Furious Fap

30/03/2022

https://youtu.be/eGlliqsfrwk

I finally fixed my PC issues. havent been able to play without crashing for 3 weeks. good to be back!Love this fight, its pure c...

20/03/2022

Stream postponed until next weekend, unfortunately I cannot get the game to stop crashing atm.

20/03/2022

Its looking like i fixed my issue, need to do a little more testing to be sure.

will start the stream by 8pm if all goes as planned.

20/03/2022

Might have to postpone my stream, encountering GPU driver-related crashes in doom eternal. Currently troubleshooting but might not be able to fix before 7 :(

17/03/2022

Streaming doom eternal nightmare master levels sunday evening, will be online by 7pm EST.

Starting with Mars Core Master Level as I'm still practicing for UN on that one, then for the first time on stream I'll be doing the World Spear Master Level.

World Spear is doom eternal's most intense master level, and the only one that lets you use the sentinel hammer (which you bet i'll be spamming). The hammer is so strong it makes DLC 2 way too easy, but WSML is balanced for the power of the hammer, which is why its absolutely bananas. I've only completed WSML once, so it should be a fun stream.

Next weekend I'll be streaming a couple runs of horde mode as i push for a ranking in the top 200, currently im rank 400-something after only 2 full runs.

Gonna stream doom eternal here, and maybe other games occasionally. Youtube channel will focus on doom eternal too but it'll also have videos about more general gaming topics eventually.

12/03/2022

Streams are probably gonna start to be a much more regular occurance in a week or two.

For now, I'm sort of taking a hiatus from doom eternal. Still my favorite game and i dont think I'll ever get completely sick of it, but I want to take some time to play other games and get out a bit more on the weekends. I love doom eternal so much i get excited just talking about it, and I want to keep it that way, and not playing it constantly helps me avoid getting burnt out. Quake got horde mode and i gotta try that s**t, plus I've just been tired from work.

So no stream this weekend, will probably pick it back up next Sunday. Looking forward to pushing horde mode leaderboards and finally getting Ultra Nightmare completion of the World Spear & Mars Core master levels. Almost had mars core last time i tried.

I'll probably stream some other games like Quake and Project Warlock in the near future, too.

No release date set for any scripted youtube content, I've been slacking.

01/03/2022

https://youtu.be/l9TWif_dzd4

Def almost ready to do TAG1 on UN

out how to record in better quality. blasted thru blood swamps.

01/03/2022

https://youtu.be/-y1kCY8oz8A

Doom Eternal Nekravol GameplayBlastin thru both Nekravols from the mission selectfigured out how to increase my recording quality recently so figured I'd upl...

01/03/2022

19/02/2022

going live within the hour, 730pm EST at the absolute latest. twitch.tv/furiousfap

Gonna stream doom eternal here, and maybe other games occasionally. Youtube channel will focus on doom eternal too but it'll also have videos about more general gaming topics eventually.

15/02/2022

Streamin Doom Eternal Saturday feb 19th, 7pm EST for a few hours

Not sure what content im gonna do but im sure itll be at least one master level and im sure it'll be a good time!

These demons aint gonna know what hit them. but it will probably be several weapons in rapid succession. Their skulls shall splinter beneath my boots.

24/01/2022

that was a really fun stream, thanks to everyone who tuned in!

23/01/2022

live now .tv/furiousfap

22/01/2022

this was tough, died a bunch of times before this clip lol

10/01/2022

sometimes i play other games.
this is a fun game: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mo6bnUPnLF4
spongebob squarepants - Battle for Bikini Bottom: rehydrated

31/12/2021

RIP (and tear) Betty White

May the blood on your sword never dry, and may we never need you again.

31/12/2021

No stream this weekend unfortunately, but I'll be clipping some highlights from the last one over the next few days.

Time/date of next stream TBA.
I gotta focus on real life atm, and take care of myself. My mental health is not the best atm.

But once I get my s**t a bit more together IRL I'm gonna be putting out some content that'll blow your t**s clean off.

