Mental Mac Media

26/12/2021

So I found an article on Cracked about how a bunch of characters in movies and films have these mental health issues and I figured that would be a good idea for the first video for this channel, to give people an idea of what its all about and to, oh I dunno, maybe give people an example of what I can do.

Maybe that will garner some more interest...

Keep an eye out!

23/12/2021

Been too long! Brush off the dust and get ready for stuff.

21/12/2021

21/12/2021

18/11/2020

Okay. I need a printer. Anyone have one lying around they're not using? Hopefully with some ink?

I mean I can get stuff printed, it would just make everything easier if I could do it from the "office".

Thanks folks.

14/11/2020

Once again I have been scolded for asking for donations. That's cool. I know what the funds are for. If you're worried I'm just some as***le trying to mooch free money, well the answer is simple.

Move the f*ck along and mind you're own business. Don't donate. Hell, I don't even care if you voice your disdain in the comments section.

But do NOT attack my integrity. Do NOT question my motives unless you have the legal right to do so. If you feel the need to call me out publicly, be prepared to be ignored. If you have concerns, please address them to me, in private. I'm happy to explain my intentions AGAIN if someone doesn't quite get it.

I'm doing this. I don't want to do it alone, but if I have to, I will. I won't appreciate it if you try to stand in my way, regardless of your reasons.

So, once again. Donations can be made via PayPal, the address is [email protected].

If you'd like a receipt I can do that, though I have not yet gained charitable status so it may not be any good.

I will also provide a detailed breakdown of where and what the donations are used for, upon request.

I'm trying to help people who really need it. Why not help me instead of criticising?

13/11/2020

Getting there!

So, the arm patches are ready to be fabricated. This is the preview only.

Now I just have to wait to pay for them, and Christmas is next month, sooo...might be a bit unless someone wants to pitch in? The order is about $80 for five patches, if you can help out, you get one!

08/11/2020

Alrighty, the community outreach thing has a name, logo and it's own page.

Back to updates about the movie. Should be doing a read-through of the script next week!

06/11/2020

Tentative name and logo, not showing yet because the contest is still open.

But I think I've found it...

05/11/2020

So something has occurred to me, as somethings tend to do...

I don't know how to word this so it's politically correct, so please don't cancel me if this comes across as offensive in any way, this is NOT my intent.

I am all about helping people. Everyone, no matter what. However...some people do not want a man's help. I get that completely. So (and this is the hard to word part) I need a female who's tough but kind hearted, compassionate, fair but able to take care of yourself in dangerous situations.

If you want to join me, I'd appreciate having you a great deal. There's a lot of folks who don't trust men, for good reason. I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable. I just want to help.

I will be doing my thing either way, it'd just be nice to be able to help everyone who wants it.

04/11/2020

So. In order to achieve a level of (at least apparent) legitimacy, to not just be a joke or not taken seriously (I f*cking hate that) I have devised a sort of uniform to wear while out in the soup.

I've combined aesthetic from multiple official uniforms, added my own flair (because let's face it, costuming is one of my biggest strengths) to make it look somewhat "official" but maintaining the "volunteer" look. I went with black as a base color because...it's ME. Green reflective hi-vis, not the nookyaler hi-vis green, the mental health green. Green flashing emergency LEDs, I've got a reflective patch of the help out logo on the back of my security jacket, plus the t-shirt.

Still look like I'm trying to be too "official". I like this because it could potentially prevent people from interfering with what I'm doing. On the flip side, the people I'm trying to help aren't likely to trust someone who looks like they're part of the government's strong-arm departments.

I've..."Trev'ed" it up some so there's no WAY I'll be mistaken for a police officer, I don't want to get in bad with the law, I'd ultimately like to work WITH them, but dreams are dreams.

I don't have any official paperwork or SPECIFIC training. I have 30+ years of experience.

I am not an official. I am a volunteer mental health consultant and someone who honestly wants to get people off the streets, out of the darkness whatever it may be, and onto a path to better living.

I'm here to help. I'm here to change things. I'm here to show the rest of the world we are NOT less. We are NOT weak, unwanted and worthless.

