Insights Into A Soul

06/12/2021

Season 3 is kicking off! Maybe you feel stuck or like you are wandering, give this episode a listen!

10/09/2021

I’ve been really proud of myself. This week I began going back to the gym and have been consistent all week. I’m sore, but I love it.

The hardest part for me was motivation. Motivation to get up and go. To step out of my comfort zone. To get off my ass and get in shape. Even just a week in I can already feel the change. I feel more balanced and better about myself. I feel my confidence coming back.

I want to be healthier not only mentally, but physically and spiritually as well.

I think a lot of us always say “I want to be like I used to be” and to that I say “why?” Why go back to how you used to be? Why not push to be better that you’ve ever been. I personally don’t want to go back to how I used to be. I don’t like the old me. I want to be a better version of myself. I want to constantly be growing and moving forward in all areas of my life. So this is the beginning of that journey.

Maybe Instagram will be a sort of accountability for me. It’s easy to give up when you’re tired, when to don’t see the results or feel like it doesn’t matter. But it does. When you feel like no one notices or cares. Do it for yourself. Every little step forward is a step in the right direction. So keep going and don’t give up. Keep working on being the best YOU in whatever area you want to grow in.

11/08/2021

Toxic Loyalty - it’s a real issue that we may not even realize we suffer from. We stay loyal to a job, a relationship or even an idea because we continue to tell ourselves that it will get better. We continue to hope for the best and maybe we can see the potential in something, but maybe we are doing more harm to ourselves by “hoping for the best”. Maybe we need to give it up or make a change and release ourselves from the prison that we have created.

How much are you missing out on? How much potential have you wasted? How many other opportunities have you passed on because you refuse to accept the reality? The reality that you know deep down inside this is a lost cause or there is something or someone better out there. The current thing may not be bad, but it may not be the BEST.

Why aren’t you living your life to the fullest? You’re better than you realize. Maybe you’ve been devalued for so long that you’ve begun to believe the voices in your head.

It’s time to let go of that toxic loyalty and live the life you’re meant to live. It’s time to realize your value and grow.

12/03/2021

The other night I made, what at the time I thought might be the worst decision of this year so far.

23/02/2021

I recorded this episode a few weeks ago and never posted it for some reason. Not that it was a tough episode to record or any negative reasons, I guess the time just didn't feel right. I think it's finally time to post it for whatever reason there may be. In this episode I dive in to divorce, my jou...

23/12/2020

Holy cow! It's been a year already since we launched Insights Into A Soul. Crazy how time flies. Wanted to do a quick episode before Christmas with a challenge as we go in to the end of the year. Thank you to everyone who has supported the podcast by listening or sharing it. Thank you for all of the kind words and I look forward to the new year!!

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08/12/2020

We are back folks! Sorry for being gone for so long but there has been A LOT going on! In this episode we catch up and talk about HEALING and also, healing sucks! We get real deep and a little personal today.

I would love to know what's been going on with you so let me know what healing has looked like for you or maybe you need some help or someone to talk to, I am here so just message me!!

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26/10/2020

Often times I have conversations with myself in the shower or with my cat. I decided to finally start recording those thoughts because maybe someone else out there is going through similar things and maybe it could help them as I talk it out. Lately I have been struggling with my creativity and tryi...

06/10/2020

Hello everyone! Back this week with a new episode and it's time to take inventory. We are talking about relationships this week, not necessarily romantic relationships, but friendships and our connection to others. There are times that we need to take inventory and look at those relationships to see...

15/09/2020

FOLKS! We are back! Life has been busy and there has been a lot on my mind. I figured it would be a good idea to do an episode as we come up on 1 year from the events that changed my life in a dramatic way and sparked the start of Insights Into A Soul. I know that we all go through stuff or maybe yo...

17/08/2020

I realized recently that I am very hard on myself, I find that I often blame myself and put myself down. whether it be about my physical appearance, reliving situations, or about decisions that I have made. But we need to learn to be kind to ourselves. So grab a cup of coffee and hang out as I dive....

28/07/2020

Hello everyone! I am back! Man, has it been a wild couple of months, a move, the world is still in the midst of a pandemic, settling in to a new rhythm of life. It has been crazy and a bit of a struggle to get back to doing the podcast. But I think I have found the burst of motivation I need! I love...

29/06/2020

New series “Quick Insights” where I share my thoughts in a short video.

Sometime you can be doing well in your healing process and then something hits you and you feel yourself spiraling. Just remember, one bad day doesn’t undo your progress. You have to fight to maintain your growth and keep moving forward in your healing.

29/06/2020

A close friend of mine began sharing posts from several months ago when I was struggling and in a pretty bad place mentally. The unique and "real" approach of the quotes helped me to snap out of my mental funk and refocus myself. So when the opportunity came up to sit down with Syn, founder of Afrobrutality, I was ecstatic. So join us as we sit down and get real with Afrobrutality.⠀
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29/06/2020

A close friend of mine began sharing posts from Afrobrutality several months ago when I was struggling and in a pretty bad place mentally. The unique and "real" approach of the quotes helped me to snap out of my mental funk and refocus myself. So when the opportunity came up to sit down with Syn, fo...

