03/05/2022
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Growing up, people around me always say that I should cherish all my firsts. First trip. First visit to the dentist. First love. First heartbreak. Bad or good, I made it a habit to keep them somewhere, deep inside me, locking them in so I can share them when someone asks me about what clothes I wore or what I felt when it happened. Now, I wondered, holding on to the small piece of paper in my hand, walking out of that registration booth. How will my first election turn out?
When COMELEC announced the opening of voter registration amidst the pandemic, I knew I had to do it right away. It is, after all, for the national elections. It was genuinely exhilarating. This time, I won't be all talk, I have the power to vote. "How will my ballot look like? Is shading the circle hard? How long will the ink stain in my nail stay?" irrelevant thoughts like this swamped my head. It never once occurred that those thoughts would be the last of my concern---not until election campaigns started.
When the first political campaign ad flashed on our television, I realized that elections were fast approaching. Every day, news about elections dominates the television, newspapers, radio, and social media. I try to take them all in, all the information about the candidates, their platforms, and their political backgrounds. Before, I would do this for an essay in class. Now, I'm doing it with my vote and the country in mind. Somehow, the idea that I now possess the power to make a change burdens me.
I'm not ignorant when it comes to politics. Ignorance isn't an option when we're talking about the future of our country. There's nothing blissful about watching your country fall in the hands of a tyrant or a fraud. However, when my friend asked me who I would vote for, I realized that it wasn't as easy as how I thought it would be. They say voting is easy as long as you stick to your principles and know who your candidate is. Is it, though?
Choosing a candidate isn't the same as choosing what movies to watch on Netflix. They're both hard, and require consideration, but not the same. And for me, it doesn't end with how they do during the campaign. People change. The same goes for the politicians who mask their image before elections. Perhaps, it's just me overthinking, but I tend to contradict my list of candidates with the question, "what if they are not IT? What if they reveal their true motives after they win? But, what if they're really the one?" Like me, I'd like to believe that the other first-time voters have as many questions in their minds.
A few days ago, COMELEC held a fair at one of the malls I frequent. They encourage you to experience how voting works. I took the chance since it was my first time, and I didn't want to look funny when I cast my ballot into the machine. The moment I held my fake ballot, it hit me. I'm a voter now. A few weeks from now, I'll be casting my first vote. Suddenly, the light black marker became heavy, and shading the circles became a challenging task. The black ink overflowing from the lines reminds me of the blood of my comrades spilled fighting for what they believed was right for the country. The roughness of the paper rubbing against my skin brought me to when I shook the hands of an older woman who, in her state of frailness, was forced to work to feed her unemployed children.
I realized I was shaking. Another first is about to happen for me. But why am I nervous? Because, unlike my other firsts, this one involves not just me but millions of people who are screaming for change. Oil price hikes are showing no signs of stopping. Indigenous tribes are terrorized into leaving their lands. The virus is still casting a shadow of death, waiting for a time to return if not contained. The country's debt is continuously breaking its record, ensuring that your great great granddaughter is now a hostage to creditors. We are all casting our votes in the hopes a savior will once again build this country from the shambles it is now.
Whoever said voting is easy belongs to the statistics of people who said they voted for their candidate "just because." Being a first-time voter, I want my vote to be memorable. A single vote carries so much pressure, and the outcome of your choices could bite you back---hard. We might be tired of hearing this clichรฉ slogan, but I have to admit that it is the best summary of how one should vote for the upcoming elections--- it's to vote wisely.
Now that I think about it, maybe this first will be different. It will not be about my clothes or the food I eat. It will be about how other thousands of new voters and I will mark a change in the elections that will determine this country's next six years (or more).