New episode on the podcast! ๐๐คฉ
My fabulous guest Tim (CEO and Cofounder of Couply, the app for Couples @couplyapp) and I talk about navigating the infamous anxious and avoidant attachment pairing, including how we've work on moving toward a more secure attachment in ourselves and our relationships. ๐
https://youtu.be/pMbDvu9axxg
We also discuss:
โข how to keep the spark going in our romantic relationships
โข what to do when our love languages arenโt aligned
โข continuing to learn new things about our partners
โข doing dates!
โข doing the individual work to bring our best selves into our relationships
โข learning to communicate transparently to deepen intimacy
๐ Get the episode 1 day early on YouTube @thesoulsworkpodcast. Catch it on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, etc. tomorrow (Wednesday).
Yes to intimacy and love with friends! ๐๐
In our episode, denise and I chat about how practicing solo polyamory (and relationship anarchy) has helped us shift from codependent tendencies to a more secure attachment with ourselves and others.
I used to center my romantic relationships above all else. It was motivated by fear: if I divert my attention and stray too far from that center, he'll stray from me in turn. As a result, I ended up wanting this one person to meet all my needs.
It's not about NOT prioritizing romantic relationships (I still do). It's about expanding where we get our needs met for love, intimacy, support, and whatever else we desire. That could be from ourselves, friends, family ancestors, nature, animals...the possibilities are perhaps more than we think!
Catch the conversation on YouTube https://youtu.be/sxREUTyUtKI or on your fave podcast player! ๐ง๐
Many thanks to denise for this nourishing conversation! ๐๐
The Soul's Work Podcast is officially live on YouTube @thesoulsworkpodcast! Be cool and subscribe, my people. ๐๐
https://youtube.com/@thesoulsworkpodcast
In my first guest episode of Season 4, denise chang talks about how chasing that "spiritual high" through catharctic experiences (like breathwork, ayahuasca, etc) can be helpful but not sustainable in healing trauma.
I couldn't agree more. And it's not because I haven't benefitted from those catharctic experiences myself. I have. But for the truly deep healing and shifts I've experienced, that would not have been enough on its own.
Catch the episode on YouTube @thesoulsworkpodcast to hear about the kind of trauma-healing work we have found to be sustainable. ๐
We also talk about reconnecting with our erotic power and practicing secure attachment through solo polyamory.
This convo was so nourishing. Expansive. Soul-awakening. Many thanks to denise for sharing their deep wisdom with us. ๐
[Subscribe to The Soul's Work Podcast on YouTube to get episodes 1 day early. Audio episode available tomorrow on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you enjoy your podcasts!]
Developing self-regulation through co-regulation in therapy
(Part 2/3) Body-mind-relational therapy approaches have also helped me develop self-regulation through co-regulation. ๐
I had very little capacity to self-regulate (manage intense feelings and emotions when they came up) for many years of my life. It's why I turned to alcohol in an attempt to calm (numb) myself when my body felt dysregulated. ๐
I had never learned, through the experience of co-regulation, when I was young how to be with my big emotions in a way that felt safe and like I was going to be okay despite feeling immense sadness, anger, etc. ๐ฅบ
I think it's very common to learn instead that feeling/expressing certain emotions parts of ourselves aren't welcome, maybe because we get yelled at or guilt-tripped for it. Maybe because the people around us feel they need to "save" us from hard moments and go into "just be positive" mode.
Working with my therapist was my first ongoing experience of being in relationship with someone who is consistently present to all of my emotions, and who consistently holds space for me and the most repressed parts of myself.
Within that space, I have never felt the pressure to fix myself or change how I feel. Instead, I have learned how to be with whatever comes up, no matter how challenging. ๐ฅฐ๐
In that way, co-regulation has been a bridge to me developing the capacity for self-regulation and to be that attuned presence for myself. And that, in turn, has helped me show up for others in a similar way โ something I know I'll learn more about in my training program! โค๏ธ
You can hear more in Part 2 of "Releasing Trauma and Changing Lifelong Patterns with Body-Mind-Relational Therapy" on The Soul's Work Podcast (available wherever you enjoy your podcasts)! ๐ง๐
Tuning into our body's wisdom
(Part 1/3) Body-mind therapy approaches have helped me to become more connected with my internal world and the wisdom it holds. ๐
I've learned so much from tuning into my physical sensations, feelings, and emotions โ and over time understanding what they mean. ๐ค
When weโre activated by something, starting from a place of body awareness can often be more informative than jumping right into the intellectual analysis of the situation. As they say: the body doesn't lie. Our mind on the other hand ... ๐
I've also practiced this turning inward to be with whatever comes up internally WITHOUT having to make any meaning of it. To just be with experience itself, however uncomfortable.
