20/11/2024
6 years ago life changed forever.
I have never been the same since this day.
As I sit here and write this today. I have so much gratitude, my heart is full of love not sorrow.
‘Time will Heal’
This phrase was said to me over and over again when my dad passed away on the 20th of November 2018.
I understood this and I didn’t understand this.
And now I do!
Time has healed in so many ways I could have not imagined.
My dad’s passing was something that changed my life forever.
Now I can freely speak about it with so much resilience.
I had just turned 44, sitting in palliative care with him for 2 months knowing that every day was only one more day with him before he would pass and he knew this too.
I remember he would always ask me every evening when I would leave there to come back the next day, he did not want to be alone even in the last moments of his life.
The conversations I had with him were the most potent conversations about life, religion, dreams, achievements and the regrets he actually had with things he just never got around to do.
Why because he was in fear a lot of his life he did not have the tools I have now to move through these fears.
My dad’s passing changed me, it woke me up to how I was living, thinking and breathing. It gave me the time to slow down and start living more intentionally to find myself again.
It’s taken time.��I have changed. I have healed.
I have had a rebirth and found myself again.
I dived deep into personal growth it kind of found me and I was calling it in.
I found peace here. I found comfort in death.
Found my truth of who I am, what I stand for and how I want to live. ��And there is still more work to do, I don’t think it will ever end.
If my dad didn’t pass I would not have my awakening, not searching for a new way to live and breathe life.
Thank you Dad forever grateful x
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