30/12/2021

https://youtu.be/l8fpRXTfawk

My most viewed video, cant believe it has 14k views. Probably because this fight has been nerfed and is now a possessed hell knight

Fighting the possessed baron of hell in doom eternal DLC the ancient gods pt 1, the blood swamps, nightmare difficultythis guy has massive damage resistance,...

27/12/2021

Streamed on twitch for the first time last night. It wasnt everything I'd hoped it'd be in a lot of ways. But im happy i did it.

Sorry for such a long writeup, I dont intend to write a dissertation after every stream, but this whole experience got me thinking about a lot. also if this says tonight anywhere still i mean last night, I wrote it then but didnt post it. I'll be posting more highlights at some point too, probably.

So anyways, this clip is by far the craziest marauder fight in the game. I was stuck on this part for an hour. last night was my first time doing this master level in full. previously I would always die multiple times here, beat this part and then go to bed. The final wave of this fight is 2 marauders, but with 2 endlesly respawning hellknights and 2 whiplashes. a cyber mancubus or two spawns in but if they respawn its more slowly. Then theres shield soldiers everywhere, too.

This fight says "f**k you" to your normal strategy. normally you want to eliminate other major threats to do your little duel with the marauder and parry his melee so you can falter him, then capitalize on the opening and do as much damage as possible. Eventually even 2 marauders at once arent very challenging at all. But these ones sure a hell are. Since you're constantly assailed by fast, deadly pressure units, you have to try to get opportunities to damage the marauders during their brief window of vulnerability as you try to evade and repeatedly kill the hellknights and whiplashes. you have to kill them a lot, and very quickly, just to get them out of your face and not get bopped around by the whiplash's stupid ranged attack. but no matter how much you kill them, the threat cant be eliminated it only gives you seconds of breathing room. They respawn until the marauders die, and very quickly. then you can get bodyblocked by the shield soldiers, and blasted by their horrifyingly damaging shotgun if you end up in the wrong spot. you gotta be killing them too, but they block a lot of attacks, so you gotta use specific methods to get around the shield or plasma to blow it up. if you arent careful and crash into a shield soldier, he might shoot you for all your armor before you can kill him, since you cant just blast him, or you might get stuck just long enough for the hellknights leaping at you to land right on your head.

This is one of my favorite fights in the game, but its unbelievably stressful and exhausting.

Thats why I'd always blast through the beginning of this level, reach this fight, die several times on it, finish it successfully, and then just go to bed lmao. this time it was almost too much for me, though. since it pushes you to your limit and i already wasnt at my best.

I didnt get enough sleep or enough practice in the last few days, and i almost cancelled the stream cause I was exhausted. my mental state is not excellent at the moment.
I didnt play nearly as well as i couldve, when i really wanted this to be really good.
and right before this successful attempt, I was debating calling it a night.

But im really glad i didnt, since I got it next try, and had a lot of fun finishing the level for the first time. last night was not my best gameplay for sure but I didnt play nearly as a badly as I feared, except when i was getting horribly frustrated towards the middle of that hour of repeated failure. there were still some sick moments, I had several people watching including 2 friends of mine, and im really glad i didnt cancel it

I botched many aspects of the stream itself, besides the gameplay, too. My commentary was not the greatest and at the beginning kinda incoherent rambling due to nerves or a sense of obligation to be talking or something. my health and armor were blocked from viewers by a huge rectangle that was meant to show what a we**am would be picking up, for the entire duration, when i dont even have a we**am plugged in. I think i just clicked a toggle on the twitch app i should have or something. Worst thing was probably that fact that 20 entire minutes of gameplay were obscured completely, because I forgot to switch off the f**king "be right back" scene. But it was my first stream on twitch, and im gonna learn from it.

I'm not gonna stream again for at least a week or two. Next time, i'm going to plan ahead better, get some practice, and take better care of myself beforehand. I'll actually have a mic like i said i would. I will definitely not block my health and armor with a big useless rectangle the whole time, and 20 minutes of gameplay with twitch broadcaster overlays and not frantically ramble about nothing just because i was anxious and felt obligated to always talk or something, like i did at the beginning of this one.

