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22/02/2024

❤️Blessed New Day

16/02/2024

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09/02/2024

02/02/2024

🌹𝑳𝒆𝒕 𝒎𝒆 𝑪𝒂𝒍𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏.
That's going to be my affirmation for this year.

Last year was the year of transformation for me.
I did a lot. Failed many times.
But I'm finally figuring things out.
I'm discovering what truly makes me happy.
I'm learning what really lights up my spirit.

It's fascinating how, when you change your mindset, things start to line up.
Some call it manifestation, but I don’t know.
To me, it always seemed like fiction.
But now, I'm not so sure.
Because ever since I decided to do things differently last year, things truly began to fall into place for me and I achieved a lot.

However, that joy was nearly spoiled at the end of the year in December.
Not only did we lose two family members,
Just before Christmas,
My baby, my baby's father, and I got really sick.

Winter is usually when the flu season starts, and a lot of people get sick. Since more tourists come to our island during this time to avoid the cold, we islanders often end up catching the flu as well.

My baby was the first to get sick, catching it from daycare ofcourse.
He brought the flu home, and made both his dad and I sick.

I'm usually healthy and don't get sick much.
Normally, I'm i don't feel well for only a day or two, but this time it was worse.
I was sick for many days and lost alot weight.
This worried me because I was already very thin from breastfeeding for two years.

I believe it was a sign from nature.,
𝑻𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 sit back,
𝑻𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 relax
𝑻𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏

This situation forced me to 𝑷𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 & 𝑹𝒆𝒇𝒍𝒆𝒄𝒕 on my life.
I've realized that, even though I was working really hard and accomplishing a lot, which was Good,
I wasn't taking enough time to rest, which was Bad.
Even when I was spending time with my family, relaxing or taking breaks in nature, my mind would still wander back to work.

I’ve pushed myself so much that it began affecting my Health.
My body needed rest.

𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 change my ways.
𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 relax and not be so stressed.
𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 be gentle with myself and enjoy life.
𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏.

The funny thing is I’m always the one talking about 𝑬𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆, but I had to remind myself that,
𝑬𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 isn't going into nature thinking about work.
𝑬𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 isn't spending time with family thinking about work.

𝑬𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒂 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒃𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒆.
𝑬𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 to work when you need to work and rest when you need to rest.
𝑬𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 making memories with my Family.
𝑬𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 to live in the moment.
𝑬𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 to allow myself to just be present.
𝑬𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏.

As a mom, it's even more crucial for me to find balance because my first priority will always be my baby.
So taking care of myself and 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 helps me be the best parent I can be.

These are the fun times.
To watch my baby grow.
To watch my him explore
These are the times to make wonderfull memories.
So I have to 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏.

Changing the habit of constant busyness is hard.
Especially in a world that encourages hustle culture and toxic resilience.
But a life filled with never-ending tasks is not sustainable.
Our bodies need rest.
Our minds need rest.

𝑾𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏.

I had to accept that I can't do it all.
I needed to prioritize relaxation, even if it meant taking naps with my baby.
This has become my step-by-step approach, one that I try to incorporate into every aspect of my life.

So instead of going all out and organizing a huge birthday party for my baby, like last year.
This time, for his second birthday we did things differently.
I used some leftover balloons to decorate our living room. I’ve even used some plastic from my mother's kitchen to create a fish theme.

We had a cozy celebration at home and went to a skate park at the beach.
It was fantastic.
It was small & simple, but very enjoyable.

This experience showed me how the simplest things can be the most fun.
This made me realize that it's okay to take things slow.
It taught me to 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏.

Like the saying goes
“𝐿𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑎 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑛 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑎 𝑠𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑡”.
There's no need to rush.

𝑾𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏.

12/01/2024

Claiming it🙏🏾❤️

31/12/2023

🌹 A Year of Transformation

If I could sum up 2023 in one word, it would be Transformation.
After dealing with anxiety and depression, which got really bad last year after becoming a mom for the first time, I made a promise to myself.

𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙄'𝙢 𝙙𝙤𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙙𝙞𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙡𝙮.

To make sure I kept my promises, I decided to do it partially online on social media. It wasn’t just about reaching out to others, but it was also about inspiring myself.
Every post, every shared experience, became a step towards healing and growth. It was my way of reminding myself and others that change is possible.

I forced myself to change my habits, which was incredibly challenging.
But it started with one step.
𝘽𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙮𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛.
𝘽𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙄 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙧𝙚.

This became part of my daily affirmation.

I was always so good at hiding how I really felt.
Even at times when I felt really sad inside, most people would’t notice it.
I tried to look and sound confident to everyone else.
But deep down, I wasn't feeling that way.

So, in order to change my life, I had to change my thoughts.
I had to be kind to myself and told myself repeatedly:
𝙄 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙮𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙛.
𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙄 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙧𝙚.

It may sound cliché, but saying this to myself every day really helped.
I started with small steps and worked with what I’ve had.
𝙄 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙄 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙧𝙚.
𝙄 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙛𝙩.

I did things that truly mattered to me.
I started following my intuition and stood my ground, even when others didn't agree or understand.

Changing my daily habits required a lot of effort. Especially with a one-year-old.
Who now tests my patience, throws tantrums, and says no every second.
All while still clinging to me and asking for “boobie” everyday.
This is my life, and I had to accept it.
𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙄 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙧𝙚.
𝙄 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙥𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚.

I had to learn to stop rushing things and enjoy the journey.
By changing my reading material and watching podcasts, I discovered ways to build new habits and routines.
Slowly but surely I started noticing positive changes in my life.
I felt the cloud of depression slowly moving away, as I achieved my goals step by step.

Don't get me wrong, life is still messy.
I'm dealing with a lot while trying to be the best mom I can be.
I've dealt with sickness, arguments, financial issues and even the loss of loved ones in our family.

So Life has been Lifing.

But this time, I'm learning to roll with the punches and not too get worried about things I cannot control.

Despite everything bad that happened this year, a lot of good things have also happened.
This year I still managed to:
🌹Make progress with the literature review for my PhD.
🌹Became a science and a physics teacher.
🌹Decided to focus my business (BIOMCLUE) on helping students reach academic success.
🌹Rediscover my love for dancing.
🌹Uncover new passions for teaching and creating content.

I've accomplished a lot this year.
I'm proud of what I've done and how much I've grown.
Not everything went as planned, but that’s life.

𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙮 𝙤𝙛 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚 𝙪𝙣𝙛𝙤𝙡𝙙𝙨 𝙞𝙣 𝙪𝙣𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨.

🌹
2023 showed me how strong I can be.
I'm excited to see what 2024 has in store.

One thing's for sure, I will make sure to Enjoy it to the fullest.

#2024

26/12/2023

☺️❤️
Blessed Christmas

🌲

22/12/2023

Be Proud Of Yourself❤️

08/12/2023

Yup. We can't do it all, sometimes we have to pick and choose what's the most important thing at the time!

30/11/2023

💛 Blessed Day

_Creating A life of Balance_

29/11/2023

Oh yes. ❤️