10/09/2023
Hello my dears and welcome to my first episode
of my podcast "The Hardest Fight".
It's time and I just want to introduce myself in this episode.
introduce myself to you in this episode.
I want to give you a little insight into what the podcast is about and why I made it.
And we'll start with me first. My name is Christin.
I'm 38 years old and I've been suffering from depression, PTSD and depression for eight years depression, PTSD and anxiety disorders.
And before I start telling you what to expect in the podcast,
a quick trigger warning.
It's going to be about issues like death, it's going to be about su***de
and self-harm, mental illness in general.
in general.
I'm going to try as hard as I can to discuss the topics
topics in such a way that they receive as few trigger points as possible.
However, before the respective episodes, I will also issue a separate
a trigger warning.
That is personally or in the video itself on YouTube.
And so that you can easily decide
if you want to listen to the episode or if you want to skip it and
if you want to skip it and maybe,
if you feel up to it,
listen to it later. That's totally up to you guys.
I'm not mad if you skip an episode either.
I want you to be fine and I promise you,
and I promise you it will get easier in the next episodes.
As just announced, I just want to tell you briefly,
what the podcast is about.
My mother committed su***de eight years ago.
I'll tell you about the time when she was in a very bad way...
until the day she was no longer with us.
I will tell you how this loss of my mother came about
of my mother and I will take you through that time,
until she passed away.
How I experienced the time, what I went through,
how I experienced everything, what I felt, what I thought.
So completely all the ups and downs.
How I dealt with it and what supported me or who supported me through it.
We'll talk about guilt, talk about the illnesses themselves.
I'm going to highlight them briefly and I'm going to say:
What symptoms did I have and just talk about my own experience.
speak.
That is, I will never talk about scientific
medical things.
Therefore, everything that I say here is based on my own experience,
is based on my own experience.
We are talking about my time with my psychologist and
we talk about the search for a stay in the clinic,
which was a little difficult at the time.
It will be about suicidal ideation, about self-injury
and self-punishment, and social isolation.
and I'll also tell you about the alternative ways I've found
I have found to simply relax and find some peace.
and to find some peace.
Furthermore I will tell you about later on, how my professional life, my relationship and the way my relatives of my relatives towards me have shaped the time for me.
And last but not least a few sentences about why I created this podcast,
why I decided to make and record it.
and record it.
I want to reach people who have been in similar situations
or are currently in similar situations.
And I would like to show that the road can be long and hard
and will be, but that there is also hope for improvement.
And I want to share my personal experiences with you,
how I managed to feel better again.
Because be sure, even if it feels like it.
And I have also felt that way myself.
But you are not alone, neither with this nor with similar strokes of fate.
with similar strokes of fate or even with mental illness.
There are many people who suffer for the same reasons or for other reasons. for the same reasons or for other reasons.
And I personally have met people both on the Internet
as well as in real life at my place,
who I didn't expect to have mental health problems.
Nobody has seen it with me either
and no one noticed it in my case either.
And even when I then confided in people,
they didn't believe me.
That means that in general it will not only be about this su***de of my mother, but it will be about coping with mental illness in general.
and how I can shape my life in such a way that I can at least live a full
I can at least lead a full life and have nice moments again and enjoy them.
and also enjoy them.
Because that's the most important thing. Even though there may be ups and downs from time to time and lows, but that most of the time of the day or the week or the month is on a positive level. Are on a positive level.
And that's what many, many episodes will be about.
Since very excited about it and that I can also help you a little bit with this podcast, a little bit a little help, a little courage can give.
Because if I had one wish since my mother died, then it was that I wanted,
that other people don't suffer as much and not suffer as long as I did.
And there was a wish right there. I want to do something that helps other people, to get out of psychological problems, no matter what they look like.
But more about that in the next episodes.
