16/12/2023
I laid you down tonight and your eyes were heavy and you drifted off. Fifteen minutes later you started that scared cry. The cry that means I need you mama. I came in swept you up into my arms and held you tight. You calmed down instantly once you felt my touch. We sat for almost 45 minutes before your eyes started to doze off. You re-situated yourself and turned your belly to mine, put your head on my heart and your eyes locked mine until they drifted slowly. I couldn't see your whole face. The closet light lit up your profile. I stared at every detail. Your button nose, your lips that I see myself in, your long eyelashes, your wispy hair. I felt your heavy breath and watched your chest go up and down. As much as I wanted to unwind and have a little me time… I stayed just a little longer tonight to soak you in. I blinked and you aren't that tiny baby laying on my chest. I blinked and you now fill my entire lap and chest. I'm just not ready to blink again.