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28/08/2023

This is a summoning ritual for bots in the comments from what I've seen💀

food stamps
ebt
marriage
divorce
counseling
therapy
hacked Account
account Recovery
cashapp
need cash
work from home
credit
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snapchat locked
account hacked
for rent
mushrooms
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28/08/2023

28/08/2023

Amon amarth

27/08/2023

Seven inches of satanic panic.

Seeing ghost tonight. ❤️

25/08/2023

To add another strike to my mental health decline, I just found out what our managers got for a bonus compared to what we got. (Keep in mind, they do nothing but stand on a computer in a warehouse barking orders at us to work our back breaking jobs faster)
We got $500 taxed to $300.
They got $15,000 taxed to $10,000
The operations managers got $100,000
I can imagine what our new ass hole overall manager got..
I'm fu***ng spiraling.
F**k them and this job.
I hate it's my only option to get s**t on this much.

25/08/2023

Almost every symptom of fibromyalgia is what I am experiencing and what I told the nurse practitioner, and she said it wasn't what I was describing. 🙃

25/08/2023

Honestly, that was just my last fu***ng straw.
I thought I found a doctor that was going to take my concerns and pains and questions about mental health deviously. I even documented some things that were happening for her.
To be told I was had health anxiety due to my family having bad health.
And that I was making it up and imagining it and I needed zoloft. Like wtf
I literally just told her people in my life saying I'm not hurting broke me, and she did it to my face and made me cry 3 times with no apology.
So Honestly f**k it.
I'm done.
Time to try cry in the work bathroom for 30 minutes so my partner doesn't see me and tell you I told you so.
So I'm done.
F**k my life.
After this music festival vacation
I might just give the f**k up.

24/08/2023

Idk if it's my mental illness, the alcohol, or it's actually justified, but I am 100% pi**ed off / hurt.

But while playing online games with some friends and my partner. They were all collectively asking each other their top 5 anime while taking turns. I got excited and was writing out my list to share. They did everyone but me then asked about each other's favorite manga. So while trying not to cry where they could hear, I just quietly logged off and said I was sleepy.

Idk it just hurt me and made me feel even more irrelevant than I already feel all the time.

24/08/2023

Alcohol and among us and coloring all at the same time 🤣

24/08/2023

Playing among us online with friends practicing my gaslighting. Lol

24/08/2023

Self care day lol
Not the condoms in the back ground 🤣

23/08/2023

This was the best concert I've been too honestly. It was Knocked Loose in a venue that is the size of a small apartment. For people who go to shows like this you know how fun and crazy it is. The shakiness is due to the crowd and me being completely drunk singing along. (They are my favorite band)

But fast forward around 1:30 you'll see me eat s**t and scream lol.
They said make the front to the back a pit and that they did 😅

23/08/2023

The vet just called and said the tumor under yuukis armpit was a mast cell cancer tumor. The oncologist said they got it all out, and that it was low grade so it shouldn't come back in that area
But from now on since her body is making mast cell cancer we have to keep a watch for any lumps for tje rest of her life, and get them removed as soon as they show up

23/08/2023

Actual footage of me playing magic and Yugioh

22/08/2023

She's perfect omg
Also I may or may not be save scumming. Lol
I have anxiety.

22/08/2023

I've been so overworked the past three days at work that my body feels like it is coming down from a panic attack. I can't even stay awake (so sleepy like I took too much benadryl or something you feel it in your eyes) I don't think that's normal or just shows how much I've been in a fight or flight response for so long.

20/08/2023

This is how you know work murdered you yesterday and you are dead inside. It is 4 am btw lol

18/08/2023

I know everything is different for everyone but please other mentally ill baddies can you tell me what you are diagnosed with and what medication helped you.

I need meds bad but I don't want sexual side effects and weight gain like the others did for me.
Zoloft, citalopram, lamictal, and wellbutrin did not work for me.

a safe place to rant and relate to fellow rage/sad posters with mental illness
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18/08/2023

Girl, we would all be "tatted up" too if we let a guy who tattoos from his house on a dirty couch tattoo us. It's not a flex that you have tattoos that look like I could get them if I did a prison sentence. It's not the flex that you think it is.

18/08/2023

gaslight, GATEKEEP, girlboss 💅

18/08/2023

Mommy
Saw Honey Revenge the other day. Caught the set list paper she threw. ❤️ fangirled.

17/08/2023

Bought Baldurs Gate. 🖤

17/08/2023

When something happens that sends you back into a pstd flashback / panic attack so you just use all that manic energy to clean your house in 1 hour. 🙃

16/08/2023

She has to wear a cone and be watched for 2 weeks. She can't be hyper. They are going to send off the big mass on her back, and her armpit , to see if it was anything. The suspected mast cell in her armpit went down with the prednisone and and benadryl which means it most likely was but there is a chance it was in remission. We have to check her all the time for lumps now. I'm so nervous and worried about her.

