10/05/2023
H U H ?? nah cuz this is crazy. i’m throwing up, pi***ng, tap dancing, grinning with glee, passing out
to get a little serious, & apologies in advance for being long winded —
Growing up in a low-income, immigrant household, I thought that pursuing art would never be an option for me. Even when enrolled at an arts high school, I would skip conservatory classes to rush to one of my three part time jobs in order to help make ends meet at home. Never mind being able to support just myself, what about my family? How was I supposed to break cyclical generations of poverty by pursuing anything creative? This was the rhetoric and pressure I had in my head for years, even after going no contact.
Yet somehow, someway, is honoring me as “Artistry Creator of the Year” and I’m… Pardon my language, but 13 year old me would be sh****ng bricks — in fact, current day, 25 year old me IS sh****ng bricks.
I’m in disbelief every single day that I get to do this for a living, and I couldn’t be more fulfilled. That’s only because all of you are here, watching & supporting me. While I know content creation isn’t always a forever thing, I’m grateful for every single second and hope I can keep making videos for y’all until you’re sick of me.
I dedicate this award to every single young q***r person who taken the time to confide your pain, your dreams, your true lived experience with me. Thank you for entrusting me with that. And to any other young q***r immigrant out there who may come across my page or this post, if I can just say this: you deserve to take up space, you are deserving of love, and your merit is not presupposed by fulfilling the desires of others. You owe it to yourself to live the life that you want to live.
This community has fueled me to live unapologetically, and now, as I do just that, I can only encourage you all to do the same. Thank you for changing my life — I can never thank you enough for that.
final thank yous to and most of all , the most amazing manager in the world, who found me in a sea of creators and saw my worth (even when I struggle to)
i’m weeping and just full of gratitude today. Thank you, thank you, thank you
