Brave to The Bone

16/04/2024

When you call your son and he just says “ the night before last I played upstairs at the Catalyst”- and your like Whhhaaattt. 🤯😱😶‍🌫️
And you didn’t think to tell your mom!
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My child is Fire. Oh and he took this pic. Because he is FIRE!!🔥

26/02/2024

Keeping Keys -2-26-24”

I didn’t know life would be about keeping keys.

I thought All doors should remain open,

Until I discovered my own inner garden.

I am becoming the girl that has the only key to this place.

A secret place full of Sunshine and dew drops,

Textures of rich thread counts sewn by all the women I have been.

The one’s who tried so hard, for so long. They did do a good job.

I lay there on textiles of my history and listen to the answers in the resonance of vibration only a

Wind chime from home can sing. Answering questions I used to ask -”where is home, will I always have a home?”

It is here I get to smile at flutes sometimes played out of one nostril from an old friend.

The curly hair from my best friend who still has more sparkles in his eyes then i’ll ever carry.

Still a phenomenon beyond my understanding.

I used to share the keys. People dressed in familiar clothes peaked in, pushed in, played in. I did my best to moderate. But sometimes I fail.

I once returned to my inner garden to find the gate had been bent,

a new garden bed that was barely sprouting clover was stomped flat.

The new bees vibrating with life just left the hive I painted.

There is no more queen here.

I am becoming a woman who changes the locks.

Who redefines the property lines.

My garden is a sacred place. A place I must work hard in.

There is pruning to be done.

Prayers to be said

Ruminating thoughts to be redirected.

New Garden beds to be dug out of rock hard old soil.

Planting mung beans and new mantras.

02/02/2024

Yes we did it! Matching Sister tattoos! ❤️❤️❤️

30/10/2023

In Vermont we need a warmer dog bed. ❤️

28/09/2023

It takes a collective to change the World. We closed September Retreats at Eleusinia Retreat tonight. It is stunningly beautiful what a community can do with the gravity of HOPE, the warmth of LOVE, and Mexico wrapped around you like a familial blanket.
❤️🍄💚🐸
A job well done is not without a long hours of flight time, at least a few daily tears. Many hugs, sore feet, long hours, holding people’s hands, lots of encouragement, teaching empowerment with psilocybin, working through the scary stuff. And listening. Listening forever…Being with long silences, beautiful music and lots of poetry. And a team that can make it through insurmountable challenges. I am so grateful to be of service in this way. I am so Grateful to my family who support me living and teaching an extraordinary life.

07/09/2023

Yep…

21/07/2023

So much Peace here in this absolutely perfect lake. I am so stunned and grateful. “My great hope is to laugh as much as I cry; to get my work done and love. ❤️

18/07/2023

Just posted on Eleusinia’s page 🌿 Meet Tawnya, Our Medical Coordinator! 🏥✨

Introducing the radiant face behind the scenes at Eleusinia! Say hello to Tawnya, our skilled RN CCRN and dedicated Medical Coordinator. 🩺🌟 Her expertise ensures your safety and well-being during your transformative journey.

Tawnya's warm smile is an integral part of the Eleusinia experience, making you feel right at home from the moment you arrive. Her compassionate care and reassuring presence add an extra layer of comfort to your stay. 😊❤️

So, when you visit Eleusinia, know that you're in excellent hands with Tawnya by your side, ensuring your health and happiness throughout your unforgettable stay.

29/06/2023

California days

10/06/2023

May the seed become a tree.
May the egg become a bird.
May the silence become singing.
May life becomes a miracle.
May the strength to overcome any obstacle.
May the difficulty serve us to fly higher.
May every experience become a gift.
Let Art be medicine for every human being.
Let nature be the flag of every wise man.
May every sunrise be what it is, a spectacle.
May they all find their forgotten spirit.
May the earth become the dream.
Arnau De Tera

05/06/2023

Back to work. Medical Coordinator for Eleusinia Retreats- let’s get ready to Macro dose.

29/05/2023

This episode will resonate deeply for christians trying to recreate a meaningful faith while accessing the use psilocybin as a tool for healing. Kim embarked on a transformative journey by attending Eleusinia Retreat. Over the course of two visits, separated by approximately a year, she experienced profound personal growth. During this period, Kim managed to rediscover and in her words, "rebuild" her faith as a devout Christian while navigating the challenges of her depression. Her path ultimately led her to a life with more love and a deeper acceptance for who she is as well as her God . Tune in to hear Kim's inspiring story of triumph and renewal.

28/05/2023

This episode will resonate deeply for christians trying to recreate a meaningful faith while accessing the use psilocybin as a tool for healing. Kim embarked on a transformative journey by attending Eleusinia Retreat. Over the course of two visits, separated by approximately a year, she experienced profound personal growth. During this period, Kim managed to rediscover and in her words, "rebuild" her faith as a devout Christian while navigating the challenges of her depression. Her path ultimately led her to a life with more love and a deeper acceptance for who she is as well as her God . Tune in to hear Kim's inspiring story of triumph and renewal. --

28/05/2023

24/05/2023

Advice from Maria Sabina, Mexican healer and poet

“Heal yourself with sunlight and moonlight. With the sound of the river and waterfall. With the roar of the sea and the flutter of birds.

Heal yourself with mint, neem and eucalyptus.

Sweeten with lavender, rosemary and chamomile.

Snuggle up with the cocoa grain and a hint of cinnamon.

Put love in tea instead of sugar and take it looking at the stars.

Heal yourself with the kisses from the wind and the hugs from the rain.

