PolyfragPsych

03/08/2023

I went to a ritual site and nearly got reaccessed for fun, made me feel powerful asf (I’m a RAMCOA survivor)

11/07/2023

Tips for battling OSDDID?

Denial is a normal part of OSDDID, DID is developed when you deny your own reality and the trauma taking place towards you that you cannot personally handle. Denial is something that diagnosed systems experience and how do systems deal with that denial?

03/06/2023

I found my way onto TikTok, clap for me

07/04/2023

Ever since I got my diagnosis of OSDDID (multiple personalities) and I went on a search for how the disorder develops, it’s pretty much ruined my view of parenting and kids. Whenever I see a child getting mistreated or abused in public or hear of it, all I think is if that parent knew how their child felt and what effect it’ll have on them in the future, they wouldn’t be ignoring their cries for help, comfort, being verbally abusive, using physical abuse as discipline, acting sexually inappropriate and you placing pressure that you know is unhealthy for your kid.

A lot of parents do it, many don’t realise the effect it has on their children and I don’t mean human mistakes in parenting either, I mean repeated mistreatment and abuse.

Unpopular opinion coming up: Dance / Performance mums are the worse for this sort of thing. If you find yourself offended by this post, then it’s directed at you and that is a indicator you should go get some counselling.

31/03/2023

Ngl I noticed the ableism you receive if you are disabled because of having PTSD. This disorder is commonly seen as a minor issue but the minute it causes disability, everyone has PTSD, everyone struggles from trauma! Wow

17/12/2022

What does Dissociative Identity Disorder do to the brain according to brain scans and information from manuals?

Dissociative Identity Disorder used to be known as Multiple Personality Disorder until the year, 1994. This disorder according to the ICD-11 is mostly associated with severe, repeated childhood trauma and is diagnosed when an individual meets the criteria.

One of the main and the most well-known characteristics of this disorder are the alternate states of consciousness or otherwise known as alters which are dissociated states usually with their own age, gender, sexuality and perceived appearance.

‘Alters’ are unintegrated parts of an individuals personality, these states are often in different neuropsychological states and are located within different parts of the brain. It isn’t unusual for specific kinds of systems to have alters within the left and right hemisphere of their brain with the alters working on different tracks simultaneously.

It has been found that upon switches, different parts of the brain light up and according to trauma experts, this disorder effects your hippocampus, amygdala, broca and the watch-tower. It isn’t uncommon for the left and right hemisphere of the brain to be separated by dissociation which prevents memories & feelings from being passed between the emotional and the analytical hemisphere.

https://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/journal.pone.0039279
STEP-BY-STEP DID MANUAL (TW SRA content)
https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S246874992030017X
https://www.cambridge.org/core/journals/the-british-journal-of-psychiatry/article/aiding-the-diagnosis-of-dissociative-identity-disorder-pattern-recognition-study-of-brain-biomarkers/DCF85A7D69652C06E61524593B266E8C

WRITTEN BY LYN

Background Dissociative identity disorder (DID) is a disputed psychiatric disorder. Research findings and clinical observations suggest that DID involves an authentic mental disorder related to factors such as traumatization and disrupted attachment. A competing view indicates that DID is due to fan...

14/12/2022

I don’t want to be living the way I am. How I am living isn’t living at all, it is suffering because what is a life when I’m 20 years old and I haven’t lived the majority of the 20 years. I look inside of myself, I see people who are breathing and alive, I hear voices in my head and I blackout for up to a week at a time. I claim to be young children of different ages, genders and more, yet, it’s romanticised and some people say that I’m delusional because they aren’t as pro-mental health as they claim to be.

I went through RAMCOA and I survived it, yet, I have to pay money out of my own pocket to fix what someone else did to me and Dissociative Identity Disorder is a current trend.

I cannot control my mood because one point, I’m high, I cannot control my behaviour because everything feels like candy, nothing has consequences and everything is amazing but then I destroy my life. A few weeks later, I’m so depressed that I’d take anything to not feel like that and I’m covered in self-harm marks. I hear things that aren’t there, I see things that aren’t there and I cannot feel my own emotions. I have carved a number inside of my arm and I exist in a complete fantasy for 2 weeks to up to a month.

