Tear drops

02/08/2023

One day, I will be at the right place with the right people. It's still so overwhelming and confusing right now. How temporary everything makes me feel, the songs, the moments, the feelings, and the people I share my time with. Everyone comes and just leave. Sometimes I wish the moment was longer, or the songs to never stop. I wish I am a character in a movie that I love. Or just the one who stays when everyone starts leaving.

I don't know, but slowly, I am trying to understand why change is necessary and why leaving has to happen. I am slowly trying to understand why being lost in the wrong places or people is important. Because I know I have to grow and learn, so when that one day comes, I know I am already the best version of myself.

26/07/2023

Good luck for another game

25/07/2023

It's good to feel worthy with you. You made me realize that I am important. That I deserve to be treated right and I deserve to be happy. Thank you for doing everything you can to make me feel valued. Thank you for making me realize that I am enough. That I don't have to try hard just to be accepted because I am enough just the way I am. Thank you for appreciating me. I am happy because you do everything to make me happy.

It feels good to be loved right. I've been dreaming for this for a very long time. And now I could feel it because of you. You know how to value my feelings and you do everything to make me feel special. Thank you for being there for me whenever I feel so down. And thank you for keeping your promises. I hope you never change. I hope your love will stay the same. I am happy that I found you. You made me feel worthy of love— and for that, I will always stay with you.

25/07/2023

You know at which point it gets worse?
When you just started depending upon yourself thinking no one else is coming towards you to hold you, to get you back to hope again, and then somebody actually does. She suddenly decides to absorb all the flaws you might be having, every cruel and toxic reality of yours that has kept you dispersed and depressed, she promise you to take this baggage along with you. Then she quits. That's where it gets worse. You see, kids, when a person is left alone, he can only befriend the loneliness once. He starts breathing freely being all messed up just once. He smiles in the chaos just once. He gets difficult to be dealt with, but he's honest when he tells you he loves you. Then he also quits on her when he sees that he's not the only choice that she has, and she is the only option he is left with. And you have no idea how hard it is to embrace the loneliness again, because this time, it won't just live beside you, but it rips your skin off to live inside you. Painful it is. I will be thankful for that person for taking me to the highest part of the mountain and pushing me off all of a sudden. Always.

25/07/2023

Cutting some people completely off from your life is sometimes more than necessary for your peace. Don't feel guilty about it. They won't let you grow and always put you down every chance or attack your kind heart. They are not worth it and the peace you will receive will be unsurpassed!. A positive reaction is necessary, but prevention is key. When someone is always negative, never upbuilding, disrespects you, or always tries to keep you at a level beneath them by tearing away at your self-esteem. Give them a one-way ticket to "Go away town" and regain your peace! You will have better peace of mind getting rid of the people or the things that will ruin you the most. Things don't change until you wake up a change daily and not just when it's popular to do so. It all starts with you.

25/07/2023

25/07/2023

Lately I’ve decided to detach myself from some people.

My friends didn’t understand why I’ve been withdrawing myself from social activities. They didn’t understand my reasons, so I stopped explaining. I didn’t reply to messages except if they’re important. I didn’t go out of the house except when I have to buy my food.

You see, sometimes you have to be alone to appreciate loneliness. Loneliness needs not to be as lonely as you think. It gives you a chance to discover your inner self–your true self–when not surrounded by the noise of the world. It gives you an opportunity to explore your mind and to realize greater thoughts. It provides you a time for recollection and faith renewal.

Moreover, it’s in being alone that I appreciated my own company. I discovered my weaknesses and found ways to overcome them. Being alone allowed me to be creative, to spend my time writing things I’ve never even thought about.

I think I will continue down this path for a while.

Appreciate loneliness. You will discover your true strength.

-

25/07/2023

“She doesn’t go by her real name anymore. Sometimes she’s fire, sometimes she’s water, but they always tell her she’s too much of something; and that’s why she renamed herself: Storm.”
-Little girl speak

25/07/2023

I'm not the best at anything. To be honest, I'm not even good at things that matter so much to other people, which is why my heart melts when someone tells me I don't have to be. When even just a handful of people recognizes that I'm trying and things just aren't working out, and when I look around and still see the smile on their faces even after a thousand failures.

