Shedding a little light, on my relationship to love ♥️ As a way of gently communicating to myself, to my soul & to my heart, that it is no longer serving me to be overly protective closed. It is safe to open & let another in 🔐 I choose to let love in 💕 Scary, exciting & beautiful all at the same time 😰🙃🥰 A wise man once told me, I don’t need to trust anyone, I just need to trust myself, trust myself that whatever life brings me, I will be okay 🌸 Shed a little light - Bonser #MyVulnerableTruth #Sunrise #Singing #Cover #Love #ChoosingLove #ShedALittleLight #Bonser
I post this here as a way of facing my fears of being judged by others
Here comes My Vulnerable Truth... I love to sing, it makes me feel good and I want to do it more 🥳 But most importantly I also want to own the part of me that wants to be seen doing it. There is a performer in me, that is terrified of the audience and at the same time longs for one. 😖
(Damn, That feels so scary to admit pubicly) 😬
The perfectionist in my mind is definitely wanting to speak up and let me know all of the things that is wrong with this video and all the reasons why I should NOT do this, but the warrior in me, the one who wants growth, freedom & expansion, who wants to step out of my comfort zone and let myself be seen, is speaking up a lot louder 😋 So here we go...
I would like to start sharing more videos of me singing and so I’m guessing it starts with this one here 🤷🏻♀️
And contrary to what it may look like... Know that I experience fear, nervousness & insecurity in these moments before I press the ‘share’ button 😰
Side note: I also want to acknowledge that I did not make this song up, I learned this song back in February during the Stockholm Tantra Festival, by an insanely talented woman (who’s name I can’t remember). I cried the first time I heard it and it’s been my life’s theme tune ever since ♥️
#myvulnerabletruth
#acapella
#singing
#septembersong
I used to think it was disempowering to ‘follow’ a man. Seeing it as weak, controlling & demeaning to my worth 🙅🏻♀️
7 months ago I started learning Kizomba. A partner dance originally from Angola 🇦🇴
This dance - which at times can be very sensual, brought me face to face with my radical independent feminist views around gender dynamics 😖
Oh what a learning 🤦🏻♀️
Through this beautiful dance, I have come to discover that there is nothing more freeing than giving another, the permission to dance you 💜
The gift of being able to stop thinking, stop doing & to glide on someone else’s wings 💫
The only way my partner is able to lead me, is by me allowing him to. It must begin with me, otherwise it simply would not happen.
It is total empowerment 🔥
A beautiful & humble teacher 💚
#kizomba
#MyVulnerableTruth
#Dance
#partnerdancing
#follow
Nudity & Body Love 💕
One of my more lengthier sharings on a topic I’ve been delving deep into over the past two years. ♥️
And by uploading this video I am consciously (and nervously) choosing to quieten the voice of doubt with the voice of reassurance, as I trust that those who aren’t meant to see this video will 💫
What is my intention of putting this video out❓
To give some transparent human context to a photo that could quite easily spark a thousand opinions 🙏🏼
This video is not here to change your mind on nudity, or to convince you that I am not how you perceive me to be. I am well aware, with full acceptance of the possible consequences of my actions, being that people will talk 🤷🏻♀️
But my reasoning for this video is to speak out about my experience, of how once upon a time, I too had my own judgements, my own shock reaction & my own fears around nakedness 🙅🏻♀️
And how by stepping out my comfort zone, in fact became a pivotal moment in massively healing my relationship with my body 🌱
It’s so easy to see others and to create stories around how “I could never do that”.
It is a thought that would come to mind often at the idea of a ‘Naked Sauna’.
My intention with all of my videos is to show otherwise.
Us humans, we’re not so different after all 🌏
We all want to be happy, feel love, feel free & enjoy life 🌹
Going into nature, taking my clothes off & taking a dip into some water is one of the ways I can feel those things.
If I can do it, so can you 💜
#MyVulnerableTruth
#nakedplanet
Radical Honesty 🌱
To report out loud to another what you notice, in your body, and in your mind in the present moment
I am inviting more radical honesty into my life 💫
I will do this by setting the intention to be more aware of my thoughts and sensations in the present moment and to then transparently communicate them 🌈
This is my attempt to deepen my love, connection & understanding for others and to myself and to meet my fear of being met by ‘judged’ 😰
Challenge accepted 🥴
If you would like to bring more of this into your life also, then take this as an open invitation, to welcome more radical honesty into the interactions you have with me 🙏🏼
As a way to grow in our communication, trust & connection. Where it will will be met only with trust, safety, openness & acceptance ♥️
#MyVulnerableTruth
#RadicalHonesty
#SpeakYourTruth
#wednesdaywords
#Challenge
#truth
#Communication
Unapologetic Inquiry #1 🙏🏼
Grateful for this thought probing dive into Image Identity by the Sonya Renee Taylor, as I follow her down the path of Radical Self-Love💜
Out-Growing the identity 💫
#MyVulnerableTruth
#OwnIt
#RadicalSelfLove
#TheBodyIsNotAnApology
#vlog
#thoughtoftheday
#radicalhonesty
Part 2 of Toilet Medicina 🙃
Bringing shamanism to the shower room🚿
Who says the Diva can’t be sacred too 😉💫
#MyVulnerableTruth
#thisisme
#thursdayvibes
#medicinesongs
#cleaningmotivation
#singing
Cinders is that you? 🙄
From rags to riches... I’ve got the rags, but where’s the riches?💰🤷🏻♀️
My community task of cleaning the toilet became so much more enjoyable once I discovered the reverb in the building🙊🎤🕺🏻
Who says you can’t bring a mantra medley along to help you sing in service 😂
#Myvulnerabletruth
#bathroomsinger
#sundayvibes
#sofreshandsoclean
#youmissedaspot
#singitloudsingitproud
Thursday Thoughts 💭
The subtle addiction that unconsciously creeps in through using social media 😰
Is it possible to not get sucked in?
