23/07/2024
It's hard to forgive. I can forgive what you did to me, but I will never forget what you put my wife and kids through on this day.
When the police called my wife and she hung up, thinking it was a prank so they had to call back, the fact that went she arrived at the ER and they handed her a sack of my clothes they cut off my body, not knowing at that time if I was alive or not. The photos they came out and news reporters that showed up to talk to her before they even knew if I was going to make it.
Waking up in ICU with my wife's head on my hospital bed and her sobbing. FU! Having Isabels birthday in my ICU recovery, not being able to focus, hold her and seeing the looks of terror on my babies faces as there daddy laid there with machines hooked up, face destroyed, barely recognizable to them. I won't forget what you did to me.
The weeks of rehab, relearning how to walk, sleeping in a hospital bed in my own house, not being able to hold my wife or my kids in my own home because my body was smashed, not even able to walk to the kids room to tuck them in because my tail bone was bust in several places, tendons in my legs and feet ripped from the bone, stitches holding my eye socket in place, all my ribs fractured.
Now, 14 years to the day, some of my major nerves still randomly lock up and cause tremendous pain, I limp every morning until I get stretched out. I have mesh covering an elbow on an arm they told me I would never use to normal but I probed them wrong. The scar tissue in my ass, my feet, my arms and hand that are a result of you running a stop sign, drunk at 5:30 in the morning and hitting me with. your s**tty ass Jeep Liberty while driving over 50 mph.
I try very hard to forgive you and not have anger in my heart, but to this day, what you did to my beautiful wife and three children, F&*K you.
My life is the best it could be, I truly am living the best life possible and I have the best friends a guy could ask for, the most fun imaginable and a wife and three kids there are happy I am survived, all of which you almost stole from them.
I rode today. I ride a lot, but on July 23 for as long as I am able, I will ride to work, because I won't let you win.
I do my best, but today reminds me that I am not that strong at forgiveness and focus on finding the strength not to track your piece of s**t ass down.
Thank you for attending my Todd Talk.
