I'm calling that girl back ✨️
There are many experiences, and many people that could have and very nearly did destroy me.
Those who have thrown dirt and shade. Those who have been committed to misunderstanding or rejoiced in my failings.
Those who lied, abused, took advantage of, manipulated or gaslit.
Yet I know, I am not alone in these experiences. This could have been written about any one of you beautiful souls.
And yet, we don't often talk about it. We don't talk about how we transformed ourselves agaibst all the odds, how we put the broken pieces back together when they told us we couldn't or how we grew & blossomed from the dirt that was meant to smother us.
Perhaps you're not out the other side of it yet, perhaps you're still trying to forge a path in the dark. Perhaps you're trying to shine a light in the shadows, find meaning & purpose. And that's ok. Just know, you can find a way.
This is why I started to seek, create & share little visual love notes, of beautiful moments that helped me feel safe enough to show myself again. In the hopes they might help others.
So tonight, I share a stunner of a love note, this evenings sunset high up in the Yorkshire hills in one of my favourite spots. To the words of S.C Lourie (one of my favourite passages, that really resonates with me & the path of transformation), spoken by Christi Steyn ( christi.steyn on instagram)
The full passage is as follows:
"I started calling that girl back . . .
The girl who loved living,
the girl who danced instead of walking.
The girl who had sunflowers for eyes
and fireworks in her soul.
I started playing music again,
hoping she would come out.
I started looking for beautiful moments to experience,
so she would feel safe enough
to show herself,
because I knew she was in there.
And she needed my kindness
and my effort to come
to the surface again."
Remember your worth & keep going. All my love & blessings for your own pheonix journey, Nat x
I'm calling that girl back ✨️
There are many experiences, and many people that could have and very nearly did destroy me.
Those who have thrown dirt and shade. Those who have been committed to misunderstanding or rejoiced in my failings.
Those who lied, abused, took advantage of, manipulated or gaslit.
Yet I know, I am not alone in these experiences. This could have been written about any one of you beautiful souls.
And yet, we don't often talk about it. We don't talk about how we transformed ourselves agaibst all the odds, how we put the broken pieces back together when they told us we couldn't or how we grew & blossomed from the dirt that was meant to smother us.
Perhaps you're not out the other side of it yet, perhaps you're still trying to forge a path in the dark. Perhaps you're trying to shine a light in the shadows, find meaning & purpose. And that's ok. Just know, you can find a way.
This is why I started to seek, create & share little visual love notes, of beautiful moments that helped me feel safe enough to show myself again. In the hopes they might help others.
So tonight, I share a stunner of a love note, this evenings sunset high up in the Yorkshire hills in one of my favourite spots. To the words of S.C Lourie (one of my favourite passages, that really resonates with me & the path of transformation), spoken by Christi Steyn ( christi.steyn on instagram)
The full passage is as follows:
"I started calling that girl back . . .
The girl who loved living,
the girl who danced instead of walking.
The girl who had sunflowers for eyes
and fireworks in her soul.
I started playing music again,
hoping she would come out.
I started looking for beautiful moments to experience,
so she would feel safe enough
to show herself,
because I knew she was in there.
And she needed my kindness
and my effort to come
to the surface again."
Remember your worth & keep going. All my love & blessings for your own pheonix journey, Nat x
Same storm, different boats 🌧⛵️
It still perplexes me that some don't understand this concept 🤯
I'm pretty sure most of the folks in this community already get this though, part of the reason I love having you here and why I think you'll find this soundbite from shes.a.builder on instagram as spot on, as I did.
The take home, especially as we move through the MR shadow period: let's just be nice to each other.
You know what I mean? 🙂
Audio credits: shes.a.builder /instagram
Same storm, different boats 🌧⛵️
It still perplexes me that some don't understand this concept 🤯
I'm pretty sure most of the folks in this community already get this though, part of the reason I love having you here and why I think you'll find this soundbite from shes.a.builder on instagram as spot on, as I did.
The take home, especially as we move through the MR shadow period: let's just be nice to each other.