But even though I f**ked this one up almost every way I could, it was still not that bad. I finally finished the master level i've been starting and quitting halfway through for weeks. I can still definitely get some cool clips from it, and I still had a lot of fun.

But part of my problem, and what caused me to keep quitting it before, was not that i couldnt do it an unreasonable desire to do it perfectly instead of just do it. Because I can sometimes pull off some stuff that looks really impressive, combo like 4 different guns in 2 seconds to kill a demon where it stands, blast through some really hard fights with relative ease, sometimes even without taking damage, and because im always trying to improve... I want EVERYTHING to be my absolute best. then i get frustrated at less than that.

I wanna get highlight reel worthy kills all the time, be always landing my shots, always at full stack, never catching a blast from my own rocket, never failing a quickscope... you get the idea, just never making mistakes... which is incredibly unrealistic and detrimental to actually playing well. you have to just immediately move on from a mistake, you gotta change plans immediately and respond to things as they happen.

its inevitable to make mistakes in doom eternal and things frequently dont go according to plan.
Failure is often a part of the process, as is learning from it. i talk about that in this clip, too. nearly half of this run was me failing repeatedly.
I think exhaustion was the biggest problem, but that was a result of my own personal failings.
I was reminded of some weaknesses and bad habits I have in my playstyle by my gameplay failings, as well as how i can apply some of the same lessons i do to doom eternal to my life as a whole.

A first full run of a master level is always rough. Thats why i wanted to stream like my third run or something, not my first. But maybe its good to not only show success, because thats not the true experience. I'm trying to approach my mistakes with the stream itself, and my own failures in life with the growth mindset doom eternal encourages in its gameplay. just like how perfectionism in real life prevents me from even starting things sometimes, my perfectionist attitude kept me from completing a level I could totally do because I couldnt do it flawlessly. But it was better to do it flawed, than not do it.

I will stream this level again in the near future, and it will be better. I'll probably cut down the time it took to complete by more than half. next stream will be something else, and that will be better too.

26/12/2021

https://www.twitch.tv/furiousfap live now

Gonna stream doom eternal here, and maybe other games occasionally. Youtube channel will focus on doom eternal too but it'll also have videos about more general gaming topics eventually.

26/12/2021

Bout to go live

if i dont start by exactly 6pm please bear with me, makin a cup of coffee atm https://www.twitch.tv/furiousfap

Gonna stream doom eternal here, and maybe other games occasionally. Youtube channel will focus on doom eternal too but it'll also have videos about more general gaming topics eventually.

26/12/2021

Gonna begin tonights stream at about 6pm EST, as i said i might only do one master level this time instead of 2. Not feeling great, but im still doing it. My commentary may not be very lively and my gameplay might not be my best, but less than perfect is better than not at all.

Also: Shameless mass invite #2 sent out, if i invited you and you're not interested then sorry to bother you with the notification

26/12/2021

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j8Igg_2gnZg pi**ed i lost the file for this one, but heres 2 barons of hell killed in like 30 seconds w/ no damage taken.

ice bomb + destroyer blade setups are so strong

26/12/2021

I may have to just do one master level this time, because I'm not feeling great, but im still planning on streaming this afternoon. exact start time to be determined, but it will definitely be after 3pm. gonna try not to start later than 5pm.

26/12/2021

dont usually use crucible but here sometimes i make an exception because this room is brutal. No damage taken this time tho

26/12/2021

not the fast marauder kill ive ever done, but a nice quick one that looked cool.

26/12/2021

idk if i have the file of this one saved on my PC anymore, otherwise id upload directly. My files are disorganized AF and I had so much gameplay footage i couldnt possibly sort through that was taking up a huge amount of space, so I nuked most of my folder awhile back.

