taking such a big step, especially in light of the seizure four days earlier. I am married to a very strong willed, fantastic woman! I am so thankful for God's mercy and healing miracles that have been poured over us these last few months. I pray her fighting spirit endures the three hours a day, three days a week, therapy sessions at Brooks. The sessions really wear her out but are already bearing fruit. She is getting stronger and more confident, at times a little too confident. She tried to get up by herself this morning not wanting to wake me up. I think she will always struggle with being dependent on others, having been so independent her entire life.
Myra is uncharacteristically avoiding making calls to friends as she has done everyday for as long as I can remember. I am longing to see her reconnect with her sister who came all the way from Iowa to see her while she was in the ICU. She was so close with her nephews and niece and I am looking forward to seeing her reconnect with them also. Please pray for our family, the stress from everything that has happened has strained relationships here at home. There is distance now between Austin and the rest of the family. I pray that the Lord can heal this division as he heals Myra.