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21/12/2020

I've been stabbing myself with the handle of a knife,
And I wonder why I'm not dead yet,
As we speed towards a new life,
I can only feel myself going backwards.

03/12/2020

two years, the past two years of my life I have been taking methadone. there are times where it made me feel free, released from the bounds of op**te dependency but over time it has become another prison, something that inhibits me from doing the things I really want to do. by the end of this month I will be finished with my treatment, released from the constraints of medication. I am so excited, so bewildered by the possibilities that come with my upcoming freedom.

Where do I go? What do I do? Who will I meet? What will I learn?

my soul yearns for freedom, but who will I be when I finally have it?

29/11/2020

put@one@in@my@head

27/11/2020

🙃 flashbacks to me wasting away 🙃

23/11/2020

THE SQUIRTLE SQUAD IS THE ONLY SQUAD FOR ME

21/11/2020

lil antifa fairy princess

19/11/2020

sometimes I don’t realize exactly how lucky I am to have a friend like you. someone I can call at any time for any thing, without a doubt in my mind that you’ll do whatever you can to help see me through.

I love you.

thick as thieves through thick and thin you’ve never let me down.

14/11/2020

sometimes life can be really really good

08/11/2020

tryna catch me ridin’ dirty

30/10/2020

🎡 really good to really bad to really good to really bad to really good to really great🎢

23/10/2020

accurate risk management

12/10/2020

klonopin taco

02/10/2020

I started drawing portraits two weeks ago and it’s been a great reminder that YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT TO, just try.

01/10/2020

dead dead dead

23/09/2020

save a horse, ride a klikbait.

23/09/2020

save a horse, ride a klikbait.

21/09/2020

some things aren’t supposed to be easy. looking back on all of the memories we had and shared, thinking about what the future could have been like. what could I have done differently? was there a way that I could have changed the outcome?

I doubt it.

some days my emotions wash over me completely. I’m filled with dread, with anger, frustration, sadness, rage. other days I feel empty. like i’ve been beaten down so far that there is nothing left.

inside of a hurricane of emotions there is still hope, a storm no matter how furious is calm in the center.

I read about grief, about grieving. how to deal with my emotions, how i’m supposed to move on from them. I try to tell myself that I am not alone, despite the loneliness that I feel.

How is it that someone can say they love you so much, and then just leave?

I guess it happens to everyone. Friendships dissipate, lovers abandon, family members grow apart. I’m not special, that doesn’t mean I have to feel good about it.

I think about the fires that are ravaging the state right now. The death and destruction of thousands of creatures and their homes. The earth screaming in pain.

It will end and the ashes will fertilize the soil. Trees will grow and new life will replace what was there.

Maybe that’s what I’m experiencing. A rebirth, a complete destruction of self, an opportunity for a change that I wouldn’t have had otherwise.

Or maybe I just say that to myself, hoping for some small shred of good to come from all of this pain.

I miss you

20/09/2020

youtube tutorials//day two of drawing

20/09/2020

life has been really weird lately. a lot has happened in the last few months, years, i’ve experienced immense loss, heartbreak, I became dependent on substances and got over it.

I like to think that I’ve learned a lot, that i’ve become more in touch with my emotions, with myself.

honestly I just feel like an idiot most of the time. but I know i’m making progress. i know that eventually i’ll find all of the things i’ve been looking for.

eventually someone will love me again, that i will finish grieving my loved ones, that I will no longer be a prisoner of whatever medication i’m taking, i’ll find my spiritual freedom, and become happy some where doing some thing.

none of that has to be right now, it doesn’t have to be tomorrow, next week, next month, next year.

I’ll keep healing and i’ll find pleasure in little things. learning to draw, having someone read me a poem, finishing a run, a four hour conversation on the phone with a lost friend.

and through all of this i will learn to love myself unconditionally. the way I always should have.

18/09/2020

“I HAVE D E P R E S S I O N”

a beautiful edit by

16/09/2020

I really miss being outside

15/09/2020

13/09/2020

it’s happening right meow
*link in bio*

11/09/2020

“nobody cared who I was until I put on the mask” - Bane

11/09/2020

I love u Vash

08/09/2020

ALL HAIL HP LASERJET PRINTER 9000, LORD OF DESTRUCTION!

06/09/2020

life can be really really good sometimes

03/09/2020

i just wanted to say, f**k everyone. LIFE IS GREAT RIGHT NOW AND IM PUMPED ABOUT IT

meme:

30/08/2020

A PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT;
from your local Klikbait

22/08/2020

i just want u 2 luv me

17/08/2020

don’t forget, the protests are still happening, and the police are still brutalizing innocent people.

15/08/2020

mornings with my guys 🦁📠🥞

07/08/2020

Dirty Sign Language: ALL HAIL SATAN

07/08/2020

Dirty Sign Language: YOU DUMB AS HELL

06/08/2020

😴 GOODNIGHT LOSER 😴

05/08/2020

Streamer Suffers❗️NOODLE INDUCED BREAKDOWN❗️ LIVE ON STREAM

04/08/2020

NEW HOUSE ; NO RULES

30/07/2020

IDGAF

27/07/2020

I WANT TO STAB YOU

24/07/2020

MY LIFE TRANSFORMATJON