You know what I mean? 🙂
Audio credits: shes.a.builder /instagram
A moment of calm, in the cottage garden ✨️
#slowlivingforlife #lovenotesfromthenorth
High Summer magic is at its peak, can you see it?! ✨️
#hedgewitchlife #turningofthewheel #pheonixrising #naturetherapy
High Summer magic is at its peak, can you see it?! ✨️
#hedgewitchlife #turningofthewheel #pheonixrising #naturetherapy
Dreamy lavender fields at Cotswold Lavender ✨️😍
#naturetherapy #naturelovenotes #ApothecaryLife
Dreamy lavender fields at Cotswold Lavender ✨️😍
#naturetherapy #naturelovenotes #ApothecaryLife
May Hay Meadows update with me & Tonks 🌿💐🦋
They've grown SOOO much in the last 6 days! At knee height now, with a lot more flowers & the first flurry of butterflies.
My absolute favourite time of year, and lovely first thing in the morning to sit on the back wall with a cat & a cup of tea, and wake up slowly to the sway of the flowers. Tonks seems to enjoy it too 🐈🥰✨️
#apothecarylife #pheonixrising #natureismytherapy #lovenotesfromthenorth #hedgewitchery #hedgewitchonthehill #greenwitchlife #slowlivingforlife #offgridlife
From London balcony garden, to rural Yorkshire
14 years ago, I was living in a central London flat share with a balcony garden. My flat mate was very green thumbed, and encouraged me to be involved in the garden. I could never have imagined back then, that interest growing in the way it has.
From starting my own garden in my next home, to learning to forage, becoming guardian to a HUGE mature cottage garden, studying herbal & folklore medicine, to holidaying in remote rural places, photographing plants & landscapes, leaning into hedgewitchery, to creating my skincare business & now living here on the Yorkshire/Lancashire borders. My love of plants & nature has grown & grown with each passing year.
One of the biggest parts of chosing to move 200 miles North for a slow offgrid rural life, was to be able to step outside my front door & be in it, surrounded by it. My garden is now way beyond the boundary walls of my cottage. A constant source of delight, awe, relaxation, therapy and learning.
It hasn't always been easy, or a straight upward trajectory. I never had a master plan, it's just the culmination of one small step at a time.
Looking back, I could never have imagined that my flatmates encouragement, and a simple trip to a garden centre, could impact me so deeply and be the turning point that led me here 14 years later.
You never know where those small simple steps will lead you. So breathe. Clear your mind. And take a small step.
Credits:
🎵Space by frenchfusemusic (Instagram)
🎞 Me 😊
#apothecarylife #natureismytherapy #hedgewitchonthehill #offgridlife #slowlivingforlife #naturetherapy #greenwitchcraft
From London balcony garden, to rural Yorkshire
14 years ago, I was living in a central London flat share with a balcony garden. My flat mate was very green thumbed, and encouraged me to be involved in the garden. I could never have imagined back then, that interest growing in the way it has.
From starting my own garden in my next home, to learning to forage, becoming guardian to a HUGE mature cottage garden, studying herbal & folklore medicine, to holidaying in remote rural places, photographing plants & landscapes, leaning into hedgewitchery, to creating my skincare business & now living here on the Yorkshire/Lancashire borders. My love of plants & nature has grown & grown with each passing year.
One of the biggest parts of chosing to move 200 miles North for a slow offgrid rural life, was to be able to step outside my front door & be in it, surrounded by it. My garden is now way beyond the boundary walls of my cottage. A constant source of delight, awe, relaxation, therapy and learning.
It hasn't always been easy, or a straight upward trajectory. I never had a master plan, it's just the culmination of one small step at a time.
Looking back, I could never have imagined that my flatmates encouragement, and a simple trip to a garden centre, could impact me so deeply and be the turning point that led me here 14 years later.
You never know where those small simple steps will lead you. So breathe. Clear your mind. And take a small step.
Credits:
🎵Space by frenchfusemusic (Instagram)
🎞 Me 😊
#apothecarylife #natureismytherapy #hedgewitchonthehill #offgridlife #slowlivingforlife #naturetherapy #greenwitchcraft
