18/05/2021
I’ve always been the high-functioning type:
High-functioning anxiety disorder✅
High-functioning chronic pain disorder✅
High-functioing depression ✅
I expect my mind & body to do the same things that everyone else around me is doing.
I try to operate at the same level & for the most part I don’t have a problem...
Except for when my brain has had enough.
Like an over-worked muscle it becomes fatigued and sore. It gets tired of putting up with “stimuli” 😂
When that happens I know I need to smoke w**d & rest.
But it’s hard for me to allow myself these things without feeling guilty because I get the feeling that...
“I should be doing something productive right now.”
The high-functioning part of me has no compassion for the invisible brain damage and mental illness that lives here...
It wants results.
It wants action.
It wants to be competitive.
But these things cannot be achieved without first giving back to the body that moves everything forward.
Everyone knows you can’t drive to the grocery store with an empty gas tank!
Just like I can’t knowingly leave my house for several hours without smoking first.
I will soon find that my tank is already empty and I’ll be stuck!
So add a nap to your list of high-functioning activities if you need to.
Or function high if you have to. 😉
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