05/04/2022
Everything is easier when you have support, or people who believe in you.
Doing it all on your own, is very stressful. But even though I have done it, with little to no support. I am very successful. Just tired of trying to accomplish it, with all the sabotage. 35 years of working, and according to popular beliefs, I must have this established success, to societies standards. Let me tell you, I am successful, with or without anyone’s approval. Yet I admit, I am tired. And just feel used, most often because the investments made, have been pulled, or depreciated. Too many believe they had better/could achieve, and I didn’t realize it was their loss for pulling the support, right before a miracle could happen. They gave up. I never did. I just was not desiring to waist my time with those who didn’t value what a truly awesome work ethic I have. Reminding someone that your not their mother, was he hardest lesson I had to learn, as I watched them down spiral, and had to not be their maid, rather be the friend they needed, to show them the reality they created.
The blessing I have today, is being stalked by a toddler, with all smiles, who literally makes me feel like Pat Tillman is looking at me, reminding me that I am pretty, let alone awesome. Giving me the time, and making me feel valued, as he wants to play the chase and be chased game. Such a smile, warms my heart, in such a way, where I forget my struggles and can rejuvenate, as such a beautiful soul, admires me, in all my beauty, and work ethics. I feel like I won the lottery when it comes to admiration. Which is the moment needed, when everything seems to have gone wrong, or feeling down, from the chaos of just trying to move forward from the disappointments. I think my most devoted fan, is the smile coming from a toddler, who sees what my heart is made of, and how their smile makes me feel validated in remembering that nothing is too much, as long as I have someone to smile for. Someone who needs me, to just feel loved, as I show love with my smile.
As the birds chirp, I realize.... Life is a blessing, to enjoy, and not feel overwhelmed, because it all happens for a reason. While so many celebrities make publicity stunts for added attention and buzz feeds, in order to lift their tweets, I am blessed beyond my deserving, to be loved by someone who thankfully sees who I am, and not what they can get from me or out of me. Unless of course I have crayons, etc, as they are letting me help teach them educational attributes. Patience is the goal to teach, and sometimes it’s not as easy. But the need is for me to remember a role, as a guardian. To love unconditionally, and devote time to being there. A way to always know I have a place, and wether it is teaching one, or the many.... it’s purposed! Now to get my coffee, and perhaps a good book to read. What a beautiful, Tuesday it is! Please make the day, worthy of remembering... And make your bed, so you may be better than me, as mine is a mess. Probably gonna cuddle back into it, and read, until I hear back about the jobs applied for. A rockstars work is never done. So rock, your pink bifocals, just like me!
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“Touchdown in Bakersfield, devoted to not giving up! It’ll all make sense, in no time.”
~Queen Touçhè
