13/01/2022
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This was my dream life 10 years ago. Hell.. even 5 years ago.
I’m not even making that up.
I dreamt of a life that was calm. I dreamt that in my “perfect” life I had a partner who pushed me to my utmost potential, who supported my dreams and who’s love gave me a sense of calm, not chaos.
I dreamt of having a little “family” who would wake up on Sunday mornings, laze around in bed for an extra hour just enjoying the softness of the moment. (Yes, a fur baby counts).
I dreamt of feeling safe and secure yet wild and FREE.
I never dreamt of fancy cars, mansions, millions of dollars… that just wasn’t me.
I just wanted to be content and feel a deep sense of love for life.
Because for as long as I could remember, from childhood into early adulthood, life always felt really hard. It was always chaotic.
And I would beg for it to just calm down. Just let me be happy.
But I was creating a lot of that chaos for myself as an adult.
The chaos I experienced as a child quickly became my norm & I sought after it in my adulthood and in relationships.
Once I got sick of my surroundings, realized that I am in control of my own life…
holy s**t. I received that calm.
I have all that I dreamed of and today I had to pinch myself to make sure I wasn’t dreaming.
Turns out I’m not and that this perfect little life I dreamt of is right in front of me now.
I am damn proud of myself and will say that every day to express gratitude for everything I have created.
Because I did create this happiness. I did create this calm. I did create this little life that brings me everything I dreamed of and more.
I did it. And you can too 🥺