24/06/2020

I am back! It's been a few weeks but there has been a lot going on and some life changes. On this episode I updated you on life and we dive in to social distancing/isolation and why I think it should be changed to PHYSICAL distancing. We also discuss mental health and why I feel worthless. Visit the...

27/04/2020

I didn’t do a podcast this past week and I was feeling really down about it. I felt like I had let my listeners down as well as myself. I had been on a good trend of releasing a new episode once a week since I launched insights and I was really the only one holding myself to that standard of weekly releases. I think we can do that sometimes, we can put ourselves in self-made boxes with self-imposed guidelines that no one else will ever know of. We can beat ourselves up and while I say that the podcast is for me is personal therapy, I do enjoy seeing the growth and engagement. But that is no reason to feel negatively of myself if I don’t stick to my standards that I have set for myself. That is not to say that plans and schedules are a bad thing, I thrive off planning and production but if we can’t produce a quality piece of content or if we aren’t feeling inspired, it’s better to not put something out than put out something that our heart wasn’t fully in.⠀
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So this week I have a new podacast with the reveal of a project that I have been working on for a little while now. The world premiere of my original song Re:Birth! Let me know what you guys think!⠀
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I also discuss the struggle with producing content and offer some encouragement to those out there that may feel like life is beating you up. ⠀
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As Armin Van Buuren says "Let the music guide you".⠀
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15/04/2020

It has been a while since I took time and looked at myself. The past week was a rough one, a lot of working through feelings and hard conversations. How do we have hard conversations? How do we handle it when we get information and maybe it's not what we want, but it's what we need? ⠀
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In the midst of this I also think that I have received some of the answers I needed and closure around parts of my situation. Closure is not always easy, but it helps in the healing process. ⠀
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Join me on this episode as I unpack life and we work through some stuff together. ⁠⠀ ⠀
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01/04/2020

Folks, I am back with another solo episode (finally). It has been some time since I sat down with my thoughts and had a good conversation with you. I have just passed the 6 month mark in my current state of life so it's time to check in. On this episode I wanted to tackle a big question, the "What if?" question. We ask it all the time about different things, good and bad, but at some point we need to stop and move forward. So pull up a chair and let's talk. ⠀
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Thank you to everyone to has supported the podcast. Please leave a review on iTunes as it helps me spread the word and reach more people. Feel free to send me a DM and share your thoughts, or how the podcast has helped you. Also, if you have ideas for topics you would like me to dive deeper into, let me know. Leave a comment or shoot me a DM. ⁠⠀⠀
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10/03/2020

It's time to dive in to another relationship story. This time Will opens up to us about his heartbreak and how he was able to move on and grow. Even if you aren't dealing with a breakup, this story will help as we dive in on how to overcome hardships and healthy ways of dealing with them.⠀

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03/03/2020

Episode 12: Group Therapy: Valentine’s Day and Being Alone. ⠀
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The group is back together for another episode! This time I am joined by Will and Rachel and we discuss our Valentine's day happenings. This is the first time we had all been single for V-Day so we dive in to being alone, Rachel opens up about her relationship, and will tries to take over the podcast. Join us for all the craziness of a late night podcast where a few drinks may have been involved. ⠀
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Thank you to everyone to has supported the podcast. Please leave a review on iTunes as it helps me spread the word and reach more people. Feel free to send me a DM and share your thoughts, or how the podcast has helped you. Also, if you have ideas for topics you would like me to dive deeper into, let me know. Leave a comment or shoot me a DM. ⁠⠀⠀
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28/02/2020

When we go through something hard in life we ask a lot of questions, especially if we aren’t in full control of the circumstances or decisions leading up to the event, we ask “why” and start to wonder how we can even begin to heal or move on. We even go so far as to ask “can we even heal?” This is all natural and good, but once we begin to move on we need to let go of the past and be very careful about revisiting past thoughts and scenarios. Being reflective is ok, we can and should learn things from the past, but going back and beginning to question things is dangerous.

Once we have made decisions and have begun to heal we need to be confident in those choices. We need to own the path that we are now on and look forward to the future. We need to constantly be moving forward even if it is slow. Progress is still progress my friend. No one can tell you exactly how to heal or grow, that is for you to determine. People can provide advice and help guide you and support you, but they can’t do it for you.

Recently, I was provided with a statement that set me back. It caused me to go back to my past and ask the question “what if?” It threw me into a torrent of thoughts and emotions. The times of loneliness and quiet had become a dangerous place. I was sent reeling into a world of entertaining possibilities, wondering if there was hope or a future again. Then I began to hope for that future. I began to drift into the idea of going back, but obviously in a new way. I began to read too much into things.

