13/03/2024
In 2020 I decided to enrol into the training of Zen Coaching and on Sunday, I completed my final module 🤩
During that time, my self-esteem was consumed with unworthiness, insecurity & self-doubt. My Self-confidence was an all time low, I had no idea regarding my direction in life & the thought of it’s hopelessness brought me panicking waves of overwhelm whenever I’d think of it 😰
I was riding a 10 year unhealthy rollercoaster ride of depression, body dysmorphia, eating disorders & addiction, which were all failed attempts at trying to cover up the lack of self-love I had for myself 🌸
I was sitting on a pile of suppressed emotions which were slowly building up like a pressure cooker, with no idea on how to navigate them 💨
I was riddled with fear. Scared to speak up for myself, scared to feel my feelings, scared to show my face, scared to show my body, scared to take space, scared to step into my power, scared to sing in public, scared of being judged, scared of being rejected.
Scared scared scared scared scared… With these fears totally running the show 🌹
Over the years, I have come face to face with the untrue damaging beliefs I carried about myself. That were so far down, I had no idea even existed. I dug down so deep, to the root of my insecurities and dragged them up into the loving light ✨
Many times I thought about giving up, hearing the voice, “You can’t do this Jeyda, maybe this isn’t for you” and thanks to this training, I was able to see through the bullshxt, feel the fear and do it anyway 🥲
As I walked this journey, I began more & more to share with you all, some of the highs & lows I’d been feeling along the way. (THIS WAS NOT EASY & many times I would feel terrified before I’d click the button ‘upload’) 😰 And I have been overwhelmingly surprised by the positive responses I’ve received, when I have showed my raw emotions, showed my truth & spoke my mind. People expressing gratitude, appreciation, inspiration, that seeing me in my experience has supported them in knowing they’re not alone in theirs. To know that it’s okay not to be okay 🌹
This has supported me in feeling even more confident to show up & dissolve this unrealistic strive for perfection🙏🏼
Since I started the Zen Coaching I have:
🌹 Moved to a different country
🌹 Found freedom with my body & food
🌹 Stepped into a management position
🌹 Held workshops for over 100 people
🌹 Solo journeyed through South America
🌹 Faced some of my deepest fears
🌹 Started my own company
🌹 Fallen in love with myself
All because I worked on freeing myself from the limitations that were keeping me hostage and instead learned how to take ownership over my life and found a deeper sense of inner trust & courage when things became challenging ❤️🔥
I realised through this training, I can only hold another’s hand as they walk through the path of transformation, with all it’s up’s & downs, if I’ve walked the path myself 🙏🏼
Some of the key teachings that have helped me along the way are:
✨All issues within my life, stem from my beliefs & my emotions
✨ If I can accept my experience with love, without trying to change it, I will gain a new perspective
✨ The more I let my emotions flow, the more exciting the ride of life will be
✨ Fear and courage are two sides of the same coin
✨ My mind is strong, but my determination is stronger
✨ Pain is inevitable, suffering is a choice
✨ Through the discomfort is where I’ll find liberation
✨ The highs & lows will always come; This is no reflection of myself, my work, nor my worth
✨ It is a strength to ask for support, not a weakness
✨ I have the power to create the life I want!
✨ The most important relationship is the one with myself
I finished the course on Sunday and stood in front of my group, with tears streaming from my eyes as I held my certificate 🥹
Looking back over this profound, healing, life changing journey, I bathed in gratitude for all the gifts it’s brought me and I am deeply touched that I can now support other’s in the same way 💜
When given the opportunity to share final words on our experience, the only phrases that came to me were:
I am worthy
I am ready
I am an amazing Coach
And I will support many people
This I believe with every inch of my heart, and I am excited to know deep down, this is what I came here to do 🥰
To the gracious, humble, world-class teachers who have held me, supported me & guided me through this transformational learning, I am beyond words…
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you 🙏🏼
Kåre Landfald
Kavina Thorslund
Roger Marklund
Zen Coaching
