18/02/2021
I REALLY hate to do this, but there is a good reason for it, and I just hope you can all understand and give me a little grace and forgiveness. I'm going to miss my deadline with the next episode release date. I was hoping to put the finishing touches on the episode and release it today, but I'm going to need to push it out a few more days.
I started a new medication last week for my anxiety, and it was supposed to also help with my sleep onset insomnia. Well, it did! And I was feeling great! I've actually been getting the best sleep I've had in at LEAST the past 2 years! Until last night...
Last night I was lying in bed, winding down for the night and about ready to go sleep for the night, when my heart rate just started racing! My fitbit said it was 140 bpm, but at the same time I felt like I falling asleep and/or blacking out. Suddenly, my head flopped over to my left and I had no control over it. My hands came up to my chest and I started convulsing. I still was completely aware of what was happening and was able to control one of my arms enough to smack my husband several times and call his name. He could ask me questions and, with lots of effort, I could answer.
So yeah, I had my very first seizure last night and can totally relate to what Grayson goes through. I believe that I was given that experience and able to remember it so that I could empathize with my son. It was very scary, but I now know how very important it is to talk him through it and let him know that he's okay and that we're right there with him.
I'm sorry! Just give me a few extra days and I promise it'll be worth the wait! To make up for the fact that you're not getting an episode today, here's a picture of Grayson with his Papa (my dad). ❤️