Bodack Horseman

24/02/2024

Clickity clackity I might be an addicty

Baldurs Gate 3 stream today.

[Modded] "Dis-"honor run, Aasimar Warlock, level 20 mods and buffs

23/02/2024

Well, time for my obligatory twitch post, I'm gonna keep this Baldurs Gate run going. From the tiefling to the aasimar.

[Modded] "Dis-"honor run, Aasimar Warlock, level 20 mods and buffs

25/11/2023

Going live with MechWarrior Online over on Twitch! Link in comments, let's get some 'Mechsual Healing!

26/09/2023

I'm gonna do monday mechs because I need some robot smashin in my life today

Smashing robots and picking up the lil chunks

10/07/2023

Doin a right bit of violence this morning

[DMZ] Probably the calmest CoD stream you'll ever see

09/07/2023

Goin live with some dmz runs and maybe a bit of Warzone. Sometimes I f**k up and sing songs too.

[DMZ] Probably the calmest CoD stream you'll ever see

07/07/2023

I'm going live, playing some Battletech on Twitch.

Back to Battletech. Like it was in doubt.

15/01/2023

Live out here on Twitch!

[BTA 3062] Allegheny Irregulars: Clanbusters

29/10/2022

Going live on Twitch this fine morning
It's time for some Mechsual Healing

[BTA 3062] 'Mechsual Healing

16/10/2022

It's been awhile since I've posted here.

Come on out and hang if you've got some time, I'm out here on Twitch playing some MechWarrior 5: Mercenaries this fine morning. Link in comments

27/05/2022

"Ghostwriter" By me, just now

I'm a basement writer
Never fit in a cypher
I'm just fueled by desire
I love to put pen to paper
Or go nuts on the bass or..but I'll probably end up a ghostwriter

Thought of it paralyzes me
Hearing it pains me physically
The words come just fine, but is it me?
Who am I, why did I believe I decide
I can do this believably?
I sound like a Midwestern Fred Durst
"Get your groove on" I should move on
But I'm all worked up now, whisper's a shout now
And I want to let it out, gotta get it out
Maybe I'll find a personality without a voice
Just let him be me

I'm a basement writer
Never fit in a cypher
I'm just fueled by desire
I love to put pen to paper
Or go nuts on the bass or..but I'll probably end up a ghostwriter

Want to get up on the mic
But my life is already anxiety
Wanna plug that bass back in and
Play til my fingers bleed
But forever in the back of my mind
In the darkest places
All I can imagine are disappointed faces
I don't fit in, I don't have the same skill
I could keep trying but I can't keep it real
The same damn scene a thousand f**kin times in my mind

I'm a basement writer
Never fit in a cypher
I'm just fueled by desire
I love to put pen to paper
Or go nuts on the bass or..but I'll probably end up a ghostwriter

I wrote this
And you can read it
Because I need it
And I hope you can feel like it means something
But it's probably nothing
I've got the cadence and the melody down
But you'll never hear it, because I fear it too much
But it's just another story of what never was from the mouth of a clever never-has-been
Screaming back into the void again

27/05/2022

HOTEL ROOM - By me, like 25 minutes ago.

(Chorus)
I woke up in a hotel room
I woke up in a hotel room
I woke up in a hotel room, it's my home for the moment
I hope it isn't that way soon
I hope it isn't that way soon
I hope it isn't that way soon, but it's life as we know it

Somewhere, at an earlier time, I committed a capitol crime
Of lacking the capital, lacking the insight to realize that things weren't fine
Now I'm taking a ride, down the same road that Dante had tread upon
But I'll jog in, f**k walking, I'm goin all in, Kong

Never would have believed as a little kid I'd be without a home if you said
But now I find in the morning when I open my eyes, I'm in a rented bed
This ain't living, just existing, I'll never take s**t for granted again
In my hands rests my head
But I'm still not dead

(Chorus)

Everything from this moment, Goes my own way I own it
No more broken dreams, promises, I want my children to know it
I will not bend, break, shake, be shaken or blow it
I'm too stubborn, I want my children to know it

Never would have seen as my present self how to take a moment to sieze it
Sometimes I find that the morning after the fall is when life reveals it
I've got hell to pay but I'll foot the bill, I will not repeal it
I wanted to flee from it
But now I feel it

I woke up in a hotel room
I'm gonna handle this s**t soon

02/04/2022

Cracking open a cold one with the maidens in the lands between
Maidens maybe?
https://twitch.tv/bodack_horseman

I wanna be in space tonight

08/01/2022

Nothing particularly special, but I haven't had much to share lately.

Internet has been s**tty at best so I don't get much chance to play, much less stream.

But here's some MechWarrior.

Just miss streaming, gonna throw this one up for the homies.

22/12/2021

Smooth pants?

Naw, not this year homies.

