19/05/2021
I had a conversation with my ex,
No...not my ex...but,
Well, I had a conversation with her.
She called me,
And we talked for about two hours.
It had been long since we last heard from each other,
And so, I was amazed and happy at that hour.
See, I picked up,
And the conversation began.
She was amazed on hearing my voice,
Saying that it had grown much deeper,
And that she liked it.
So, baada ya kunigotea na kujua venye nilikuwa naendelea,
Alianza kunichapia, na mi nkatulia.
Na juu nilitaka kujua mbona alinikol, singeinterrupt, aliendelea kuongea.
Nilifanya kumsikiza kwa makini Sana,
Juu singetaka kumkatsia.
She asked me if was an ex to me,
And that was the question that hit me hard and took me back to the days when we were in love,
I wanted to say yes, she was my ex,
But I hesitated, 'cause I wasn't sure.
We didn't break up,
Neither did we cross lines,
Tulinyamaziana tu,
And we seemed to be okay with that,
So, I couldn't tell if she was my ex.
My ex is a mother of one now,
A baby boy,
Born out of wedlock,
She tells me his name is DII,
She named him after me,
Ananiambia huyo mtoi angekuwa wangu,
Only if ka ningekuwa serious,
Being serious...
That has been my problem when it comes to relationships,
And that's why I don't date up to date,
'cause I might find myself into unnecessary courtships.
I felt her statement pe*****te my mind,
But I could do nothing,
Alikuwa ashazalia morio mwingine.
That night my ex made a confession,
She told me how she felt unloved when around me,
And that led her into depression.
Upon hearing this,
Nilishaanga sana, coz I really loved her,
But she told me that I never tried to show that I loved her,
Na kila time alikuwa anafeel hapendwi.
She made me feel kinder guilty,
But I could reverse not,
I had failed her.
And just like that,
She wished me a good night,
Na akahang up.
Yes....I had a conversation with her.
