07/09/2024
I know your emotions have been on a roller-coaster ride, and I’m sorry that you have to hide all the pain, fears, feeling of being neglected, and disappointment behind your ungenuine smile. I know that you think it’s better that way because you won’t be bothering anyone, but please know that you are allowed to be honest with what you feel and be vulnerable, even for just a while.
It’s easier for us to hide behind our smiles than to explain what we can’t even express. If you are someone who can relate to it, I’m sending you my warmest invisible hug. If you happen to know an eccedentesiast—someone who’s been hiding all the chaotic feelings and tangled thoughts behind a smile—make him/her/them feel and know that they are allowed to pour even just a portion of the heavy weight that they are carrying. I hope that we will be able to genuinely smile without needing to use it as a mask that hides the real us.
-Franz Mherryon