15/08/2023

Jokes on him. I flipped that card and destroyed his dark magician and took out his life points.

(He is wayyyyy better than me and was 100 % letting me win and learn how to strategically use things)

12/08/2023

Sorry this is so long. I'm really going through it right now.

So just to make my life even better right now 🙄my mom (a very mentally ill abusive narcissist) tricked her therapist to take her off all of her medicine that help keep her mania, violent psychosis episodes that last for half a year. And I've been noticing her acting out again and just found out about the medication by my abused dad. He is one of her victims and he loves her too much to believe when anything bad is happening even when she is physically hurting him.
I live next to them with my grandmother (not a good home either, she is abusive and takes my money) and my moms delusions make her shoot at us, our cars, Get naked, fight my grandmother.

So I am going to have to run away and quite literally live out of my car because I can't afford any other place and can't get into a place fast enough. Me and my 5 dogs. Because I cannot mentally witness this mess again.

Dealing with it for a whole year, fearing for my life daily. Having to fight off my mom , my mom taking my sister on joy rides to try to wreck and die with her, taking pepples mail b3cause she owned the city, totalling 2 cars that they could not afford to loose. Punching my dad in the face. Never sleeping. Knocking through windows,

After living in the flight or fright mpde for so long I have ptsd, severe panic attacks, my body is wrecked, nerve damage chronic pain.

I cannot.deal with this again..

12/08/2023

Nothing feels as nerve wrecking as being followed home from work by a state trooper. 😩

12/08/2023

I know you're not supposed to mix melatonin with alchohol, but I have to wake up at 4 am for work and I have insomnia. 🥺

12/08/2023

My body hates me for going to too many concerts 😪 🙃

09/08/2023

Is he trying to tell me something? 👀

09/08/2023

My chronic pain is so bad right now, I guess due to all the stress I'm under.
And my job does not help.
The guy who usually unloads the trucks filled to the brim with items (some so heavy, way above my head) did not come in. So the usual lazy people didn't want to do it, and kept asking who was going to do it while rolling their eyes.
I volunteered cause it was that or snap at them (plus our job has been looking for reasons to fire people and sadly it's the only thing barely keeping me afloat financially)
I unloaded the truck by myself. But not even 1 thank you or good job.
But when lazy employees do one different thing they get praised.
It hurt, and made me feel even more irrelevant.
(OH and I had a knee brace on because my knee dislocated the day before and had to be prescribed pain pills) and they still made me do the truck.

I'm in so much pain.
I still have burst blood vessels all throughout my arms.
I hurt the shoulder I have previously tore.

All because these lazy ass redneck cis men were too lazy to unload a trailer.

05/08/2023

I made this page to try to make OC memes and make some new friends because I have none, but I cannot even put my mental illness to the side long enough to try. 🥺
Just know that any react or comment you've made to me means something. And makes me feel just a tiny bit like I belong to some sort of group. Because in my immediate life I do not have that.
Thank you.

03/08/2023

I've been dissociating so hard lately. In the middle of conversations even. People at work are called me weird for it. I have a bad feeling that they could be absent seizures because it's different than any dissociation I've ever done. And people will scream at me to come back. No one tries to listen or believe me and I'm worried.

Or maybe it's all this stress with my dog and life right now. But I'm not sure. Just a little sad and scared.

31/07/2023

Please share for exposure
Cashapp is $fjtj76
I'm asking everyone for any assistance. Even if it's $2 I'll appreciate it.
I can pm vet bills to prove if needed.
This is my baby
It's going to be $550 in two weeks for surgery. I had to pay $150 today, that was all I had. I'm so upset. They think it could be a mast cell, but are hoping somehow it's not. She has 3 suspicious lumps, and they are getting removed and sent off. I'm worried because of its a mast cell if it's progressed further they life expectancy is less than a year. This is my child. This is no joke to me. I will die without her. I'm spiraling.

I have to give her prednisone, benadryl, and pepcid up until the surgery. So she doesn't go into anaphylaxtic shock or something. I'm so worried.
I'm trying to beg people around me for money.
Trying to sell my oculus I couldn't use to getting sick.
I'm so stressed.

31/07/2023

Well the vet said it looked suspiciously like a mast cell tumor under her armpit, and took her back. I'm trying not to cry till he comes back in and says. I was hoping he'd say it was fine instantly. 😢

29/07/2023

The cyst got smaller over night and still looks bad. I just looked this up. I am freaking out. It looks just like this on her