11/02/2022
I don't often talk about this anymore as I'm in Recovery, but calories still haunt me on bad days, I still no what calories are in each item the difference is now is that on the good days Ed does not win I eat it and enjoy myself no matter what. however when I see my friends or I see posts commenting on calories or my fitness pal I feel obligated to remind them of the dangers. it can control your mind , take over your whole body. I starved my body for almost 3years lost over 4stone in weight, my hair was falling out in clumps, my heart was in trouble. I was calapsing, I hated my family, it pulled me away from my amazing family even though they were looking after me all I saw was eating disorder.
please think is that worth it???
I'm relieved to say I have amazing relationship with my family again ❤, yes I have got all the weight back on but now I'm loosing it in a healthy way. and yes each day is a battle my eating disorder will never be completely gone, I have days when I struggle to eat, but now I have the therapy and tools.
please think before you reach for the My fitness pal app or the back of the calories on a packet.
