03/09/2025
I’ve been through things that would make so many women jaded.
My SA perpetrator wasn’t just a family member — he was my childhood hero. Someone I looked up to forever. Someone I truly thought was one of my closest people.
After it happened, I didn’t just have to go get
the r * p e kit…
I had to — rethink my whole sense of our relationship.
I had to rethink my place in my family.
In the world.
My divorce wasn’t just a break up — it was a cataclysmic break with my whole identity.
I suddenly had to give up the identity of the good girl, and I realized just how much I had staked on it.
My miscarriage was a heartbreak so much bigger than both of those.
I couldn’t believe how it felt.
𝐈𝐭 𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥 𝐞𝐟𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲 𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭.
It took so much work to 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 love men,
to open to physical 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐜𝐲,
to 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 in love,
to know I was 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐲 of it,
and to decide that none of those things had to mean I wasn’t cut out for the life I was craving.
𝐂𝐨𝐳𝐲, 𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭, 𝐬𝐚𝐟𝐞, 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝.
I don’t know if I could ever fully share just how… much it took.
How much it cost,
including literally,
hiring coaches and doing healing and going on retreats and endless therapy and all the time crying in cafés pouring over my journal.
The journal budget, my god. 😂
But what I do know is that—𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐡 𝐢𝐭.
I think it is utterly delightful that there are coaches out here teaching ✨manifesting✨ who’ve had nothing but a beautiful and easy path through life — I’m so glad. I want that for more people.
But don’t accidentally mistake us.
This daily life… where I’m… crying with gratitude.
Literally I can’t believe I get to be this human’s mother.
This man’s wife.
This business’ CEO
and this vision’s steward.
I feel so blessed. I know it looks like it’s perfect and the truth is? It honestly is. Like, of course I have hard moments, crying or overwhelmed or panicked at a new parenting moment or frustrated at kajabi
but it is just…
Nothing.
Compared to how lucky I feel and how hard the past was.
I brought this energy of grace and gratitude into my 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞.
It’s a HUGE reason why we are thriving.
𝐌𝐲 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧
𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧.
It’s available to you.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
