28/10/2022
I haven’t been on here in a while. I’ve been working on myself, but I wanted to share this with you all.
So, I was reading through an old journal I have where I would write to God. I got to a part in my journey where I was focusing on healing. During this season, I was down bad.
I was angry, hurt, filled with disappointment, confused, had feelings of rejection, bitter, harbored unforgiveness, hatred, and just utterly broken. I was exhausted and I needed a change.
I said to God, ”I just want to heal, I don’t like this place that I’m in. I don’t like this version of me. I want to heal, but how?”
Without hesitation God spoke, he’d given me steps and requirements that on the surface seemed easy, but the work required was much more:
•Cost of Healing: Intentionality- Being intentional about sitting at my Father’s feet where I cast my cares, but also allowing him to show me myself-the good, the bad, the grimy. It wasn’t pretty and we had a lot of work to do. Some of my brokenness wasn’t always because of people, it was some things I caused in my own life. God had to deal with me and I had to take responsibility for that.
•Root of Healing: I had to forgive myself for hurting me and forgive others who hurt me and realize I allowed or gave some of those people permission to hurt me. I made the decision ignore God when he was speaking to me concerning things/ppl and honored disobedience when I was required to obey him.
•Fruit of Love: In order to heal, I had to learn to love. Allow God to love me and learn to love him and ppl unconditionally.
I’m still taking leaps and bounds during this healing process and I’m definitely not where I was when I first started this journey with God. I have grown tremendously and God never ceases to amaze me.
If you’re a broken mess, ask God give you strategies towards mending. You don’t have to stay broken. You just can’t be lazy in the process. Work is required. It will cost you something.