18/02/2021
I know you think that I just gave up on us, but that’s so far from the truth.
I didn’t quit trying to love you, because I will always love you,
But sometimes love isn’t enough..it takes effort too.
I quit trying to make it work with you because you weren’t willing to do what it took for us both to be happy- not just you.
I tried to compromise, meet you halfway and do my part..but it takes two people to try, to put in the work for a relationship to be successful..
And you aren’t willing to do what it takes.
So, no,
I’m not choosing to give up on us,
I’m choosing myself and my own happiness over someone who says they care but then doesn’t back it up with action.
I’m done believing the empty words.
I’ve cried so many tears and endured so many sleepless nights wanting you to just do something..anything.
I just wanted you to try.
I’m done chasing you, begging you to communicate and hope that you’ll show me that I’m worth the effort.
Sadly, you’ve shown me how much I don’t really mean to you because if I did, you would do whatever it takes to help us make it through this..
But you’re not, and I don’t think you ever will.
Maybe someone else would be okay with being an afterthought, but I’m not that person.
I deserve the best and I’m willing to work for it.
Someday, maybe, you’ll find someone that you’re willing to sacrifice for, but I doubt it..
That takes too much work.
So, before you spew angry words at me and blame me for quitting, take a good long look in the mirror.
I’ll always love you and wish you the best, but I’m done fighting for someone who won’t fight for us.
I’m going to start chasing my dreams and happiness instead ..and the thought makes me smile.
Maybe you’ll realize what we had once I’m gone, but that’s not my concern anymore.
I’m finally done..I’m all out of tears.
I choose me.
Maybe I won’t be happy quickly, but I’ll get there.
I deserve it. I’m worth it.
I’m more than enough.
One day, someone else may see that, but I’ll be fine if they don’t.
I don’t need anyone else to tell me how amazing I am.
I know just how awesome I am because I believe in myself in a way you never did.
My future starts with me..
Today.
Thank you.. for setting me free.
Now I can finally fly again..
Strong, proud and free.
|ravenwolf
