09/08/2021
Listen! The other day i was deep in my thoughts and for a second i was like WHAT THE FUDGE 🙊 Okay this could be a long post 🚨
Well in life we go through things and have good and bad experiences right? Then from those experiences we live and learn ! And in most cases we change to what we believe to be “better resolutions”. Meanwhile what we are actually doing is what i call “self rob ”.
How? you ask. Ok let me give you my real life examples that I believe most can relate (disclaimer: this is not bash/shame anyone who might accurately be a character in my examples )
Experience 1: When in love i love to show off my man because baaabyyyy the butterflies 🦋 and again love is a beautiful thing . I once fell in love and this somebody’s son was all over my social media but one day I learnt that this somebody’s son = EMBARRASSMENT . After that what did i do ? As you guessed, even when you treat me like Queen Sheba YOU WILL NEVER MAKE IT TO ANY OF MY SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORMS.
Experience 2: Just like most human beings on a day that concerns me or when I accomplish something, i enjoy celebrating it with people i consider to be friends also those that i love dearly and family. Once upon a time it happened that this day was so special to me & some people decided to create a scene & make it a very dramatic day! Ever since i would rather be celebrating solo or with 2-3 people EVEN ON MY BIRTHDAY!
Experience 3: If i like you - yes like not even love , i enjoy giving ...giving thoughtful gifts! It may not be even yo birthday but i would just get you something that i know without a doubt you would love it. Now this is not just one person this happened with several people to me! Well some lost their gifts, others sold them and others mishandled them etc. To me that translated “people rarely appreciate” and guess what, i don’t waste my energy and coins anymore.
As much as all my resolutions may sound good truth is , behind those hurtful experiences and “good” resolutions i still love loving, giving and being social , I robbed myself the joy of doing what makes me happy in the name of protecting self which is so sad ! HOW MANY THINGS HAVE YOU ROBBED YOURSELF?