10/10/2025
I have been chronically ill for as long as I can remember, and my weight has fluctuated drastically due to the medications I take. At my heaviest, I’ve been 70kg, and at my healthiest, 49kg. For context, I’m 158cm (5’2”). Anything above 55kg tends to trigger a relapse of my Non-Alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease. Carrying extra weight also affects my joints, as I’m hypermobile and struggle with bone density, strength, and stability.
I’ve battled with my weight my entire life. As a child, I was borderline anorexic and an extremely picky eater. Then, in my teens and early twenties, I gained a lot of weight due to binge eating — a coping mechanism for PTSD and depression. Pregnancy brought even more weight fluctuations, followed by excessive postpartum weight loss. My digestive system has always been sensitive, and over the years I’ve tried every diet imaginable — lactose-free, gluten-free, FODMAP, keto, and more. It’s been incredibly exhausting.
The hardest part, however, has been dealing with other people’s comments. No matter my size, someone always has something to say — and it hurts every time. But I’m done letting that control me. I’m reclaiming my confidence and my health. I want to feel good in my body whether I’m bloated or not, whether I’m a size up or down. I want to eat to nourish my body, not punish it. I want to build strength, balance, and a lifestyle that supports both my physical and mental well-being.
I hope my story encourages you to believe in yourself, embrace change, and find self-acceptance. Let’s tune out the negativity, focus on kindness, and continue showing up for ourselves — no matter what. 💛