As I said before, looking back at your past and learning from it can be a good thing. It is often times necessary for us to heal and grow. But when we revisit the past and begin to ask “what if?”, we run the risk of falling into dangerous territory. We have to remind ourselves that we can’t go back and change the past. We also can’t live in the fantasy land of possible outcomes that will never happen. The reality of the situation is that things are the way they are it’s time to own it.

Early on in my separation, I was going through the normal feelings of missing my wife, wanting to reconcile and wondering if it would work out between us. One of my good friends challenged me by asking me, “Is it her you miss, or the idea of her?” This really hit me as I had to stop and think, did I really miss her, everything about her, or did I just miss having someone, the companionship, the love, the security, the stability? I couldn’t answer that question fully then and I still can’t, which shows me that I am not in a place to “try again” if we did decide to. I think too much of my feelings and actions would be wrapped up with me trying hard to not lose her again and if a relationship is built on that, what good is it? At that point it is just doomed to fail.

It has been a few days since I started writing this and I think my thoughts are a lot more complete as I had time to process this a little more and really look inside to see if my thoughts were properly weighted. The big conclusion I came to is that I need to own my decisions, my new path and continue to press forward in that. When you make it through something difficult, no matter how big or small it was, you need to own your decisions and be confident in them. As long as your decisions aren’t causing you or anyone else harm, own them and live in them. Use them to give yourself purpose and direction. Find strength in the new you and the new course you have been set on.

I will end with this thought, this is what helped snap me out of my “what if?” hole and put me back into the right mindset of growth and moving forward:

I can’t lose “me” again. I won’t, not for anyone. Even in this short time I have fought too hard to find myself, the self that was lost, the self that I knew was always there, the new, true self that is coming out. I won’t lose myself again.

Keep moving forward my friends and remember you are loved and you need to love yourself.

-Taurin

26/02/2020

I recently watched the movie JoJo Rabbit, it was such a beautiful movie that had comedy mixed with reality and a very relatable picture was painted. The movie ends with this quote and it caused me to go down the rabbit hole of writings by the author.⠀
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I think, this quote hit me so much because of everything I have been going through. I have experienced both beauty and terror in the past several months but the big reminder is that “no feeling is final”. This is such a critical thing to remember, no feeling is final, they will shift and change with the days and the moments.⠀
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I think we can also remember that no feeling defines us. Some days we will feel like we can take on the world and the next we may feel like the world is crushing us. But, it will pass. We will move on if we choose to and we will become stronger and better and more beautiful versions of ourselves. Lean on others to not only help you through the hard times, but also to celebrate the good times with.⠀
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25/02/2020

The first episode is live!

Welcome to the first episode! I know the title seems morbid, but trust me, there is a point to it. On this episode I fill everyone in on what has been going on with life that has lead me to this point. I also issue a challenge to all of my listeners as we go in to a new year and a new decade. Let's....

25/02/2020

25/02/2020

I am particularly excited about this podcast. I overheard Josh talking about his relationship of 6 years and the craziness that it was and had to sit down with him. If you like Lifetime movies, then this is the episode for you! There were so many red flags that were flying in Josh's relationship from the time it began, but he kept pressing on and loving his partner. Tune in to get the full story, hear how he finally broke free and then find out how he has been dealing with things since then.⠀
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Thank you to everyone to has supported the podcast. Please leave a review on iTunes as it helps me spread the word and reach more people. Feel free to send me a DM and share your thoughts, or how the podcast has helped you. Also, if you have ideas for topics you would like me to dive deeper into, let me know. Leave a comment or shoot me a DM. ⁠⠀⠀
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28/12/2019

First episode is live!

Also available on Spotify, search: insights into a soul

Welcome to the first episode! I know the title seems morbid, but trust me, there is a point to it. On this episode I fill everyone in on what has been going on with life that has lead me to this point. I also issue a challenge to all of my listeners as we go in to a new year and a new decade. Let's....

27/12/2019

Episode 00 is live!

Welcome to Insights Into A Soul. This is a personal project that has been put on my heart to create. As some of you know i recently separated from my wife of 13 years. With that comes a lot of emotions and introspection, so I felt that this was a ...

27/12/2019

What in the world is this podcast about?

27/12/2019

🎙🚨 Exciting announcement! 🚨🎙 I am launching my new podcast Insights Into A Soul, the podcast that no one asked for!
As some of you know I am going through a major life change, I recently separated from my wife of 13 years and with that comes a lot of emotions and introspection. This podcast is, in a way, is my personal therapy and a way to work through that, but at the same time it will be a fun podcast.

On this podcast I will talk about life, love, hobbies, work and everything in between. I will explore the souls of friends and colleagues and find out what drives them? What speaks to them? What are you going through in this chapter of your life? We are all on this journey together and we experience it in such varying ways. Everyone has a story to tell, so it's time to tell our stories and gain insights into a soul.

If you’d like to join me, shoot me a DM.

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