Untold stories

27/08/2023

“You don’t understand how it feels staying in one room with all these people who love you but never liked me for you. You don’t understand how time runs at a slow pace
whenever I am surrounded by people who have constant wonders what was it that you found in me. They always said you were better without me. They always said I am the smudges to your reputation. They said I am far from ideal, another less-than-stellar.

You are way too high for my reach as if you’re the star and I am just a wishful believer that’s lucky enough that you opened your doors for me.

And you know what? I told myself I should never care because you love me. I should never care about something they only know from the outward. And during the times that I wanted you to be the bigger person in this relationship, you contract. I watch you digest their judgments. I watch you embrace their opinions. I never saw you stand for us, for my defense.

You always agree. You always give silence. They always know that silence is synonymous with yes. You never give them a reason why it’s me whom you choose.

Their words matter and my pain don’t. I don’t want them to like me but I silently pray you’ll fight for me.

And you never did.
I guess you can’t. Perhaps, you’ll never be. ”

- mica meñez

27/08/2023

if a man left you without saving your relationship‚ thinking you’re just like his ex or girl out there‚ like nothing special about you and thinking that he can replace you with someone better‚ then let him go and please stop sending him a long paragraph just to make him realize your worth‚ to make him realize that he is hurting you and he just don’t love you enough to fight for you. if a man wants to keep you‚ no one can stop him even his own ego. a man who is enjoying their freedom the moment you let him go is a man who will never see your worth.

29/04/2023

“Nabasa mo na ba yung He's Into Her?“ I asked my crush—Nathan.

Yes, he's a wattpader and everyday I always ask him the same questions.

“Oo, nabasa ko na. Why?“

“Anong part yung pinaka gusto mo doon?“

“Yung sinabi ni Deib.“

“Na?“ Tanong ko sa kanya habang patuloy pa rin sa pagsusulat. Nasa classroom kasi kami ngayon.

“Do you know why a guy cry for his girl?“

“Why?“ sagot ko para kunwari ako si Maxpien tapos siya si Deib kyaaaah!

“Because He's Into Her. Do you know why I'm crying right now?“

“Because you're happy?“

“Because I'm into you.“ Nakangiting sagot niya na naging dahilan ng pagblush ko.

—

“Nabasa mo na ba yung Until Trilogy?“

“Yeah.“

“Anong part yung pinaka gusto mo doon?“

“I'm in love with you. I don't care if we break the rules, the laws, their hearts. This time, I'm giving up all my cards. I'm laying my name, risking my life on the line. I'm all on this, baby. I'm all for you." He smiled and then he walk away.

—

“Hoy! Nabasa mo na ba yung MHIAMB?“

“Yap, matagal na.“

“Anong part yung pinaka gusto mo dun?“

“You don't have to give me a baby for you to be a perfect wife, stupid. Because for me, you are more than perfect to be my wife," he said and then he winks at me.

—

“Nathan, nabasa mo na ba yung TFBBAM?“

“Yes.“ Tipid na sagot niya.

“Anong part yung pinaka gusto mo doon?“

“Yung part na sinabi ni Jeydon Lopez,“ sagot niya at tiningnan ako sa mata. “Gusto kita kahit ano pang itsura mo. Gusto kita kahit iba yung gusto mo. Gusto kita kahit paulit-ulit mo akong saktan. Gusto kita kahit ang manhid manhid mo. Gustong gusto kita na pakiramdam ko ngayon mahal na kita."

Namula naman ako sa sinabi niya kasi pakiramdam ko nag c-confess si Nathan ng nararamdaman niya para sa'kin ngayon.

“A-ahh... Gusto ko din yung 'Kapag ang badboy nag mahal pati asin lalanggamin' hehe.“

—

After a week I asked him the same questions again.

“Pst! Nabasa mo na ba yung I love you since 1892?“

“Yeah, nabasa ko na.“

“Anong part yung gusto mo doon?“

“Je taime, ich liebe ditch, te amo. Tatlong magkakaibang lenggwahe pero isa lang ang ibig sabihin nito. Mahal kita." Seryosong sagot niya sa'kin.

“Waaaaaaah! Kinikilig talaga ako sa part na yan! Pero sa lahat ng part ano yung pinaka gusto mo?“

“It's not my favorite part in ILYS 1892. Can't you see? I'm confessing my love for you at isang part lang naman yung pinaka gusto ko...“ Dahan dahan siyang lumapit sa'kin habang nakatitig pa rin sa mga mata ko. “Yun ay yung maging PARTe ng buhay mo.“ And then he kissed my forehead.

“N-Nathan...“

“I can't be your Deib Lhor na laging hinahabol ng mga puso. I can't be your Ezekiel Roswell na isang Mafia Boss. I can't be your Jeydon Lopez na isang badboy. I can't be your Juanito Alfonso na isang makisig at makatang ginoo. But I can be your living boyfriend who's willing to do everything and anything just to be with you.“

Having a boy wattpader is harder to find but lucky to have.

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