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03/06/2024

Good ole beach time with my BEAUTIFUL Wife! When GOD told me to hold Faith, who would have known HE meant you! I Love You Babygirl!

12/05/2024

So I can finally fully announce that I'm free. My Case has finally been dismissed. After 8 years I'm finally free. This year GOD has shown me what a new beginning actually means! I have a new career path with a great company! Most importantly I have my wife Faith Parker who has taught me what it's like to truly be loved and has encouraged me to be the best man I can be. Now I also have my freedom back! Thank you GOD!

22/03/2024

Well got some great news 1 of them I'm still waiting on confirmation from. Or at least the official order! The other well I Married the most beautiful woman in the world, who has shown me a happiness I never knew existed. She has become my best friend. GOD knew what HE was doing when HE brought her in my life. March 14th will be a day I will cherish for the rest of my life. Because I got to marry someone who finally sees me! I'm truly happy! Thank you GOD for bringing this woman into my life. I plan on forever with you Faith or should I say Mrs. Parker!

04/11/2023

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26/10/2023

This job has made me do everything I hate.
I hate going inside of stores.
I hate dealing with folks on the phone.
I hate running around searching for products.
And I hate dealing with people.
Yet this has been the most fun I've had in a while! GOD is really turning things around for me! Blessed more than I realize! GLORY BE TO GOD! By the way talking to a really great girl too. Don't know what GOD has in store but I'm praying!

16/10/2023

Thinking bout after the first of the year getting my motorcycle license and getting me a bike. Maybe go cruising on weekends with my dad.

14/10/2023

06/10/2023

There's a reason GOD annointed me from who I was. Don't push me tho or think that I won't flip out. You can only be nice for so long before it takes a toll. I'm no monster no more but I'm not to be taking lightly.

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04/10/2023

Yo this girl from Chattanooga tho! Great personality too!

04/10/2023

Looking forward to the next couple months. Gonna have my freedom and my new life begins. Talking to some amazing girls. Maybe one will want to take things further after the case. Kind of excited!

04/10/2023

I wanna clear something up. I post alot about my suicidal thoughts and my depression. Yes I am in therapy. One of the things I've been told to do is write. So I write my feelings out publicly and privately. Reason being is I'm called by GOD to preach. Most people think people who are called by GOD don't experience pain. Well I want people to know what I struggle with daily. That although GOD has blessed me with the power of the tongue I fight a battle everyday just trying to live. Most days I don't want to live but GOD says to so I will listen. I will herd HIS sheep to the good Shepherd.

Did you know that being a preacher or a pastor is one of the loneliest positions in GODS army. Yes we have GOD, we have JESUS! But we tend to not really have any one else. We tend to keep to ourselves because fact of the matter is no one cares but GOD.
Did you know 1 in 10 pastors/preachers contemplate su***de. 18% of pastors are depressed. Yea those aren't big numbers but those numbers carry alot of weight and loneliness.

You have people like me who are constantly being abandoned by those closest to them. Yet I'm expected to be OK and just get over it. Let it go. While my heart is laying on the floor after being stomped on. While everyone is being made to believe I'm a monster cause the only things being spoke about me are the wrongs I've done. Not the sacrifices I made. The love I gave. The good I did. No I'm not just talking bout my ex wife but my ex best friends. The media. Everything and everyone. These things weigh heavily on a person. Yet people like me with a strong connection to GOD are expected to just be OK and get over it. Sad news tho we are still human.

If you could see the nightmares in my head you would understand. Just don't take my status to seriously. It's me just getting it off my chest. I'm in therapy. I'm on meds. And I'm constantly watched by my Father and by GOD. One day I'll be whole again. But it ain't gonna happen over night. GOD BLESS!

04/10/2023

Enoch walked with GOD and he was no more, For GOD took him. (Gen 5:21-25)

I often pray GOD does the same for me. I've been through so much pain in my life. The last 7 years, my wife leaving, I've become so alone. I've become so bitter. I trust no one and I don't believe in promises no more. People tend to only want to abandon and hurt me. So I question my worth. Clearly GOD says I'm worth something because no matter how many times I ask HIM to just bring me home to HIM just like HE did for Enoch. HE leaves me here. Sometimes I think it's to suffer. But I believe it's to over come these obstacle and defeat this battle and come out on top. But why. I often think what's the point. The love of my life ripped my heart out. My closest friends abandoned me. What do I have to prove. I can't even be something someone truly cares about. The loneliness seeps in. Thus break up was my choice. I was being treated like a monster. Everyone has treated me like a monster. Including my best friend, my love. Everyone is quick to point out the dust in my eye but no one looks at the tree in there's.

Do you understand what it's like to be abandoned left in a place where the walls talk. Not sure if you'll get to come out because you stupidly thought your life was worth protecting. Since then my friends, my ex wife, my department, have all showed me it wasn't worth protecting. Do you know what it's like to wake up and be disappointed you see another day. Yet you keep moving because you owe this blessing of even being alive to GOD. No matter the pain. You tell yourself and continue to fight to believe that GOD has plan. You fight for what HE called you to do. This whole time lost about who you are. This whole time alone wondering if GOD will allow you to have someone and a family. Someone who will fight for you and bring you from the depths of the pit when you are lost. You know you have JESUS and hold on to that because you learn the hard way that you can't rely on no one. You feel you are destined to be a lone sheepdog. That you guide the sheep to the good shepherd but there is no one on earth for you. My dreams of the future were crushed. I pray once my assignment from GOD is done. That like Enoch GOD takes me! I don't wanna be here anymore. But I do wanna save others for GOD. So not my will but HIS! This is my cup!

03/10/2023

Single again its all good tho. I think I need to wait tik after my court case before I get in a relationship. Perfect timing to be abandoned tho.

Before anyone ask I was upfront about my case. The problem was someone else who had a problem and came in between us. All is good.

I may be everyone's monster but when I come out on top of this I don't wanna hear a thing from all the ones who promised me they'd be there.

02/10/2023

New glasses and boredom

02/10/2023

Psalm 32:8 - I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.

01/10/2023

Think about it. All alone with my demons. Stuck in a pit of hell. I just needed someone. I needed to be guided. But I had to do this on my own. Now I've come back stronger Thanks to JESUS.

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30/09/2023

James 1:19 - My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry,

30/09/2023

New glasses finally!

30/09/2023

Yall help me wish my beautiful Girlfriend a very Happy And Blessed Birthday! She came into my life when I was ready to give up on it. She's been fighting for me, and showing me I am enough, that I am adequate, and worthless fighting for! That simple love is all i ever wanted and it has given me the strength to no longer be who I was and to see past my own problems and be there for everyone else. So Happy Birthday Babygirl!

29/09/2023

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28/09/2023

Philippians 4:9 - Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

26/09/2023

Happiness is in her smile!

26/09/2023

She deserves it!

25/09/2023

Matthew 5:9 - Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.

25/09/2023

She said she didn't like jewelry! Hasn't taken it off since I gave it to her. Won't stop talking bout how much she loves it. She just don't understand how spoiled she bout to be. With GOD at the center, GOD will bless us abundantly! Thank you Father!

24/09/2023

I love the fact she prays for me!

23/09/2023

Matthew 5:7 - Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.

22/09/2023

Matthew 5:5 - Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.

21/09/2023

I haven't been this happy in a long time. Idk GODS plan bit I'm glad it lead me to her!