This has helped me to be more present, but also to slow down and not give into a sense of urgency when I've been activated. In this slowing down, our higher-thinking brain can then be more present to help us assess: what is actually the most nourishing path for me here?
The body and mind working together in this collaborative way is (imo) an essential part of shifting lifelong patterns that keep us stuck. ๐๐
You can hear more in Part 2 of "Releasing Trauma and Changing Lifelong Patterns with Body-Mind-Relational Therapy" on The Soul's Work Podcast (available wherever you enjoy your podcasts)! ๐ง๐
How our mind can help in healing trauma
The mind (our "higher-thinking brain") can definitely play a huge role in healing complex trauma. ๐ง
I know it may seem like I can't be bothered with thought-based healing approaches, but that's not the case at all!
I am actually highly analytical and constantly reflecting on and thinking through things in my process of healing and unlearning old patterns.
I use my mind to make sense of what's happening when I get activated, and to determine the right next steps for me.
Our left brain can also help calm down our nervous system through its ability to observe and differentiate past from present. In doing so, it's not that the traumatic experience is erased from our minds -- rather, we understand it happened in the past and is no longer happening to us in the present (which it often feels like when we're triggered).
In my next clip (before Part 2 drops!), I'll share the overall perspective that has anchored me in this mind-based healing work.
In the meantime, you can catch up with Part 1 on your fave podcast player! ๐ง๐๐
Why the mind isn't enough to heal complex trauma
With the wellness world constantly preaching about how we just need to change our mindset to alleviate the depression, anxiety (etc) we feel, it took a while for me to learn that how we feel in our bodies is also a (often more) powerful driver in reinforcing the patterns that keep us stuck in distress. ๐ค
In understanding that I needed BOTH mind- and body-based approaches to heal complex trauma and shift these lifelong patterns, I also learned that some of the healing models, practices (etc) within each are more effective than others (for me).
This is what I share about in this 2-part episode. ๐๐ง
In Part 1, I share what kinds of popular thought-based approaches in the wellness world have not been helpful (at times even harmful) for me. And the life-changing perspective that has shifted the way I approach my healing work.
In Part 2, I will share the kinds of body-based healing practices that have helped me build the strongest foundation for healing my core wounds, reducing triggers, and increasing my capacity to be with intense emotions/feelings.
Please remember that this is just my one personal experience (and that it's all a WIP), and please take care as you listen in. โค๏ธ
You can find The Soul's Work Podcast wherever you enjoy your fave podcasts! ๐๐ง๐
"Love Again" (Dua Lipa cover)
Getting back to the foundational things that feed my soul, like my first creative love. โค๏ธ
You can hear more on TikTok at: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMNYA4fn9/ ๐๐ถ
"Safe and Sound" by Taylor Swift ft. The Civil Wars (The Hunger Games)
Who else needs this right about now? โค๏ธโ๐ฉน My heart is heavy with grief for the world, but I'm healing with song (and therapy...and cake). ๐ถ๐ฐ
"Safe and Sound" by Taylor Swift ft. The Civil Wars (The Hunger Games)
Don't you dare look out your window
Darling, everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold on to this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound
"Feeling Good" (Nina Simone a capella cover)
My first stab at TikTok and a musical break to get over hump day. ๐
Singing "Feeling Good" by Nina Simone a capella. ๐ถ
Follow me on TikTok @janicehocreative! ๐คโค๏ธ
Is solo polyamory dating multiple people without commitment?
Does exclusivity = commitment to you? ๐ค
I used to be extremely fixated on exclusivity in romantic relationships. In my mind, me being "the only one" meant that I was special and loved. ๐
I'm not saying that exclusivity shouldn't matter. If it does to you, I totally get it!
But what I've come to realize through my exploration with polyamory is that while you can have exclusivity as a mutually agreed upon facet of your relationship, it is not the thing that will actively build a deep sense of intimacy, safety, and love between you and your partner. ๐
Just my opinion. โ
You can catch the rest of the episode on The Soul's Work Podcast on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, or wherever you enjoy your pods. (Don't forget to subscribe!) ๐ง๐๐
On BDSM and men exploring their submissive side
BONUS CLIP from my latest podcast episode on addressing the "intimacy recession" before my next episode on polyamory drops! ๐
And before you go picturing me with a whip in hand, BDSM can be a lot of things. So don't jump to any conclusions just yet. ๐
This episode was with my fab guest Gwendolyn Dolske @goodisinthedetailspod. Go show her some love! ๐
And, as always, listen to the episode on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you enjoy your podcasts. Enjoy! ๐ง๐คฉ๐
When sending nudes is easier than being naked IRL
As sex-crazed as we think young people are these days, did you know that they're more likely to send nude photos of themselves than actually be naked in front of each other? ๐ฏ
In my latest podcast episode ("Sex and Love: Addressing the Intimacy Recession"), my guest Gwendolyn Dolske from @goodisinthedetailspod @profdolske talks about how lack of intimacy and relationship building IRL is playing out in young people's lives.