Chances are, someone you know or love is struggling with these issues. Can they talk about it freely without fear of judgement or someone taking it personally or any of the other s**t that people who hurt have to deal with when choosing who to let in.

But anyways. The outfit. I'm stuck between feeling ridiculous and knowing I need some of this stuff. But I'm ME, as I like to keep pointing out, and I am a RIDICULOUS man. There's no one feeling me in lately so I'm running with stuff.

04/11/2020

On a shorter and lighter note, were getting close to the name for the street team. I have a genius working on it, and I've gotten many excellent suggestions already. I asked her to give it another try with the ol danger assessment harm reduction letters in them. I'm giving her time as her creativity hits when it hits, not when she wants.

I'll throw up a list once we get enough, maybe do a poll?

I dunno. The future is unwritten, we'll see what comes.

03/11/2020

Getting somewhere takes its time, something I often forget in my "madness".

I often give up too soon because I think no one is really interested or my ideas aren't as amazeballs as I thought.

Not this one, though. Pretty sure this is my calling. I tried to do it a different way a few years ago, I tried to get into an industry that would allow me to earn the capital I thought I'd need to start and maintain this.

I loved it. The people were just as weird and accepting as me, I felt at home for the first time in my life. I even managed some moderate success which is VERY surprising considering the amount of people trying to get into this industry and the fact that...well...I'm ME.

But it was wonderful for a time, my dreams were so big they were impossible but I was doing it anyways.

But like all things I endeavor, I was alone in it for too long and my silly mind spoiled it. A few external contributing factors were there, but I'm responsible for me.

I gave up on everything. My heart was broken into irreparable powder. I thought to myself "that's it. You've nothing left but to expire.."

And I dwelled in it for a long time. I got real bad, gained all kinds of weight, lost all of my muscle tone, my teeth rotted, my hair and beard grew wild and ignored. It was rough.

During this time of insane escapism a very dear old friend took his life in a most horrifying way. I was so f*cked up on my own s**t that I didn't even know he was suffering. And that broke me even more.

I started the long process of relocating my head from my ass back to my shoulders, got hella sick from withdrawal and now have an even better appreciation for what you poor bastards go through, picked my ass up, hit the weights and the therapist to bring my mind and body back into shape. I was ready to dive back in to the s**t...

Then Covid came along and changed the world forever.

I lost it a bit again at that point. I had JUST decided to stop self isolating after like a year and a half and BOOM. EVERYONE has to!

I couldn't find work, I had burned almost every bridge I'd had built over the years. I was alone and freaking. I got real scared one night and thoughts went to a very dark place. While I stewed in that I remembered about my friend, things started coming back, and my horror at it all grew.

I remembered my calling. I knew I had failed him, and that will haunt me until the day I die and find out what happens after.

I can't let that happen again. I can't. Not won't. Not "it shouldn't". Not "what could you have done?" No more of that.

There's no name or word I feel captures the gravity of this undertaking. If there is I haven't found it, and I am clever with words.

Anyways, this is a long ass post and I haven't even said what I had intended to say yet!

This is never going to go away. It's name may change, people involved may change, locations may change or expand but...as long as I live, breath, think and talk, I will be here for ANYONE who needs to talk or whatever.

I know I can come across as a flake with ADHD that starts a million projects and never finished any but this is not one of those. I'm putting all of me into this, like I did with the acting, because apparently when I actually TRY nothing can stop me.

I'm s**t at getting people involved with something I've started as I usually START believing it will fail. I'm very good at motivating people once they're a part of something but I'm not a salesman anymore. 20 years of lying to people's faces to get their money for s**t you know they don't need has squicked me of "the pitch". There's stuff I know I'm no good for and it frustrates me a bit that I can't seem to inspire anyone to join me, but it changes only how I have to do things.

I'll keep sending out the request for volunteers, but I'm pretty sure it's the same 60+ people seeing it every time so I may share this.

It's getting colder everyday. There are people suffering needlessly. I am an extremely loud and obnoxious person that can maybe draw some attention. And maybe, just maybe, I can help someone find their way out of the darkness I was lost in for so long.

Also. I'm gonna get back into that acting s**t because it would nice to feel at "home" again.

