hyphygirlmode

18/10/2024

Here’s an excerpt from a post I will be publishing on Substack soon. Please consider being a paid subscriber and support my writing! 💚

“My child has been out of daycare all week due to her school having a planned vacation closure and it’s made me so much more confused about what I want in life in all aspects, but particularly as a “working mom”.

I prayed my whole life for not only the chance to be a mom, but to be an active one that can spend my whole day with my child. And for the last two years I have had that. But society tells me that I have to work and provide a living for myself and my kid because it’s just us. So then I put her in daycare while I search for work and then feel guilty because my toddler is spending 40hrs a week away from me even when I don’t have a job so I can be ready for when I do get one just for things to not work out. Then I’m sad and feel like a terrible parent based on society’s standards but then remember that although I did not pray to be poor, I did say that I wanted to be actively hands-on with my child the way my parents couldn’t be. But we need money to live and I have to work for what we need. So I find myself crying every day because I’m either happy that I’m with my child or sad because I feel like I have nothing to show for the last 3 years.

And then I think, who tf am I showing this to? This is MY life! I have to remember that I am the author of my story and I can make as many changes as I want until it feels right for me!

The world puts so much pressure on us to do things the “right way” and I hate that term. My way is the right way! I may not be everyone’s cup of tea and that’s alright with me.”

28/09/2024

some of my latest creations for customers (and myself)

working on some new stuff that will be for purchase soon!

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02/08/2024

These last three years of unemployment have been the hardest three years of my life. In that time I lost my car, had a baby, lived in a DV homeless shelter, became an unofficial caregiver to a family member who has Alzheimer's, lost my father, and more. I got swallowed up in the despair and sometimes the thoughts that should not be in my mind almost won because it seemed easier to quit than to keep going. I couldn't see a way out because I was focused too deeply on the things that were closing me in. After finding a new therapist, doing A LOT of inner work, and removing myself from things that do not serve me, I am coming back to my jovial and optimistic self that I missed so much. In order to get where I am, I had to remember to love myself where I was. That love is what propelled me to seek therapy, it's what propelled me to do the inner work, it's what allows me to ask for help for my daughter and I each time I am faced with something that I cannot do alone.

I have (hopefully!) one more BIG ask to share with you all. I need a car yesterday. Not having my own transportation has been the biggest setback of why I am not able to get to work. My child's daycare is around the corner from where we are staying, but getting to and from anywhere over here is a headache and if I get off at 5pm in San Francisco I would not make it in time to pick my child up by 6pm via the combo of Uber and BART or bus and BART. I applied for a grant a couple years ago to help with the purchase of a clean-air vehicle, but was not able to come up with enough funds or paystubs needed at that time. I reached out to this same program last month to find out if they were going to have another cycle (it's dependent on funding) and they reached out yesterday saying that although the cycle is closed, they had one spot open up and I needed to submit all application materials before 7/31. It was as if God said "two years ago when you couldn't, you helped someone else and now here is your chance". I don't want to lose this opportunity again. Although I start work next Monday (yay!), I won't be able to qualify for the loan that they offer, but I am still eligible for the grant. I am asking for your help to allow me to buy a car outright with no payments (but ensuring that I stick with the stipulations set by the program). All info (including a link to the program) is in the comments.

Thank you all for your continued support and for being a part of the village that is helping me raise my child. I can't wait to help you all the way you have helped me.

I’m raising $6,000 until 08/30/2024 for Single Mom buying family car. Can you help?

19/04/2024

I need help y’all. I don’t have enough funds for this upcoming trip to Houston for the funeral which is next Friday and it’s making me physically sick and I’m breaking out all over because I’m stressed out. I got our tickets to Houston due to asking for help on another platform. I feel ashamed and embarrassed for being in this predicament. But I need help and it’s only going to get worse for me if I keep holding things in. If you are able to help me, please message me and please keep me in your prayers. And to those of you who have been checking in on me and I haven’t been responding, I give you my sincere apologies. 💚

19/08/2023

"please understand that us minorities don’t need you to be our saviour. we don’t want you to deliver us. we want you to stand along side us and help us. so won’t you help us?" I wrote those words in 2016. Read on as I take a trip down memory lane

I used to have several blogs and I also used Tumblr and had some great content! I also posted some great Facebook posts as well! Sadly, I can’t remember all of my user names so I can find my …

18/08/2023

I have been unemployed almost as long as my child has experience this planet and that is crazy! but it took me to have her to see things about me and my life choices in a much clearer way.
don't forget to check out the link at the bottom of the post!

That’s how long I have been without a permanent, full-time gig. I went through a pregnancy, homelessness, lost my car, starved, experienced family violence and and I’m still searching f…

17/08/2023

I love being sexy. Like I just love the freedom and power that you feel, even when you just feel sexy. Everybody has felt this feeling, even if only just once. You look a yourself whether at your body or your reflection in front of the mirror and go "f**k, I look good. I wanna delight on myself too." Now. imagine meeting someone that makes you feel that way about yourself and them at the same time....

I love being sexy. Like I just love the freedom and power that you feel, even when you just feel sexy. Everybody has felt this feeling, even if only just once. You look a yourself whether at your b…

08/07/2023

The baby is taking a nap and I am listening to "Search & Rescue"- Drake on repeat in my AirPods. As the music is slappin, I'm dreaming of a Las Vegas trip w/my man, us in a pool cabana at Drais Beachclub with our friends and close family. Or me and my man at home kid free, doin what lovers do (shoutout to…...

The baby is taking a nap and I am listening to “Search & Rescue”- Drake on repeat in my AirPods. As the music is slappin, I’m dreaming of a Las Vegas trip w/my man, us in a po…

06/07/2023

IT STARTS WITH YOU!

I’m listening to an episode of PushBlack’s podcast Building Black Dollars entitled “Employee vs. Entrepreneur: Which One Are You?” and boy oh boy is it resonating with me ri…

06/07/2023

I'm starting to write now too y'all.

I know I have my podcast to talk, but I felt compelled to write today. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw right now (SATC Carrie though), except I don’ smoke cancer sticks. I have Lil U*i Vert& #8217…

06/05/2023

New episode alert!

This is a freebie episode so it'll only be available for a while.

But by subscribing for $2.99/month, you'll be able to listen to this plus more whenever you want!

https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/hyphygirlmode

http://hyphygirlmode.blog/2023/05/06/unfocused-af/

Summary Focus is a new word and action for this year. I’m trying to get it together, but I’m still all over the place. Join me as I come to some realizations. — Send in a voice message: Subsc…

30/04/2023

That Memorial Day weekend trip is coming up and you still haven't started shopping?

Taking a grad trip and don't know what to wear?

Finished Spring cleaning your wardrobe and now your closet needs new threads?

Head on over to our sister page, Hyphy Girl Mode- Merch and shop new looks now! Use Code FIRSTTIME for 20% off your first order! (ebooks excluded)

We are revamping and will be back soon!

https://hyphy-girl-mode.company.site