I cannot make friends and hold relationships because the majority of people dump me when they realise that I’m not mentally stable. They dump me when they realise that I don’t just have depression, anxiety and issues with self-esteem. I have been treated like complete s**t from the time that I was in school and I thought that ‘The Quay School’ would be better because at least they’d understand. Nope, the majority of the kids there treated me like complete crap and I was r***d by one of my peers.

People think I enjoy not working and only going to college once a week. People say I’m lucky. There’s nothing luck related about being so mentally ill that you cannot pick up a full-time job like your peers. I want to live and I want to feel like I‘m alive. I want to be trauma free and happy.

However, I’m mentally ill and living in a nightmare that I cannot wake up from. I’d take anything to not feel like this and if there was a reset button where I’m promised a life without all of the s**t that I experience, I’d take it in seconds. This is mental health, it is not glamorous and people lose their lives from it because they feel like I do but if we suffer, we’re painted as attention seeking… But if one of us commits su***de, I WISH I SAW THE SIGNS UWU, you fu***ng did, you ignored them and talked about our pain behind our backs.

I’d tell people to make more of an effort but to be honest, the NHS doesn’t even have an adult crisis team anymore. In fact, it’s either you MAY get a call or you go to A&E where they don’t do anything to help you because the government keeps cutting money, the NHS sucks at money management and there is no money in general.

I’m glad I’m privileged enough to get the help I need but I’ve also been ignored for 10 years and misdiagnosed up to 3 times…

06/12/2022

This is for everyone who is RAMCOA (aka. survived mind control) or anyone who knows anyone who has survived it. I think this is important enough to be public. If you come across a therapist who claims publicly that they deprogram people and / or they deprogram you by accessing your system through multitude of buttons on your body. Stop seeing that therapist.

Deprogramming isn’t using your programming. Deprogramming is talking about your experiences, fighting it and running it down. The real question is how would a deprogrammer know how to reaccess you properly? How can they reaccess you with those buttons? Association. Those therapists access you, reprogram you and send you back to the organisation. It has happened to people that I know and friends of friends. Please stay safe.

18/11/2022

polyfragmented systems be like:

02/11/2022

Remember that when someone tells you they have Dissociative Identity Disorder / Multiple Personality Disorder, they are a severely abused, traumatised child who cannot grow up without medical intervention and they live with the most extreme form of PTSD.

They are a victim of a crime perpetrated onto them within early childhood and has been through a lot of pain. They deserve your kindness and for you to be non-judgmental.

28/10/2022

⚠️ This post goes into detail on how polyfragmentation occurs and details of child r**e is used as an example ⚠️

How do people with Dissociative Identity Disorder reach thousands of alters?

This post is written from my own experience and I also use the example of Jeni Haynes who is an amazing woman with ‘Polyfragmentation.’ Please read her book called The Girl in the Green Dress.

There is a misconception that people with DID cannot split thousands and hundreds of alters which is complete bulls**t. A lot of people do not seem to comprehend that this disorder is not about being multiple people but is actually about a fragmentation of a single person where these fragmentations take on different roles and traumas.

I do not know how many alters that I have overall but I know that I am in the thousands as someone who is what is known as ‘Polyfragmented’ which is a term coined by a leading expert in the field of DID and Multiple Personalities.

If you are interested in reading up about it, here is the link:https://scholarsbank.uoregon.edu/xmlui/bitstream/handle/1794/1396/Diss_1_4_8_OCR_rev.pdf

First of all, we did start off with one fragmentation for one trauma so this would mean one fragmentation for neglect, one for being sexually abused, one for being hit however, we found ourselves needing to put up more amnesic barriers due to how bad the traumatisation was. So, we went from one alter for each trauma to one alter for different subtypes within one type of trauma.

A great example of this is that we went from an alter that deals with r**e to needing one fragmentation for being put into a crate, one fragmentation for the physical pain of it, one for the confusion, one for the sensation, multiple to remove the smells and sounds, multiple to swallow or for the person to finish.