I wish i could showcase youtube vids on here. but anyways, this is a neat clip: 5 arachnotrons killed at once with a destroyer blade https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UdDaVKLyFw8&list=PLijYEJsG95nIca_Mho5jcgJcLuGcgjMqD&index=6

killing 5 arachnotrons with an ice bomb + destroyer blade in the taras nabad master level

26/12/2021

just a sweet kill on an archvile that looked really cool

26/12/2021

Stunning 2 marauders with the sentinel hammer, then taking them out, with slowmo

this isnt actually impressive since the hammer is stupidly OP, but its just a cool lookin clip

26/12/2021

destroying 3 archviles, last kill wasnt exactly stylish but worked well enough lol

26/12/2021

1 cycle kill

26/12/2021

26/12/2021

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6JJaZjuwIg
A video of 2 really intense battles, some of my best gameplay footage

just a clip of the two arenas where you get the shield halves in the blood swamps. Two of the hardest and most fun arenas in the game IMO. This is doom etern...

26/12/2021

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24/12/2021

This page and is currently under construction.

Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/furiousfap
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChjbfCZPrduT84vAaSZzzAw
Twitter: may exist eventually

not sure if I wanna directly connect reddit or steam to the page yet but definitely considering it. This post will probably remain the pinned post for now and may be periodically edited.

TLDR of this post: this page is for streams, youtube vids, and possibly other content with a strong focus on Doom Eternal but topics about gaming in general is also gonna be a thing. I dont expect or even really want to ever get a large following from this stuff.
if you're my friend in real life, or if you're not but are one of the fb friends i shamelessly mass-invited, know that you have no obligation to follow my channels or watch my streams/vids. If we're friends you might feel sort of obligated to support this whole thing in some capacity, and of course, I appreciate it if you do. but if you just dont give a s**t, I totally get it.
You will also find links to my streams, twitch & youtube channels etc. and probably textposts with musings about doom eternal and video games in general.
I also enjoy helping other doom eternal players improve their gameplay, wherever they're currently at. So if you have any questions, feel free to ask, and if you want me to critique your gameplay without being a dick about it or showing it publicly, send me a clip. I cant promise i will respond to messages sent to the page right away, but consider my inbox open.

LONG VERSION: I figure I will post a bit of a mission statement to start this whole thing and explain what i wanna do with the content I intend to create, why I wanna do it, and maybe shed some light on why I cant stop talking about doom eternal so much.

I've been playing video games my whole life, and recording some of my gameplay on youtube for about a year now. I've wanted to dip my toe into streaming and actually put the effort into making "real" youtube videos with scripting, editing, etc. for a long time, and am finally starting to actually do that.

The content here, my streams, and youtube videos I have planned will be largely focused on doom eternal. DE is my favorite game of all time. I have an intense passion for the game and literally cannot shut up about it anyways, so I want to funnel that into something constructive that can reach people who are interested, instead of constantly annoying my friends and one small facebook group. I want to show people how cool doom eternal is, of course, and maybe flex my skills a bit, but also produce content that may be interesting, informative, or thought provoking to people who play DE as well as those who dont.

Besides Doom Eternal itself, in my long form youtube videos I also will talk about game design and development decisions that make games the way they are, and our relationship to games.

Doom Eternal was so good it got me thinking about how such a game could be made, why I liked it so much, and why I liked or disliked certain other games.