It really is the most beautiful feeling when you found your heart's home in this universe.

I'm not the best at anything and I don't know if I'll ever be, but it's just encouraging to keep on trying when you know that after all the battles, you either go home and celebrate with everyone, or you come home crying and they'll cry with you, too. That you'll always come home to the arms of proud people no matter what.

25/07/2023

Kids, life will show you the strangest faces of themselves. There comes a time in life when you start moving on, and the thing that used to hurt you stops hurting you, and eventually, you stop thinking about it. And kids, this is the stage when every rollercoaster cross path with you. Don't take this ride. If you've finally decided to move on then there is no need to hold on to people who aren't ready to prove their point and take action to live beside you. The moment you're done looking for the perfect partner for yourself is the moment when life gives it to you. You'll only be counting on yourself for the first time, and without notice, you'll just know that you're about to be completed. - it's just a matter of time, don't lose it.

25/07/2023

Lately I’ve decided to detach myself from some people.

My friends didn’t understand why I’ve been withdrawing myself from social activities. They didn’t understand my reasons, so I stopped explaining. I didn’t reply to messages except if they’re important. I didn’t go out of the house except when I have to buy my food.

You see, sometimes you have to be alone to appreciate loneliness. Loneliness needs not to be as lonely as you think. It gives you a chance to discover your inner self–your true self–when not surrounded by the noise of the world. It gives you an opportunity to explore your mind and to realize greater thoughts. It provides you a time for recollection and faith renewal.

Moreover, it’s in being alone that I appreciated my own company. I discovered my weaknesses and found ways to overcome them. Being alone allowed me to be creative, to spend my time writing things I’ve never even thought about.

I think I will continue down this path for a while.

Appreciate loneliness. You will discover your true strength.

25/07/2023

The older you get, the more you realize a lot of things. Like how shutting your doors and being alone bring a lot of comfort. You begin to be more practical. You learn to value peace over some unnecessary noise. But you also realize that the simplest things no longer tickle you anymore. Like how it feels so difficult now to have a genuine and happy feeling over something that made you happy back then. And you learn to understand yourself, to see things more deeply.

You understand how messy your life is. How broken, how bruise and tired you've become. But it doesn't stop you from still wishing to be the adult you want to grow up when you were a kid. It doesn't take away the fact that you were once a happy kid growing up.

—

25/07/2023

Never allow anyone to treat you poorly. Don't hesitate to walk away from the ones who make you feel not enough and worthless. You are supposed to be happy with the ones you choose to be with. You are worthy, never forget that. You are the kind of person who don't deserve to be hurt. I know sometimes people make you feel terrible about yourself and it makes you want to hate yourself every time they make you feel worthless, but believe me, you deserve a love for yourself that will make you forget all the hatred that you've been keeping in your chest.

I want to remind you that you are an amazing person. Appreciate yourself little by little each day, and you'll realize how much you deserve to be valued. Sometimes, when you're feeling worthless and feeling like you're the worst person in this world, you just have to start treating yourself well and love yourself better. Know your worth and never let anyone be the reason to love yourself less.

— l

25/07/2023

Don't worry I will be there for you..

25/07/2023

It's hard to admit to someone that I am not totally okay. Most of the time, I try to hide my pain by just smiling or even laughing in front of everyone. But every time I go home and hide myself in the four corners of my room, that's where I start falling apart. I start crumbling and kneeling down, begging God to heal all the pain that I'm bearing right now. I admit that this is a tough battle to fight for. Sometimes, I just want to give up and run away from everything. The sadness consumes me as if I am always drowning every night. The pain is unbearable— it makes me want to stop opening my eyes in the morning.

I never ask for anything else except healing. I badly want to be okay. I know sometimes I feel so tired with this pain, but deep down in me, I know that I just want to be saved. I never really want to disappear. I still want to see the beauty of life. However, sometimes when I am hurting so bad, I can't stop thinking that I'd rather give up than endure this kind of pain for a very long time.

I want to be okay again, but I don't know how. I don't know where to start healing myself. I feel like everything in me is in pain.

25/07/2023

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