How to have it as part of your life, without it taking over your life at 2am in the morning when you planned to sleep 4 hours before 😳
Food for thought 🤷🏻♀️
#myvulnerabletruth
#socialmediaaddiction
#thursdaythoughts
The importance of speaking out, when we’re struggling ♥️
My reflection on how my past week has been since speaking about my depressive spell and noticing how voicing it, ended up shifting a lot of what I was feeling 💜
This past month I have seen how trapped I can become in my own darkness when I keep it to myself and hide it from the world. The shame of our experience feeds the very suffering and makes us feel even more alone, alienated & disconnected 😔
Owning my experience, feeling my emotions & expressing them, resulted in my grey cloud loosing a lot of the energy and power it was ‘having over me’ ☁️
I am so grateful for the opportunity to share myself on a platform like this, a space to step into unchartered waters, to branch outside of my comfort zone and to challenge the programming that tells me I can’t 🙅🏻♀️
Turns out, it’s not so scary after all. But rather very, very healing 🙏🏼
I am deeply touched by the support I have received, from those reaching out because they feel my sharing resonates, or those feeling encouraged to stand in their own truths & voice their own struggles 🧚 This to me feels so important and is a huge reason as to why I am doing this ☯️
Standing in our vulnerability & showing our unfiltered, unapologetic, raw selves to the world, allows us to create a web of infectious, inspiration to make others feel safe enough to share their own humanness 💜 The collective healing potential here is huge! 🌎
To Anyone who has seen my videos and has that little voice inside their head saying ‘maybe I could do that too’… Know that YOU 100% CAN! 👊🏼 Follow those breadcrumbs of curiosity & trust in your own power! 🔥 We’re all just trying to walk each other home 👩🏼🤝👩🏻
#myvulnerabletruth
#mentalhealthawareness
#speakitout
#vlog
#standinyourtruth
#vulnerability
So many voices in my head listing all of the reasons why I should not upload this video 😰
Worried I’m going to be perceived as a ‘victim’, or have it seen as a cry for help, or fear that I’m going to receive endless worried messages, from people offering ways to support 😔
Fear of being the “talk of the town”
Of being seen as mentally unstable
As someone who needs help
Screw all of those fears & all of those voices 👎🏼
None of them are true 🙅🏻♀️
What I have realised, through writing this, is that, all of my fears are totally out of my control, for they lay with things external from myself.
Therefore it is total wasted energy.
I cannot control people’s opinions of me, their judgements, their misconceptions, nor is it my job to convince anybody otherwise either
Learning to let go of my care for what others think, is exactly what I am trying to heal by doing this very thing
And if I am to stand & show my vulnerability in this way, I need to take responsibility that actions like this come with a price.
That some people (most people) will choose to have their own opinions and own narratives about witnessing something like this.
That is okay 💜
But that doesn’t change the fact that I created this platform so that I could face all of these fears society has taught me to be afraid of
I created it, to support me on my own path for freedom. Freedom from the chase for perfectionism & trap of idealism 🎁
To feel free to show all of me, at any given moment, in any emotion, in any process.
To be different, to do things a different way, to share my voice & to show that ALL OF THIS IS TOTALLY NORMAL.
Feeling this...
Talking about this...
And showing this...
Is healing
♥️
Those who resonate with what I have to share will.
Maybe it will aid a sense of connection
Maybe it will inspire others to share their pains & their truths
Or maybe it will make just one person feel not so alone in their struggle🙏🏼
May
A reflection on my last video & how radical honesty & transparency can provide safer more trusting spaces for all, where nothing is left to assumption ♥️
We are not used to basing our interactions around consent, the art of asking someone instead of guessing, because we are under the impression that to ask is unsexy, or too vulnerable or a sign of weakness 🤦🏻♀️
I would argue the opposite 👀
To see someone own their truth & ask for clarity, to me is a sign of stability, confidence & integrity ☀️
The consequence of presuming someone’s intentions based on your own projection, can lead to disappointed, an overstepping of boundaries & trust being lost, all because we didn’t simply vocalise our honesty & ask 🥀
Is there someone you could have a transparent conversation?
A situation you (subconsciously & unintentionally) decided on, from your mind rather than from asking them straight up 💭
Is there something that could serve you, to gain some clarity on today? 🌀
If so, then this is an invitation to test the waters & have that conversation, as an act of honour to yourself, to really see if you’ve gotten the right end of the stick here & to ensure that all parties are “on the same page” 📖
And to see it as an experiment 🧪
Go in to the situation without any attachment to any outcome & to see it with curiosity & interest 🙏🏼
And see how that goes
See how it is to really stand in your true authenticity? 🌊
And how was the dynamic between you both after? ☯️
The art of Non-assumption & Non-expectation isn’t something we were taught growing up, but keeps us present & grounded with our feet planted in this reality 🌱
#MyVulnerableTruth
#sharing
#authenticrelating
#radicalhonesty
#consent
#consentculture
#healing
#vulnerability
#vlog