Stand strong with bare feet on the earth and with all that comes from it.

Be smarter every day by listening to your intuition, looking at the world with the eye of your forehead.

Jump, dance, sing, to live happier.

Heal yourself, with beautiful love, and always remember.. you are the medicine."

23/05/2023

I spoke to my Mentor yesterday, and we spoke about the long game…..
I keep feeling like even though people would ceaselessly tell me while my children were growing up “Hold on to it, they grow up so fast.”
It would fall upon deaf ears because all I knew was that I was doing the best I could.
I remember them now as voices so flat they were crippled, incapacitated with no socially acceptable way of sharing the truth in colored richness of the extent of their grief.
What I needed was much more than empty words that fell upon me by strangers like common pricks of rain.
I wish someone had dunk my head in a bucket of ice water…
I wish I had been kidnapped for a day.
Tied to a chair..
That some wild eyed passionate woman whose children had grown would have ranted at me for hours, would have poured her truth out, in shouts and sobs, about what a shock it is when those babies grow up, as if no one told you it would happen.
How the earth shakes a little when they turn around and leave you in the dust.
and that my friend, the dust in your eyes in your mouth…is the very best you could hope for.
I wish I could have met a wailing honest woman.
I wish I gripped the chair I was tied to so tightly you could still see the imprints of plastic. I wish I could have felt it enough to cry with her. But wild women only showed up as me.
And now I am her. But in my way the way of a woman of 40.

13/05/2023

Eleusinia Retreat 🌅💜❤️

22/02/2023

Valle De Bravo Buddhist temple celebration ❤️🌸🫶🏽🥰

14/02/2023

On Valentine’s Day I woke up thinking about the false phrase that leaves so many people feeling hopeless in this life. “ we come into this world alone and then we die alone.”
As a reminder your mother carried 30% more blood volume just to support you in her body for 10 months. Her heart stretched to accommodate her new body permanently changed. What she ate, what she felt, where she went you went. one day your mother had a day that will remain her top rated suffering days. The day you were born. It was 24 hours of suffering if she was lucky. Some of us part with are mothers after birth, but we are still not brought into the world alone. Albeit a messy and sometimes Sh*tty process, we are not alone.
We hear stories especially as nurses of people getting close to dying and seeing their relatives whom have passed before there to greet them. They too are not alone. If you do not believe in that.
Believe in the persons hand you are holding as you do go. Believe in your nurse or the family around you.
That is real. And you are not alone. People hate Valentine’s Day. If we are lucky we live lives where people will suffer when we leave this life. If we are lucky some hearts will feel deeply heavy. We are here for each other. That’s about as simple as it gets. Happy Valentine’s Day.
Remember your not alone and give someone a hug, remind them about what we so easily forget.

06/12/2022

I’ve gone down a rabbit hole with the time space continuum. I literally can’t stop thinking about it. Lol so play along if you find this interesting.
Especially around the phrase:
“Everything Happens for a Reason.” Because time is experienced by us, as an arrow going forward in a linear experience. There will always,
and inevitably be a point in time that we understand that this happened, because that happened. The sun rose this morning because last night it set. And being human We shape things into meaningful stories that our minds and hearts can digest and store away. So the question “does everything happen for a reason?” Is not a question at all. Of course it does because time exists. One moment stacked on the exhale of the very next. Your life is unfolding beautifully. Every story can be an extraordinary one as long as one single moment along the path there was something profound. The beautiful thing is profundity is up to you. 🥰💗❤️

08/11/2022

Yoga day with my Mom and daughter in San Pancho. 3 generations of strong!

10/10/2022

“out here in the Real World, WE Like “ Real” people”
I’m rereading Glennon Doyle’s book Untamed. And this quote hit me again. “REAL PEOPLE”. People who share everything- because We are human. Because that’s how we make life okay. Because my imperfections are what make YOU feel okay And that is Totally FIRE.💥🎆🔥🔥🔥
I am a Badass but…. I also cried over my pasta dinner tonight. After holding it all together as I made the biggest move of my life… a SUPER PUSH to get it all done…And as I await Jason as he hits delay after delay getting to Bella and I, driving across Mexico..I leave for Toluca on Wednesday and if he doesn’t get here we will have new challenges. 🫣
Today I walked for 2 miles trying to find cat litter and the only Spanish I learned was Arene Para Gato. What’s badass is I finally found the damn cat litter. What’s badass is I got hooked up with a rad place for 35$ USD a night. What’s badAss is that Bella is ok. And this cat!!
But did I want my pasta to know how alone and tired and scared I felt? Why yes. I did. And my pasta listened And I made it through. Because It’s ok to feel everything ❤️❤️❤️👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 and even when things are Wonderful it’s ok to feel scared overwhelmed and totally alone. But I am psyched for tomorrow and every day that comes. One day at a time.

18/09/2022

Saying goodbye to my sweet best friend as I prepare to fly to Valle de Bravo tomorrow. I’m just gone for 7 days this trip but it will be hard just the same. ❤️

12/09/2022

Do not miss this incredible episode Taylor Selé is a former NFL athlete and current Actor. Today he tells his story and process with psilocybin. Full episode link in bio

12/09/2022

We are so excited to share this next episode with Taylor Selè former NFL athlete and current incredible actor. I hope this story touches the lives of many. ❤️❤️❤️ full episode link in bio

23/08/2022

Do not miss this incredible episode! Depression Anxiety and Chronic pain a personal story from a guest at Eleusinia.

31/07/2022

Don’t miss this amazing episode full link in bio. Suzy tells her amazing story of working with psilocybin for grief yet discovering so much more