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07/06/2024

I have not used this page since I made it. But I would love to get it up and going . I would like to make it a page to vent and ask for advice !

01/04/2023

31/03/2023

Magical song by Bette Midler - The Rose.(licensed by WMG) I am in no way associated with the content of this video, and in no form am I trying to take credit...

12/03/2023

12/03/2023

Remember this . The next time you abandon someone after telling them you were not using them . But then someone leaves you and you post this . Yeah so we're you really just using me ?

12/03/2023

Will I ever be me again.
I am not sure I even know who I am . I feel so alone and so numb from life. Dating has become a circus and all I ever meet our clowns . I'm told I'm selfish and only think about myself or I put myself on a pedestal.
No I'm just a person who use to lack boundaries and never said no . I now will tell someone no and will not just throw my boundaries for anyone. I did that once. I have someone all of my heart. I loved them to the core of my soul. They left me without any remorse at all. They now have this perfect little life with this perfect girl. I don't cry anymore and I am open to meeting someone new finally after two years of dying inside . Now when I think there could be a spark with someone I start talking to , I'm greeted with a big bucket of water ,when I'm hoping for gasoline. Again I ask myself what's so wrong with me . I will just crawl right back into this cold cave I call home .I will let yet another year go by as I grow older and count how many years I have left can I do it alone . Because trurth is he's not out there . There is no one for me .
Sometimes I go and look at the page of the one who made me this way . Wondering if karma has caught up with him . I only break my own heart to see how happy he is . I suddenly feel remorse because I would never wish this life on anyone. I'm glad he has someone and they are happy . Yeah I guess that's how selfish I am .

12/03/2023

I always say this is the last time
But the last time never comes

10/03/2023

The only thing left are memories. Everything has changed.

10/03/2023

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06/03/2023

Hope you love this cover, I love this song!! I’m on tour at the moment! You can get your tickets here - https://www.ticketmaster.co.uk/samantha-harvey-ticket...