04/09/2021
It's come to a point in time where I don't know where else to look for news apart from right in front of me. I want to see real news like what advances have been made in science. They're discovering so much and withholding it all and it's annoying me. I want access to the information these people have but I don't have access because of who I am. Because of who my birthling/earthling parents are. There is so much more that we can achieve just within the psyche. More senses we can tune into, more realities, perceptions and dimensions. I'm sick of being stuck behind this invisible line that says I'm not good enough due to the funds in my bank account and the fact I found schooling mundane and didn't care for learning the already learnt. School just felt like one big memory test, which is what it is. You regurgitate other people's knowledge and call it your own, it's not exactly intelligence in any form.
I'm grateful that I can express myself through words. I miss home and I'm not even sure I can ever truly feel at home unless my eyes are shut. This doesn't feel like my Universe or planet, and it's not, because it's being created anew. But it gets really hard to exist sometimes and then I start thinking about how everything is planned before I arrive in this vessel and how my first suicidal thought occurred when I was 9, first attempt at 11, which was 2012, the year the Mayans predicted world was going to end was nothing compared to now. But I've always had this innate calling of being an angel and going home to this beautiful place which is not here. Lemuria was the last place I saw my soul family, but we are not from there either.
Lemuria is under the sea...my whole life I was told I had mental health problems and that I was insane. They threw a heap of diagnoses at me but none stuck and it sucks because I know alot of other mystics, healers and psychics recurve the same treatment when they don't have an understanding of what is truly happening. I spent 9 years studying mental health trying to fix me only to find out that I am not broken and I just want to help others going through the same. The systems want us oppressed and believing there is something wrong with us so we don't awaken to our full potential, but I don't care about sounding crazy to some because for the few that underatand, it makes it worth it.
Is it irrational to assume that there was a civilization of humanoid creatures on Earth before us and that the flood in the Bible was supposed to happen in order to help evolution? But that there was a man or possibly more people who built a boat because they were scared, meaning that Earth is now torn between the 2. The land people and the sea people. The land people are what's killing her and the ocean is much bigger and it seems she is deciding that we will all have to evolve or get off the planet at some point. Earth/Gaia only wants to protect herself and we are apart of her. She is giving us time to evolve, some people won't and that's okay. It's a choice.
In realising that this is possible, I thought a little deeper about other planets and how we don't see life on them...maybe they aren't of the surface. Maybe the sun is a ball of fire to protect the inhabitants on her? To keep us away? Right now, us as humans have a whole underground network that the public have limited knowledge of. Maybe there is intelligent life under our feet and in our oceans.
Something else I think is interesting is that Elon Musk (Tesla/space X dude) has made a microchip implant called the Neuralink which is said to be able to do impossible things through the coding in our DNA. He then made a statement that we need to slow down with AI and all of this stuff. While also wasting a heap of money trying to get off of this planet. I'm wondering if someone forced him to do something he knows he doesn't want to be here to see involving these chips and now he's leaving.
This world is so strange. Cancer is curable. Paraplegics can walk again. Schizophrenia is a connection to another dimension/life. Money is made of paper which is literally grown on Earth in abundance when we let it. We use gold as jewellery as if that is its true purpose. We treat our tribe (the human race) worse than other species. We are more connected than ever due to phones but we are also the most disconnected we have ever been.
We have no control over how we live and the more control you believe you have, the less you have. It's fricked and I'm so glad I'm not the only one who is seeing or talking about this anymore.
I had to unprogramme my mind and I still am doing so every day in order to delete the bu****it I've been programmed to believe. Schooling is one of the biggest programmes of all. It teaches you a select few things that the government thinks will be helpful to them and that's about it - you go to a public school and you will probably get suggested to do a trade or work at maccas. You go to private school and you will be pushed to do something more than working at McDonald's like becoming a lawyer.
This world is corrupt and I'm over it. Everyone deserves an equal chance. Everyone is a genius in their own field and I'm sick of feeling unworthy and looking around at so many other young people who feel the same. It's saddening to watch the dreams and hopes of a child be washed away by the fact that their parents don't have money or some other pathetic reason.
Sorry for the rant. How are you?