Crazy rant is crazy, but the page IS Mental Mac Media, not Normal Ned News.

02/11/2020

30 years experience being the MacPherson family tech guy/cable installer/streaming service setter-upper.

Mom still needs me to hook up the VCR. And it's great lol. Hooking her up with Crave and Amazon Prime to start, if I can get her to work the mouse!

It's nice to have someone ask you for help due to your skill and abilities to do something they struggle with. S'a really really good feeling. It's addictive, helping people.

I'll help out with whatever I can. I'm s**t at relationship stuff but pretty good with the fallout, I've attempted mediation a few times, I seem to be able to get people calmed down and listening to reason, not always but often enough to make it worth it to try.

But I don't do relationship moderation. I help the men recover themselves after a break, guide them to recourses they need to get help before they become a danger to themselves or others.

This is not all I do, I also check on the homeless peeps, make sure they're good, got what they need. I support and defend the beautiful weirdos who are identifying as attack helicopters and such (a well meaning joke). They need strong representation, always more is better.

I am here to help ANY MFer who needs it. Feeling lonely and got no one to talk to? My number is on the page. Freaking out and need someone to talk you down, numbers on my card and on the mental Mac Media page.

I ask that you try to keep the kalls between 9 am and 7 pm, however if you really need it, just call. EMERGENCIES GO TO EMERGENCY SERVICES. I'm not a paramedic, though first aid trained. I'm more of an advice guy who's been through a hell of a lot of stuff.

Got folks working on the street team, maybe a year from now I'll have a pitch for the United Way.

Anyways. That number is (613) 215-1829.

26/10/2020

26/10/2020

So it has been brought to my attention recently by a few concerned individuals, that I've been going about this in a bit of a self-defeating way.

I'm normally decent with wording things in a way that tries to be urgent and vague at the same time. This method, however, doesn't really work. I get frustrated and then the filter goes out the window. I rant, get negative, say dumb s**t and basically turn everyone off like a light switch.

This whole project, for me, was born out of need. I need to do it, and that need grows stronger every day.

But I'm the "hammer" of this venture. What I need is an architect. My state of mind won't allow me to do this the right way, and getting to the right state of mind will take too long.

I need someone who'll hear what I'm trying to accomplish and put it into words that bring people in, instead of my thinly veiled accusations and attempts to guilt folks into helping.

This is a positive venture. It can't be helmed by someone harbouring so much negativity. I'm too combative, and I loathe bureaucracy.

I've reached out to a few people whom I believe would be critical to have involved. So far, positive responses.

So until I can get it all sorted and turned into an "organization" it's just me in a high vis hoodie walking the streets.

25/10/2020

Should be comfortable working as part of a group or board. No experience necessary, however....

Experience in the following are high priority:
Web design/development
Any official psychiatric training, DSW, PSW, first aid, first response
Ability to navigate bureaucracy
Addiction and addiction services
Su***de prevention training
Organization skills
Good people skills
Most importantly, the desire to help those who suffer simply for the sake of helping them.

Multiple volunteers needed, there's a lot to be done.

I do plan on paying those who sit on the board and do this busy work so I can do my part. It won't be a lot, and it won't be right away, but I'll take care of you best I can.

If things grow, the potential does too.

As far as the application goes, don't worry about formatting or resumés or anything. Just tell me about you, why you'd like to help, and any skills you might bring to the table.

Come join me, help me make this world a better place for everyone.

25/10/2020

The design team hard at work. Ivy's working on uniform designs, and the boy...is testing the springs in the couch I guess.

24/10/2020

So. I'm not being allowed to ask for donations, for...decent reasons. So if you were going to donate, still do so. In the meantime I will continue to work on making this whole thing "legitimate" so I'm not just some scammer trying to get free s**t.

Did some research. There doesn't seem to be any LEGAL way of doing what I plan without some sort of bureaucracy, and I am f*cking allergic to bureaucracy.

So, I need a "Board" of volunteers. Considering the interest I've received in this project, it looks like I'm gonna have to go outlaw.

I'm not sitting and waiting to be told the revenue stream is safe while someone suffers or even dies.