So, from a hypothetical scenario where a child is put into a crate, starved and r***d one time by one person, that entire person would need over 10 fragmentations to deal with that traumatic experience and when there are multiple rapists, multiple neglectors and intense, sadistic child abuse that is repeated over a long period of time then a child would be splitting off hundreds of fragmentations a week to deal with the experience especially if it’s ongoing.

If you’d like to read a great example of this, read that book I recommended where this DID system talked about splitting off alters to swallow semen, to be beaten, etc and that is how people with DID reach high amounts of alters and people get to that point by being severely abused, neglected and for the trauma to be sustained over a long period of time.

08/10/2022

I’m currently being looked into for Bipolar Disorder due to me experiencing weeks of manic episodes and severe depressive states! I’m currently bubbling near some form of mania again which really sucks. I feel like I’m pretty detached from reality right now and I keep hearing these voices outside of my head recently. However, I also feel great though.

24/07/2022

Really dissociative today. The others are being loud asf like with all due respect, shussssshhh

23/07/2022

An overview on RAMCOA

RAMCOA is an acronym for what is known as Ritual Abuse, Mind Control, Organised Abuse.

Ritual Abuse is an extreme, sadistic form of abuse particularly on children and non-consenting adults which often includes mind control and highly illegal activities. Ritual Abuse is commonly justified with religious or political ideologies.
A ritual is an action that has symbolic meaning and the extreme rituals are commonly reserved for rare occasions. Meanwhile the minor rituals could be used on a daily basis.

Mind Control within RAMCOA refers to when a separated part of someone’s mind has been trained to obey someone else without question while other parts of the mind aren’t aware of what is going on. Mind Control is apart of what is known as Programming which is where either a family, an organisation or a cult builds a DID collective within a young child in order to condition the alters to follow commands. Programming also refers to the process of teaching part of the mind unquestioned obedience in all circumstances and to the content of what is taught.

Organised abuse involves multiple adults who conspire to sexually abuse one or more children. This can be a sexual exploitive exchange for money or the distribution of po*******hy. It is common for child victims of organised abuse to continue to be abused into adulthood.

‘I think I’ve been through RAMCOA. What should I do?’

Nothing until you have a specialist. If you discover that there’s programming inside of your mind, don’t touch it or try to do anything with it. If you don’t have access to a specialist then wait until you do. Programming can be extremely dangerous.
I also urge people not to do any form of research over the methods used to force a child to develop DID. Someone reading into this information can cause extreme emotional dysregulation, false memories, hallucinations and suicidal thoughts. You may uncover memories that you aren’t ready to process which can cause a host change to take place.

Even if you think you’ve seen it all and that this information won’t affect you. Don’t look into it. I highly recommend against it.

23/07/2022

This page is for people looking for accurate information on Dissociative Identity Disorder and the development written by someone with highly complex DID. There’ll be tough subjects on this page such as information based on Mind Control and Programming.

First off, what is Dissociative Identity Disorder?

DID, formally known as Multiple Personality Disorder is a condition where an individual fails to integrate their personality and consciousness due to their ego states having conflicting needs. This ego states become what we know as alters who hold memories of trauma with strong amnesiac barriers between the alters. This condition is diagnosed when someone appears to have two or more distinct personality states with day-to-day amnesia between switches. DID has a strong association to chronic childhood trauma under the age of 7 years old.

What is Complex Dissociative Identity Disorder?

Complex Dissociative Identity Disorder is characterised by complex splitting patterns, subsystems, a low split tolerance and when the fragments outweigh the amount of alters in a DID collective. This version of DID is commonly associated with sadistic organised abuse perpetrated on a child under the age of 5 years old on a daily basis and C-DID is developed when a child can only use dissociation their primary and only coping mechanism.
Within this subtype, the amygdala is extremely hypersensitive to triggers which in turn causes constant splitting and switching to deal with multiple perpetrators. HC-DID is commonly discovered in survivors of Ritual Abuse, Mind Control, Organised Abuse which is otherwise known as RAMCOA.

Who am I?

I’m a diagnosed HC-DID collective that is hoping to encourage other people with DID to come forward and to spread awareness of the condition. I’m hoping to spread awareness of programming and mind control. I’m not an expert but I’ve got firsthand experience as someone living with the condition.