
15/02/2025
Valentine’s Day shift recap + current thoughts about working in PICU for….6 months already? 💐 tired but everyone’s alive so we did our part 🫡
I ~think~ I’m finally at a point where I don’t have anxiety going into work anymore (⁉️⁉️) I feel like the work environment I’m in is pretty supportive. (disclaimer: this shift was just one of those “so busy and I feel bad I can’t even really help my station buddies as much as I’d like to” shifts so this is me venting 😂)
📍Still feel like a hybrid of newgrad-who-has-imposter syndrome-with-a-dash-of-experience. But, the fear of lacking of “enough” knowledge isn’t as big/as loud as it was as a newbie—I know I’ll build more on my foundation as I continue to work in PICU.
📍 been working night shift for a 1 1/2 now (including from my old job) and since I’m new to PICU I’m honestly not rushing to go to dayshift anymore. I love the flow and vibes of nightshift (although my body misses a normal person schedule). The nightshift flow makes transitioning into PICU smoother in my opinion. I feel like I’m receiving a steady learning pace.
📍Emotional regulation wise: I feel like I’m in a health-ier spot now. I’m not my emotions, I don’t get overwhelmed by them at work even with the sad stories. I’ve been able to provide care with compassion while also “disassociating” just enough to compartmentalize and focus on what I need to do. I visit my emotions after the shift. I’ve also been more proactive in doing things to take care of me as a person when I’m not working.
My nurseiversary is in a couple of days and I can say I’ve been an RN for two whole years! Crazy, because I remember studying for my NCLEX at school during Valentine’s Day and two years later this is where I’m at 🥹
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