I don't want this to be a fight. I've reached out to many groups here in Belleville. CMHA, AMHA, Grace INN, next week I'll be speaking to the United Way. Yes, the Not Alone Team Quinte exists, and I've joined and will ABSOLUTELY volunteer.

I've looked into getting registered as a charitable organization, hence the request for volunteers for the "Board".

It kinda grinds my gears how hard they make it to just f*cking help.

Compassion and empathy are superpowers. You can use them to save lives, and it costs nothing.

Anyways. I won't stop. Might as well join me.

OH! And I'm not going to operate under Mental Mac Media, that's the parent organization. This project still needs a name. Maybe I can get the "Board" to vote on one?

22/10/2020

Well, turns out I need the help after all folks.

15/10/2020

I know I keep saying this, but seriously...if you'd like to get involved with this project, please let me know!

So far it's just me. And that is enough to start. But this isn't just a silly little project to me, it's almost like it's what my core programming commands.

There's a lot I'm struggling with, however. I wanted to have a webpage ready so folks could read up and learn what I'm up to...I just can't seem to get the words out. I need the website to get the donations page up so I can start getting help paying for the supplies I need. Got lots of graphics and stuff.

I also need input. Ideas, plans, stuff like that. Organizing this on my own is POSSIBLE but it will probably end up being too much for me.

And more, but anyways. If you've got free time, don't have anything to do with it and have a decent soul and a desire to help, contact me.

15/10/2020

Alright folks with witty and creative minds!

I'm working on an acronym for the street level part of my project. I want it to sound "cool" so it gets attention and maybe inspires some folks to join up.

So far I've got this, it's cheesy and sounds like a crime syndicate but...that's my mind.

Danger Assessment Harm Reduction Crew.

D.A.R.C. I dunno, sounds like Narc which will subvert my purpose entirely.

Anyways, all suggestions are welcome, don't make me go with D.A.R.C.

13/10/2020

Hopefully getting the "uniform" issue dealt with, might get an extra shirt out of the deal.

Talking with folks in the know, getting an idea of what I'm going to do and where I'm needed.

I'm almost ready to get this project underway.

11/10/2020

https://www.facebook.com/100004136704367/posts/1750470485100825/?sfnsn=mo

09/10/2020

Got some stuff for the project, doing what I can on my end. Shirts too big but that's cosmetic.

Still need a website to let folks know exactly what I'm up to, though.

09/10/2020

I need to make a website and apparently I've forgotten everything I learned in college.

I need someone good with words and websites to help me out.

And anyone who wants to get involved, feel free to let me know.

07/10/2020

29/09/2020

This new idea is way better and much more feasible.

Anyone interested in doing some photography with me?

I'm working on a website and stuff, but I still want to get it out to the community, she'd a light on some people's suffering so maybe folks can justify a little compassion.

Anyhoo, this is taking off! Got noloxone training tomorrow, first aid training as soon as they're doing it again and I've got 35 years of experience trying to get a head.

Even got a dedicated phone number for emergencies I can help with.

Feels good.

29/09/2020

So this is sitting here, helping no one.

I had intended to sit and make YouTube videos about my daily struggles with mental health in an attempt to show people it's okay to talk about it.

This concept had become, while well-intentioned, simply not enough. Not just because I'm dealing with a specific fixable issue preventing me from getting in front of the camera, but because...well, just talking about myself isn't going to really do anything beyond maybe let a few people who know me understand me a little better. Don't get me wrong, I want that badly. However...

It's not satisfying enough for me, and I feel like it won't help as many people as I can.

So starting asap (probably October 1st) I'll be heading out into the community to offer help wherever I can. To help the people who are having a hard time helping themselves, who either don't know or aren't willing to help themselves, whatever needs to be done.

Being a "media" channel ideally I'd like to film some stuff but I don't want the perception to be of me doing this for attention for myself, but to bring attention to where it's needed and maybe show folks that these are people with feelings and dreams too.

I spend so much time isolated and alone I'm not sure where to start, but I'll be out and about doing my thing. If anyone can tell me where to head out to, where folks might need a hand, please let me know.

Watch for the shirt, I'll be wearing it while I'm out and about. It will have this printed on it, possibly the Mental Mac Media logo as well.