
29/10/2024
đź’śCLOSUREđź’ś
đź’ś
I can't believe you had the audacity to say
you need closure-Closure
an imaginary casket
where two people muddle through the
woulda, shoulda, coulda’s
and speak clichés like - I'll always love you
you’ll always hold a special place in my heart
and we can still be friends
what makes you think I owe you that?
đź’ś
After everything you took me through
spoon-feeding ME!!
small doses of disrespect mixed with neglect
conversations turned into arguments
as you became more and more elusive
what was loving became verbally abusive
your words, cut deeper than any knife.
striking me with a soul-crushing blow
without any bruises to show
so no one would ever know
I was battered
I…was…BATTERED
Manipulated-convinced everything was my fault
you had me questioning my reality -doubting my own sanity
you played the victim -twisted the truth
I tried everything it was just no use
đź’ś
You left me to grieve the death of a relationship
I didn’t even know was dead.
I replayed our relationship
Over…and OVER again in my head
nights, I cried myself to sleep,
wondering where you were - and who with
knowing I deserved better than this s**t
what was loving and passionate
became dark-all our plans, all the dreams,
up in smoke-it had to be some kind of joke.
đź’ś
You reduced us to nothing - but still came around,
to make a pitstop whenever you wanted
some no-strings-attached ass,
knowing I could never resist your ass,
no matter how hard I tried.
loathing myself for accepting
the measly 15 minutes you threw my way
to temporarily soothe
the insecurities you birthed in me
every time you made that pitstop
your touches turned crass - your kisses lacked compassion
every time you left; I was left wondering
what the fu@k just happened
đź’ś
I loved you - unconditionally, without reciprocity…
But one can’t believe
what one can’t conceive.
and I could never conceive,
a life without you and me.
đź’ś
When I finally realized,
I deserved more than you could give
I mustered up the strength
to do what you couldn’t do—leave you
now you have the audacity
to ask- MEEE
for closure – NI**AH - PUHLEEZE
I’m done revisiting the past
I’m done grieving.
I’m done questioning.
I’ve already closed that chapter
and......Hell No. We can’t still be friends
guess I got the last laugh -in the end