Listen in on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you enjoy your podcasts. And don't forget to subscribe to The Soul's Work Podcast while you're there. ๐ง๐๐
"Easy On Me" (Adele Cover): Practice Session
Getting back into my voice, body, and soul with my first creative love, singing. ๐ฅฐ๐ถ
It's been a minute, but gotta do the rough practice sesh to fine-tune the machine. ๐
Totally lost the guitar playing at the end, hence the funny face. ๐คช
Let's make music!
Self-study of My Grandmother's Hands by Resmaa Menakem
It's Month 2 of the year-long study of My Grandmother's Hands by Resmaa Menakem. As mentioned in Month 1's post (Mar 3), this book helps us become more aware of our internalized racism, particularly against Black folks, and cultivate the embodied capacity to be in these conversations and take action. ๐๐
It was my first month though of doing the study with a group, so I'll save my thoughts on Chapters 3 and 4 for next month.
Experiencing the group call today really showed me how challenging it can be to do this work outside of just your own personal bubble (sitting on a beach in Costa Rica). ๐
Being with essentially strangers who I was meeting for the first time, I could sense in my body the hypervigilance, scanning for cues of safety, perfectionist tendencies, etc, come up while attempting the openness and vulnerability that's needed to be in the discomfort and complexity of this work. ๐
And also, I allowed myself to just sit in all the sticky feelings afterward and acknowledge that my impulse to want to blend in "safely" into the background, word everything I said "correctly," and come off as safe/palatable/acceptable are also outcomes of trying to navigate and survive in a white supremacist culture that advantages me conditionally.
I know this gets easier + always stays uncomfortable, as it probably should.
Just some reflections. โค๏ธ
Healing through grounded dance
Sound on ๐ to hear about how grounded dancing helped me express a part of myself that was in need of validation and healing. ๐#CantStopMeNow
On my latest podcast episode, I share about this and other somatic practices that can help us get more in touch with what our body and intuition is asking us for. ๐
In my next solo episode, I will talk about how I've done therapy with both the body and mind working together. I always say that's been the biggest game-changer for me. But doing these body-based practices can be a great way to build up a foundation for doing that oftentimes more emotionally charged work.
๐ Listen to "Healing Trauma (Part 5): Tuning Into Our Body through Somatic Practices" on The Soul's Work Podcast wherever you enjoy your podcasts. ๐ง๐๐
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Is healing trauma about acceptance?
My thoughts on a question I received in a DM: Is healing trauma about acceptance?
Again, my one personal perspective. Would love to know what yours is? ๐ค
P.S. Further to my video, sometimes we won't get the opportunity to receive the validation I talk about from the person/people who harmed us.
This can sometimes add another layer of grief we need to tend to. I know just how unfair this can feel, and I'm sorry. ๐ฅ
Also, we may remain in relationship with a person who caused harm (and may continue causing harm, whether intentionally or not). This may sometimes necessitate certain boundaries to be set, or a person might choose to walk away entirely, as part of their healing process.
Either way, a loss of some kind is usually felt, and that might be something else we need to hold. ๐
I know this process can be challenging and not so straightforward, and also it does get easier and can bring a great sense of freedom, empowerment, and yes, acceptance.
I hope that if you're in it, you have some good support around you where you are able to experience a sense of safety, validation, and being seen in all of your wonderful complexity. โค๏ธ
When trying to manifest your dream life isn't working
Sound on for this ๐ from my "Exploring Pleasure and Embodiment" episode with my guest Erica Wiederlight We The Light, LLC. ๐๐ง
What Erica says here is something I think is so key to all of this "self-development" stuff...
...which is that it's easy to sign on to all of the manifest your reality, think abundance, think positive teachings. I mean, they just seem to make sense. BUT...
...if you have unconscious blocks to feeling more confident, empowered, and, well, positive, and you're not addressing THAT sh*t too...
...it'll be like pressing on the gas and the brakes at the same time. Very ineffective if your goal is to actually move forward. ๐ฉ
Listen to more of the convo on The Soul's Work Podcast on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever podcasts are found. ๐ง๐๐