This year we get ROUGH

Brought to you by Cory Pitkavish: ROUGH PANTS
https://youtu.be/W0jy28g4W1M

17/12/2021

My son was mocking my stutter earlier so I wrote about it

"Did I Stutter"

Di-di-di-di-did you catch that
Or should I run it back
I know my brain is on
But my mouth sounds like it's sk-sk-skipping tracks
I got the thoughts up here, but somewhere in translation something disappears
And it might start up another mother fu-fu-f**kin panic attack

But sometimes life comes at you f-f-fast
My mind is faster, but in a race to the f-f-finish
My speech is last
This s**t is wack
I thought I left it in the past

Did I stutter?
You b-b-bet your ass I did
I've been living in b-b-broken sentences
Since I was a little kid
A-a-and I'm just trying to l-l-live
So gimme a minute
And I swear I'll get it
Or just forget it

If you don't have the fu-fu-f**kin time
Well I don't mind
I've got a l-l-lot to offer when I finally arrive
At the end of that sentence
I know that some just can't get it
And it's a O-k-k-kay if you can't accept it
Because I'm really I'm really I'm really trying to correct it

It's like a busted transmission
And I just I just can't shift it
But when I get it in gear you're gonna be sorry you missed it

Did I stutter?
You b-b-bet your ass I did
I've been living in b-b-broken sentences
Since I was a little kid
A-a-and I'm just trying to l-l-live
So gimme a minute
And I swear I'll get it
Or just forget it

So slow slow down
Just gimme a minute
I know I sound down in it
But when it passes
You jackasses finna miss some good s**t

Be-be-because the stutter hides a quick draw brain
And the bottleneck in the signal sent drives me insane
That hidden pain
It drives me that much harder
And it makes me seem less smarter
But that m-m-makes the truth hit harder than good marijauana
They s-s-say what doesn't kill you f**kin makes you stronger
So t-t-take my word for it
I don't want to keep you l-longer

18/11/2021

Daily dose of lyrics for ya.

17/11/2021

Well if you've got time and some C-Bills to spare
Grab yourself a drink and pull up a chair
And listen to a tale of the tall variety
While you do your best to address your sobriety
I'll tell you 'bout the man from down in Keystone
And the hot-rod mech that he called his own

16/11/2021

New, untitled lyrics by me. Copyright and all that s**t.

I'm rubbing elbows with kings
Then heading home
and butting heads with roaches
Trying to get em off my guitar strings
But this position has taught me many things
Most explicitly, position isn't indicative of what you can bring

So take a seat at my table
Whenever you're feeling able
Because when we eat together it's a better flavor
Savor every morsel that you can, forever be grateful
And when you've had your fill, take some for later

Because we all gotta eat out here
And these obstacles are all looking like meat out here
They say victory is sweet, but taking fear
And making it disappear's the real treat out here

My mind and body admittedly are far from godly
But the drive inside still fires, man, Olympus can't stop me
I'm a hot commodity in an economy of oddity
Investing in Bodack is a game-winning philosophy

Possibly, this could all be false bravado
But I'm banking on my motto, and I'm playing the cosmic lotto
I'm still all-in on my dreams while I'm coming apart at the seams
And I'm screaming at these screens
Because I've got a plate to clean

Because we all gotta eat out here
And these obstacles are all looking like meat out here
They say victory is sweet, but taking fear
And making it disappear's the real treat out here

16/11/2021

Fu**in' Sam always did know what was up

14/11/2021

Not everybody who wanders is lost
Some prefer the road better left untraveled
Unpaved alleys covered in gravel
Left in perfect disrepair

Left protected from redirected stares
Hidden away from judgemental glares
We've found, in these long abandoned thoroughfares
Somewhere to feel like we can just feel

Because we've all felt it get too real
We go from driving our future to falling asleep at the wheel
Sometimes we can't deal
Or maybe I'm just speaking for me
Could it be?

13/11/2021

Tentative title for the project I'm working on is "The Wanderer."

It fits my real life vibes, and also fits my plan of exploring multiple genres and styles.

Hopefully gonna rally the troops and get some folks involved along the way.

Stay tuned.

12/11/2021

"The Wanderer"

Out of time
Out of line
Out my mind
I'll be fine
Yeah I'm lying
But I'm damn sure trying

Not alone
Still unknown
Always stoned
Got no home
But I've got
All I need to make it through

The wanderer is who I am
But friend, tell me what are you

Now the kids arent cheap
Neither is the w**d
But I'll sell my soul
For the mouths I feed

Make no mistake
I'd love to settle down
But I can't find a caring soul in this town

The wanderer is who I have to be
Until the come-up comes to me

*c'mon take a walk with me*
(Instrumental)

Now I'd tell you I'm looking for the promised land
But it don't exist for the common man
I'm just doing the best I can
To stay on my feet wherever I land
Because the world is hard
And life ain't fair
But I'm too f**king stubborn to even care
So do no harm, take no s**t
Don't count me out, I'm never gonna quit

Because I'm that same old wanderer
And everywhere I go is home.
Yeah they call me the wanderer
But still I'll never be alone

(This is mine. I wrote it. Idk, copyright or blah blah)

30/10/2021

Next vocal cover is gonna be something by The Glorious Sons.

Question is: "The Contender," or "Mama?"

27/10/2021

I've got the perfect tone dialed in for this song I'm working on. It's almost as good as s*x when you get it just right and if you disagree you are wrong.