06/12/2021
I’ve had this on my heart for a while now and decided to share it with you all this morning. The most toxic people in this world are those who choose to mistake kindness for weakness. People fear what they don’t understand, and toxic people don’t understand acts of kindness without a personal agenda, and often people who value kindness end up broken. If this hits home for you, you probably feel like you’re a burden to the world. Narcissists are intensely drawn to these genuine people as they are easy targets, and they just KNOW somewhere deep down there’s a hidden agenda behind the kindness, and they’ll pick apart everything you do. My choice not to talk about mental health related subjects anymore is because I ended up being a bottomless pit for everyone but myself, and the second the veil came down and I opened up about pain in my life, people who once begged for my attention; help, advice, friendship, or wanted to leach from my community became condescending, rude, and completely dropped me because I was no longer or value to them. You find out that an overwhelming amount of people are ugly as sin on the inside. For someone who values kindness and wishes to do good without expectations, it is very difficult to recognize this in people until it becomes glaring. The world is a beautiful place and there are incredible people from all walks of my life, but in today’s world, people are vile and they feed off good natured people.
If the shoe fits, wear it. I’m talking directly to you and im glad it triggered you.
Protect your hearts people. A friend to everyone is an enemy to himself, and my heart aches for anyone who is moved by that quote. It’s a feeling that can shake your very foundation if you do not have the correct confidence and conviction in what you do.
Becoming more selfish and prioritizing myself has personally been a challenge for me, and it can make life a very lonely journey. For anyone struggling with battles people know nothing about, you have my sincere commitment to be a friendly ear without judgement, without advice, and with love.
As always, do not ever to up despite how dark or a place you might be in your life. There is always hope for you, despite your conviction based off experiences.