This sort thinking was aided by how the devs talked about their game in a passionate and confident way that clearly communicated their vision during development, then delivered on their promises, releasing an incredibly polished final product that was laser focused on making that vision a reality. They then continued to support the game with free content and engage with the community well after release, put out 2 excellent DLCs, and just did so much more than the bare minimum. They could have totally gotten away with the bare minimum, too. If they made another game that was basically doom 2016 with a couple minor additions and some new enemies, that would be phoning it in, but it wouldnt even be bad. Doom 2016 was great, and the sequel just being more doom 2016 wouldnt have been a bad game. It would sell well, and wouldnt cause too many people to complain. Many studios would have hoped to just make a sequel that isnt significantly worse after a game llike 2016, but id software recognized that although doom 2016 was great, it was also flawed in significant ways, and wanted to make the best game they possibly could. Contrast this with their publisher, Bethesda, who repeatedly rereleases skyrim at full price with almost no changes, and all around does literally less than the bare minimum, desecrates their beloved IPs further with every release since morrowind, and relies on the modding community to fix their broken, unfinished games instead of conducting proper QA or generally giving a s**t at all. When making Fallout 3, ostensibly a first person shooter as well as an RPG, they added an aim button with zoom, but didnt bother to include FU***NG IRONSIGHTS. its mind-boggling. But enough "bethesda bad". The point is the way id conducted themselves every step of the way with doom eternal restored some of my hope for the game industry and made the incompetence, laziness, and greed of their publisher, and the many other major devs that are just as bad, look even more inexcusable. their success proved that big-name studios didnt have to do anything but actually put in effort, and make a good game that people wanted to play in order to make a bunch of money.

Besides the fact that its conspicuously well-designed, and the devs talk about its design really openly, you see things as game design choices a bit more naturally because of Eternal's unabashedly "video-gamey" nature. Since the combat is so much the top priority, aesthetics, world-building and such often get sacrificed at the altar of the gameplay.
You see things as parts of a game more clearly because the game doesnt even try to hide it. There is no possible explanation that makes any sort of sense for why chainsaw kills reload all your guns at once or how lighting demons on fire gives you armor, except that its a part of the gameplay loop that works with the combat. They dont try to explain it in the lore because any sort of in-universe justification for how this happens would be stupid and pointless. Just like how most of the arenas dont look like rooms that would ever exist anywhere outside a video game, but are clearly just arenas to parkour around and kill demons in. the game doesnt try to explain why there are big yellow poles sticking out of random walls, because the answer is obvious. So you can swing off of them. it exists purely to serve a gameplay function. Stuff like that.

All this stuff combined made me really think about games in general in ways i never had. So I wanna explore that.
things like:
What makes a game fun? what is fun, even? What is the role of difficulty and challenge in video games? How does that relate to accessibility? what is good/bad difficulty? How do games educate the player about their systems? What should they flat-out tell you, and what should you have to figure out on your own? What are some of the different reasons people play games? Why do some people play certain games for massive amounts of time? How do games keep us playing and keep us engaged? all of that kinda stuff.

these arent each necessarily going to be a video, and there is no set release schedule for videos. they will be released sporadically, likely months apart. None are close to being finished atm, but I have a few scripts in the works. There will be shorter scripted vids, and there already are lots of gameplay videos on my channel of all different lengths. But my focus for scripted content at the moment is on making a few in-depth videos each probably about an hour long. As you can tell by this write-up, I have a lot to say about this stuff.

Since I've accumulated a great deal of knowledge and mastery of Doom Eternal in my hundreds of hours playing it, a secondary aim of this page will be to share that in order to help players who might be struggling or just want to learn more. If youre having trouble with something in the game, not understanding something, or have any other sort of questions, I'll do my best to help you out. I'm also willing to offer constructive, mockery-free criticism of your gameplay if you send a recording my way. I'm no sylar, and I dont have full UN completion yet. But I'm working towards full UN, and I did SGN ML on UN a second time without lockons, superweapons, or saving throw. so if you're also a UN player I dont know if I can help you too much, but I'm pretty good, and if you're anywhere between an ITYTD player and a Nightmare player who does pretty well overall but still has a lot of room for improvement, I can probably offer some insight. I dont play battlemode or know much about it. cant help you there.

if any sort "community" or following results from this, I want it to be a positive and inclusive one. My content here isnt gonna be overtly political, nor will it be strictly moderated or free of profanity. but I will not tolerate elitism and bigotry. I've regrettably been guilty of a bit of elitism in the past but I've come to realize its something I want to combat in the doom community and gaming community overall. I actually plan on defending Dean Takahashi in a future video, which should get some fun comments.

really looking forward to getting the ball rolling on all this stuff

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